love is...what?? What does he know about love?!? I know about love...I've been drowning in love. I fucking AM love...
I start to seethe, quietly, a furnace building heat right there face next to his my mouth in his ear my fingers over his eyes. Seethe, my anger radiating into him I know he feels it I can smell the first immediate flush of fear I could rip out his eyes twist his neck tear off his head and he knowssss it ahhhhh
"Love, huh?" I whisper, dryly into his ear, "Love is action? Love is me baking cookies, love is me under your desk?"
I've fucking had it with him. Hands over eyes, mouth at his ear, I turn him and start walking him out of the bedroom. He's blind, walking.
"All I've been is action, Charles," I continue, controlling my voice as I lead him down the hall, past the few stray boxes, "all I've been is love."
We're back at the living room, he's still blind in my graspp, he's not daring to say a fucking word.
"Being your French maid, making you a picnic at the beach. That was love," I continue, guiding him in, "Buying u dinner, getting u to the doctor, that was all love."
I get him where I want him, and - hands still over his eyes - I move in front of him. The wall that used to have his tv is behind him.
"What have you done?" I say, down to him, looking at him, "You layed in bed for a week. You let me take care of you, cut your hair, give you a bath. You sucked your thumb for me, you let me buy you presents." He's so small. "You let me feed you a bottle, pack all your stuff for you..." He's so small, he's quivering.
"...And now I'm letting you move in with me? Now you're letting me support you, because you've lost your home, your money, everything?" I say, somehow not screaming all this. I look down at him still, still breathing, still filling my chest.
"I know what I am to you, Charlie," I say, regarding him plainly, watching his trembles and quakes as I start to back him up, "I know I'm the crazy, overly-attached girlfriend. I know I'm just a body, a big set of tits to you." He stiffens at that, but I press on, press him back to the living room wall.
"You say love is about action, Charlie, about doing things..." I continue, "...and just look what this 'big set of tits' has been doing for you." My hands totally cover his face, they're so big. "But I don't need action out of you, honey, can't you see that? All I need is the fucking words. I need to hear them, Charlie," I say, suddenly overcome and fighting back a sob, "or I don't know what I'm going to fucking do..."
Hands still over eyes I push him harder against the wall.