"I hated it," she admitted after a moment, smiling. "At first, I mean...my boyfriend at the time was pretty cute, but he didn't...know how to handle me, I guess is the best way to put it." Jana murmured. "I just couldn't get satisfied, it started to annoy me...I started blaming myself...but when I started learning things with Master Mel, I realized it was just...I didn't understand myself. I thought I wanted what was best for me because he felt like the best. It sunk into our sex life...Komoku? It's a weird choice, but the first time I had sex was with the gym teacher at Red," she laughed.
"Man, I didn't even know what to do around him. He's this really rough, grumpy kind of guy...I don't know what he saw in some seventeen year old. But...one thing led to another, and then another thing lead to me getting fucked stupid in the girls locker room." she chuckled. "I don't know...when that happened, I think I just...realized that I didn't really know what I want, so I stopped trying to force myself to fit into some kind of hole."