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Through the Veil (citizenanon x shani)

"Listen to yourself, Bellatrix. Of all the people in this house right now, you are the one who needs the help the most." Sirius said softly. "You've had the world on your shoulders far earlier than you were ready for and you have tried to carry it alone, but you can't, Bella. No one person can do that. You need help and you need the love that your family can give you." Sirius said. "I know what your childhood was like. I know what you had to learn and had to give up thanks to how you were raised, Bella. It's wrong and deep down, you know it. You can see how Reggie was raised, how Cissy was raised then compare it to yourself..." Sirius shook his head. "You even did so much to try and shield me from that kind of training."

Sirius sighed. "You don't have to face the world alone, Bella. Let us help you."
 
"I do not! I can do it..." Bellatrix said trying to tell herself she didn't need help. She had really been on her own for too long. Not fully having the support she should have feeling like a failure when Dromeda went away and when Sirius became a Griffindor she felt like it was her fault, having been an influence in their early lives. This time she would prove it she would not no she could not fail until her cousin came back from the future and was trying to stop her. "My childhood was fine...I was taught just fine...what did I give up?" Bellatrix asked she couldn't remember what she had given up because of her upbringing unable to really see what she missed out on. "Reggie is currently fine...Narcissa is fine...I..I...I am fine..." She stated she studdered when she got to herself there were times when she wasn't fine and it hurt. "I...tried..."

Taking a deep breath..." Sirius...it's too late for me....look at how angry I get...how destructive I get...this is a part of me now...no one can help me..." She said shaking slightly as tears appeared in her eyes..
 
"You are not fine. Not even a little bit. You missed out on having a care free childhood. You were taught what was expected from you from a young age. You never truly got to be a child. No. You gave that up so that I could be a kid. So that Narcissa could be a kid. So that Reggie could be a kid." Sirius scooted out of his chair and walked over to sit beside her. "But that's not something that has to be forever, Trixie." Sirius said softly. He pulled Narcissa's chair out and sat next to her. "I can tell you, Bella, that knowing what I know now, I can't tell you how much I appreciate your help." Sirius reached out to take her hand and gave it a squeeze. "It is not too late for you. It's never too late. Even in the future, when you attacked me... it was a stunning spell you hit me with, Trixie. I've replayed it over and over in my mind. Even after having a decade in that place, you still cared. Let me care for you now, Bella." Sirius held her hand. "It won't be fast and it won't be easy, but I can help you and show you how happy that you can truly be."
 
"I am a respectable pureblood witch who was about to be married....I turned out fine..." She said not wanting to believe that she wasn't she did what was asked of her she was to be married she did everything the was wished for her. Even going to war for her family for them to be happy and safe. Thinking about it sure she remembered having good times as a child with her siblings, but then remembered she was always in leasons, and training, and ediquette classes. The others didn't have t go through as much, since Bella did Bella could teach them as well. Bellatrix rested her head on her hand as tears fell.

Hearing him say he appreciates her she looked at him as he took her hand squeezing it. "But it is...I can't control my emotions...if the future happens it's definately too late..." She replied. Listening to what he said what he believed her for killing him was a simple stunning spell. "How...did you figure that out?" She asked seeing as he said she tried to kill him. "I can't....I'm not supposed to be happy...you know my future tell a time when I am happy?" She asked him, it just wasn't ment to be.
 
"That future is not going to happen here, Bellatrix." Sirius explained softly. "I have already changed so much that it's not going to happen." He sighed. "I can't even say that my godson will be born or that the people I know and love are going to even exist." He smiled, "But what I can say is that we are going to make the future better. For you. For me. For little Sirius... for Reggie." He smiled. "For the whole Black family. Bella, that future is not you. Not anymore. You can be happy and if I have any say in the matter, you will be happy." Sirius squeezed her hand and used his other hand to make her look him in the eyes. "You deserve to be happy, Trixie. You deserve to be loved. All you have to do is realize that."

