When I decide I want to write a reply, I’ll start thinking about what I want to say. Basically I’m writing the reply in my head. I do this while I’m doing something else, before I sit down in front of my laptop. It’s the two steps ahead syndrome. Does it take away from what a person is doing in that moment? Instead of enjoying a hot shower or doing their job well, they’re thinking about what they’re going to say in a response. Sadly I think that sometimes my best work is done in my head, lost before my fingers can make it to the keys. Perhaps I should carry a recording device around with me so that I can my thoughts down in some way. Can you imagine the looks I would get at my job, speaking the thoughts and actions of some my characters in the situations they find themselves in? I might get fired. Lol. Still I was drying off from shower, and I began thinking about my next reply I was going to work on. Those thoughts shifted to this journal entry. I’m glad I got some of the ideas expressed here now. They were not lost.
It’s warm tonight. Too warm for my tastes. I already long for winter again. The cooler temperatures suit me better. Fall is a southerner’s reward for making it through summer, or so I read somewhere. To gain a reward you must first walk through the fire. Every southerner knows that summer is certainly a fire. Flowers are in bloom, pollen counts are high, and of course business in a home improvement store is booming. Keep enjoying the spring, and welcome summer. I despise it. Never have I liked being outdoors. In the simplest of terms, it’s boring, there are bugs, and it’s hot. In short, I’m much happier inside. Recently I enjoyed one of the perks of working where I do though. I bought my mom a dogwood tree. She’s wanted one for a while, and a personal situation occurred to where buying her one seemed like a good idea. So I did. I’d say what the situation was here, but I don’t want to come across as wanting attention. So I’ll just leave it blank. You can fill in the blank with whatever you like. I was off from work today. A good day to get some work done, and all I managed to really accomplish was sleeping and cooking dinner tonight. Being productive is overrated. I’m tired. Sleep was a necessity, and we all must eat. In my last entry I mentioned feeling blue. I still do to some extent. My request thread garnered some attention. One rp had started as a result. On E I message an old partner, finally consumed with wondering why he simply abandoned the rp we were working on. Was I angry? No. Of course not. Anger accomplishes nothing. I was curious. Turns out he offered an explanation and would still like to continue. I don’t have high hopes that it will work out, and honestly I’m fine with that. Good luck to him in all his endeavors. Have you ever just been in a good mood for no particular reason? Everything just seemed perfect, and you were happy. I’ve done that before. It hasn’t happened in a while. Maybe I’m overworked, stressed. Maybe it’s the heat. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy. It’s just that euphoric, in a good mood for no reason at all feeling has eluded me for some time. Maybe I need to get drunk and have some fun in the bedroom. Lol.
These thoughts are nothing more than the ramblings from a woman before she writes a reply. I thank you for allowing me to express them here. Even more, I thank you for reading them. Have a good night BMR.