AndNich123
Pulsar
- Joined
- Jan 22, 2014
I am all caught up! I owe no one a reply! That is a good feeling. Even with the group rp, I am caught up. Life is good. Lol. My vacation is over, and today I return back to work. I didn’t go anywhere, but taking time off from work was a good thing. I was burned out. We all need time to just recharge our batteries. I took it an enjoyed time with family as well as my friends here at BMR. All in all, it was a good vacation. I had taken the time off with the plans of going to meet with someone I’ve met online, but the plans fell through. So it looks like next month I may be planning the trip for then. Oh darn. I’ll have to take more of my vacation time. Lol.
My anxiety levels have been a roller coaster lately. Some days I’m fine, feeling like I’m part of the group, like I belong, and other days I find myself utterly jealous of certain people and feeling like I’m on the outside looking in. It’s something I cope with. I mean I know the truth. The people I’m talking about are my partners, my new friends, and yet at times I feel like I don’t belong with them. I just wish I didn’t feel like that at all. They’re really wonderful people, so full of life and this amazing energy. I’ve got high hopes for this rp we’re all taking part in. Most group rps don’t last that long. It seems to be the curse of group rps here, but this one has so much life in it. There are so many plots mapped out, yet to be played. So I’m hoping this one will last for a while. As far as rps go, I’m not taking on any new ones. It’s a matter of not wanting to become overloaded. I have one that has finished and one that I’m not sure if we’re going to let my last post be the last one or not yet. Reydan, if you read my journal, lol, are we finished with An Unknown Fate? Something Ordinary is the one that has come to a conclusion, and that was a pleasure to work with him on. The Two of Us is an interesting endeavor for me. It’s a first person rp. So far, so good. Then again, what more can I say? It’s always good when I work with Reydan. Sadly rl has interfered, and I think one of my partners may not be able to return to BMR. He hasn’t been seen online in a couple of months. So I shall send him an email. I think I already have, but I will send one more. If it goes unanswered, I will be putting MurderMe.com back up in the search for a partner. I have to have a certain feel, a certain vibe for a partner with this one. So I will say in advance that if anyone inquires about it, not that I expect that to happen, and I turn you down, it’s because that feel is not there. I mean for example, I don’t know that I could rp a violent rp with Reydan. I’ve seen him be dominating and mean, but violent? I don’t know that I could. I couldn’t do a romantic rp with Tyr. No way. His characters are anything but romantic. I received a post from Alvis on the group rp we’re doing, and I’ve never seen one of his characters as cruel as what he was. It was hard to take. Real hard. Heck I let two people in rl read what he posted. One cringed while the other one said that was mean. Lol. I replied to that one post last night, and it was something. So my point being if the feel isn’t there, I won’t do that rp with just anybody. I’d like to see the plot done all the way. We’ll see. I have another rp that I think may be coming to a close sometime as well. My partner and I have an incredibly slow posting rate for it. It’s an emotionally charged rp. What Goes Around dives into the depths of revenge and cruelty. I think DeRe and I are almost finished with that. It is so nice to work with such diverse and talented people. I still think about the partners who got away. Our rps didn’t work out, and as much as I would love to work with them again, it just doesn’t seem to be happening. So I give them a salute of respect for their persevering attitude and going forward in their search of, and finding, the right partners and plots for their tastes. May we all be so lucky. Have a good day BMR.
My anxiety levels have been a roller coaster lately. Some days I’m fine, feeling like I’m part of the group, like I belong, and other days I find myself utterly jealous of certain people and feeling like I’m on the outside looking in. It’s something I cope with. I mean I know the truth. The people I’m talking about are my partners, my new friends, and yet at times I feel like I don’t belong with them. I just wish I didn’t feel like that at all. They’re really wonderful people, so full of life and this amazing energy. I’ve got high hopes for this rp we’re all taking part in. Most group rps don’t last that long. It seems to be the curse of group rps here, but this one has so much life in it. There are so many plots mapped out, yet to be played. So I’m hoping this one will last for a while. As far as rps go, I’m not taking on any new ones. It’s a matter of not wanting to become overloaded. I have one that has finished and one that I’m not sure if we’re going to let my last post be the last one or not yet. Reydan, if you read my journal, lol, are we finished with An Unknown Fate? Something Ordinary is the one that has come to a conclusion, and that was a pleasure to work with him on. The Two of Us is an interesting endeavor for me. It’s a first person rp. So far, so good. Then again, what more can I say? It’s always good when I work with Reydan. Sadly rl has interfered, and I think one of my partners may not be able to return to BMR. He hasn’t been seen online in a couple of months. So I shall send him an email. I think I already have, but I will send one more. If it goes unanswered, I will be putting MurderMe.com back up in the search for a partner. I have to have a certain feel, a certain vibe for a partner with this one. So I will say in advance that if anyone inquires about it, not that I expect that to happen, and I turn you down, it’s because that feel is not there. I mean for example, I don’t know that I could rp a violent rp with Reydan. I’ve seen him be dominating and mean, but violent? I don’t know that I could. I couldn’t do a romantic rp with Tyr. No way. His characters are anything but romantic. I received a post from Alvis on the group rp we’re doing, and I’ve never seen one of his characters as cruel as what he was. It was hard to take. Real hard. Heck I let two people in rl read what he posted. One cringed while the other one said that was mean. Lol. I replied to that one post last night, and it was something. So my point being if the feel isn’t there, I won’t do that rp with just anybody. I’d like to see the plot done all the way. We’ll see. I have another rp that I think may be coming to a close sometime as well. My partner and I have an incredibly slow posting rate for it. It’s an emotionally charged rp. What Goes Around dives into the depths of revenge and cruelty. I think DeRe and I are almost finished with that. It is so nice to work with such diverse and talented people. I still think about the partners who got away. Our rps didn’t work out, and as much as I would love to work with them again, it just doesn’t seem to be happening. So I give them a salute of respect for their persevering attitude and going forward in their search of, and finding, the right partners and plots for their tastes. May we all be so lucky. Have a good day BMR.