"..... Hm"
She sat in his lap once more.
"When i was a little kid, i was a really energetic kid. I was always smiling, i loved to talk to people, and get to know them. Mama said i was like sunshine shaped into a person... It's kind of mushy, but that's what Mama said... But, then the other kids said i was annoying. They kept saying it was creepy that i was always smiling, and spoke so loudly and happily. They started to bully me a lot.... I can't remember most of what happened of course, but i do recall crying a lot. I thought if being the way i was made them hate me, they'd like me again if i just changed. So i stopped smiling. And i tried my best to talk slowly too. I did this for so long...... It kinda took over my personality. Now i have trouble smiling and conveying my emotions through my voice. This didn't actually solve my problems either. It stopped the bullying, but replaced it with seclusion. Once i got into primary school, then middle school. People wouldn't talk to me because they didn't know how to. I've overheard them talking about me before. They said stuff like, She's so hard to talk to, i just don't know what she's thinking, it's so creepy. Her face is so static and empty, she's like one of those creepy old dolls. I started to just accept that people didn't want anything to do with me. So i stopped trying to talk to others. I made myself an island. When high school started last year, i thought things might change when some pretty girls invited me to karaoke. It was just the four of us, and i thought they might become my first friends in so many years. But... after hearing me sing i guess they hated it so much they couldn't stand looking at me."
She lifted her arms and put them around the back of Riku's neck, looking up at his face.
"Then... I met you. Someone who actually wanted to be my friend. Someone who had fun hanging out with me. You paid more attention to me than anyone has in a long time, except my parents of course. I was scared, and you made me feel safe. You gave me a gift just because you knew it would make me happy. You promised to stay by my side and always help me.... and i believe you. You even put me before yourself. Heh. You just asked me several times if i was ok with you touching me, and now i'm babbling like an idiot. I guess what i'm trying to say is. I want to be with you forever. My fear may be holding me back right now... But when it's you, i want you to touch me. And i want to touch you" She gently took hold of his hands and put them on her breasts. Then she placed her own hand on his crotch.
"So please. Explore my body as much as you like. I want you to. And i hope you'll let me do the same?"