FoxWriter
Cluster
- Joined
- Jan 20, 2011
- Location
- in the realm of lust and seduction
he nodded. "i'm so glad you saved this for me." he whispered. "...most of the time i never even... even saw the things you wrote. my hands where always covered in blood, my arms where always covered." he admitted softly. "and the few times i saw anything, John was alwas there, watching, waiting to beat the shit out of me if he caught me responding." he admitted. "yeah. that's adorable the way he and Cas are trailing after each other like lost puppies" he admitted with a chuckle. "i think that would be a good idea... the drugs... i couldn't hardly think. i thought they where helping me you know? making it better to focus. making it easier to hunt...i can tell now, that... that they where making everything worse... but all i want to do is... is go and get more." he admitted. "yeah. i think i'd like that. even if it's just for a few days maybe i can sort out some of these emotions and work through the pain of my life or.. whatever." he muttered before wincing. "i'm sorry... i just..." he swallowed thickly. "after you left, John used to make me sleep with whores, to 'get it out of my system'... i wasn't safe enough. i wasn't... i didn't know about safe sex. so sometimes, they'd get pregnant... and... John used to make me go with them to.... to get rid of the baby..." he admitted sodtly. "i guess... i guess i'm just..." he shook his head. "you're not like them." he promised. " just... i wanted to say it, because... becase John's still fucking with my head..." he admitted. "i'm sorry."