Ben frowned a little, “...No. We don’t know. But it’ll be okay.”Ben muttered he hoped. If the children ripped her apart from the inside from a rape he hadn’t been able to stop, Ben knew dean would never recover from it, even if she was reborn. “Okay, no morrigan then.”He muttered before wincing a little, “...You wanted to go back. You tried to stay, I know....but in the end...”He shrugged a little watching the other as he got the cream and tuna out, before nodding. “But you’re not. Because it’ll upset morrigan. And well, no more bar tenders for Sammie, so you don’t get to go pick them up.”he teased weakly, hoping for a smile, well aware of what happened the last time dean had drunk, cause he’d asked sam. “Well, you’re a little weird yourself.”he pointed out before wincing, sighing softly, “....We should have been safe. Cas was looking after us, even if we didn’t remember. It was just a fucked up mess.”Ben sighed wincing a little before nodding, “Okay then. You’re going to go wake up Morrigan though, and get some sleep. I doubt she’d mind the company for the night.”Ben said looking stubborn and ready ot wake up morrigan himself if dean didn’t. it hurt, to know dean wanted her, needed her, but he'd try to be better about acceping it, even if it hurt to know he was being left behind