"i know you are only trying to help, but i just can't show you. the places that he hurt me are places that i only wanted you to touch. and if i let you touch them now, i fear that every time you do touch them in the future i would think about how you had to fix them and i don't want you touches to be linked with this awfulness" Nia tries to try and explain it the best she could not sure if she did or not.