“Thanks.”She mumbled, resting her head against his chest, flinching a little as she felt his arms closing around her, but aware enough to know it was dean, it was dean and not lucifer or john pulling her around, getting ready to throw her around and start the next round of torture. Shifting, keeping his hands from resting over her stomach, even knowing he knew, she wasn’t ready to admit she had once again gotten one of their children killed. And cas hadn’t even told hem the worst of it yet.“M-me to.”She stuttered a little, turning her head to rest her cheek against his shoulder, forehead against his cheek, simply staying close. Closing her eyes, simply needing to be close. To brace herself for the change in their relationship, enjoying these last few hours of being his girlfriend, of being what he needed. She knew things would change, when he really thought about it. Needed to enjoy the last few hours where they really were together, before things changed forever “I-I just...tried to stop dmitri...I didn’t,...I didn’t....”She stuttered, crying quietly.
“Yea...I did. But it was worth it. Made sure that you both lived.”Cas sighed because he was still feeling exhausted, before nodding. “You both are going to be bed ridden.”Cas said before going quiet, thinking it over. “...Healing. But....”Cas chewed on his lip, before the words spilled out, the words he hadn’t been able to bring himself to tell anyone, not even sam or dmitri, because he hadn’t wanted dean to know. Not yet. “....He took out....her uterus, along with the baby. And started to skin her alive. And broke her hand multiple times, I think he was trying to make sure she could never write dean again, if she managed to survive.....cut the muscles in her hands to Even with the healing, I don’t know if she’ll be able to write with that had ever again....”Cas shuddered because while he knew bailey could fight and write, and do anything needed with both hands, in a fight, in a hunter’s life, being that crippled would be a liability, a weakness for a enemy to exploit.