Tom swallowed hard and he covered his face with his hands. "i can't even... they just..." he shook his head. "i wanted to, and then i remembered that they... and i just.." he looked up at Alex, tears brimming in his eyes. "this isn't fair...Alex.. i want to feel good again like when you touch me... and all i feel is disgust at myself for... for..for ENJOYING it!" there, he'd said it.. he was such a dirty little whore, a nasty little slut. he covered his face with his hands again. "i'm so wrong inside Alex... i'm so dirty.... who...who cums..when their being raped!?"
Draco sighed a little and shook his head. "i don't know." he admitted. "if Tom is actually ready for this step..." he frowned a little. "but we both know he isn't..." he muttered standing up and he headed over tot he other room, gasping as he heard Tom's admittance, a hand to his mouth. "oh that poor boy..." he murmured softly. "it's so much harder, knowing you enjoyed it." he admitted softly wrapping his fingers in Abraxas's, holding his hand tightly. "it almost makes it feel all your fault..." Draco knew, Draco understood. because Lucius had not let Draco go during those weekly sessions, unless Draco came for his father. "i think... i might get in contact with a therapist...all four of us could really use one..." even if they where going to have to drag Alex there in a full body bind.