Sirius put an arm around her shoulders and pulled her to him. "You can be happy, Bellatrix. You deserve at least that much and if I have any say in the matter, you deserve much, much more."
 
Bellatrix blinked at him tha mus be hard growing up knowing so many people only for them to possibly not exist. Bellatrix was so conflicted her mind was all over the place she had already suffered damage before Tom even came into the picture and she never realized. Still looking at the table, while he held her limp hand. Unable to believe him unanle to remember when she was genuinely happy. Looking at him as he made her, looking at him her eyes sad, her inner child wanting to break free from the prison Bella had locked her childhood away in.

As he pulled her close she began to sob breaking down crying.
 
Sirius smiled despite the trembling and sobbing Bellatrix that he held in his arms. This was big news. This was the 'weakest' that he had ever seen his cousin. It was like feeling a life of pain unleashing at once. Sirius did not talk nor try to stop her from crying. All he did was rub her back while she cried herself out.
 
Bellatrix had been doing a lot of crying lately not around anyone until now unable to help if he kept pushing hrt to emote it was driving her mad not knowing what to feel or how to feel up until these last few days she was fine content with the world but everything had been flipped on her. Sobbing into his arms her body was shaking trembling from the crying. Showing weakness break her cold exterier.
 
"It's okay, Trixie." Sirius called softly as he stroked her back. "It's okay. It's going to get better and you're going to get better." Sirius did not mind the tears on his shirt nor any of the other lovely leaks that people sprung when crying. "You'll see. Things are going to be different now and much better. I promise. I swear it."
 
Though she was breaking down it almost felt right granted her mind was trying to tell her other wise. She wasn't sure if she could believe him havig put her trust in her parents who failed her, Tom who failed her, and now him. Calming some she went to pull away seeing that she soaked his shirt and that snot ended up on him as well. Feeling emabaressed she blushed then hid her face in her hands.
 
"No, none of that." Sirius admonished softly when he saw her blush. He waved his wand and the stains on his shirt disappeared. Sirius left her side for a moment and filled a glass with water before bringing it back to her so she could drink. "Don't be embarrassed, Trixie." Sirius smiled and continued to stroke her back. "It's okay."

Sirius pulled her wand from his pocket and set it back on the table for her. She was in a much different mood now and he did not believe her in the hexing mood at the moment.
 
Bellatrix continued to hide her face, when he said 'no'. Seeing the glass he put down, "It's not okay..." Se said drinking from the glass still trying to hide she was crying near another person, her make up was ruined, she looked a mess. Seeing her wand she went to take it but insead felt arms wrap around her from behind. Bella's eyes widened seeing his hands the seeing anothers hands, looking at a ring it was Narcissa. Bellatrix hide her face again seeing as her sister had heard her and saw her a mess.
 
Sirius smiled as Narcissa made her presence known. He had completely missed her entrance, but he was pleased that she had come down. "It's okay, Trixie." He said softly again. "Being open and letting people help you is okay." He pressed softly. "Let Narcissa help you now, Bellatrix." Sirius gave her hand a long squeeze and even leaned in to kiss her forehead. "Let's get you upstairs so that you can rest, Trixie. It's been an emotional night."

Sirius was sure that Narcissa could take care of things from here on. Now that she had broken past Bella's hard exterior and found her true nature, he thought it would be good for the two of them.
 
Bellatrix shook her head it wasn't okay she had to be strong this wouldn't do. Her little sister wasn't supposed to see her cry..." Granted it wasn't the first time she saw her sister cry its just the first time Bella knew about it. Bellatrix didn't anwser still trying to hide her face with her hands and her hair. Bella carefully stood up her body still shaking she botom was still sore from when she had been spanked.

Narcissa took Bella's hand and lead her upstairs leaving her letters on the counter.
 
Sirius got up and raided the cabinet before pressing something into Narcissa's hand. It was a dreamless sleep potion. "For her, before you put her to bed. It will help." Sirius insisted. A good night's sleep would help Bellatrix immensely. Sirius watched the two go for a long moment before collecting the one letter addressed to the Black family. He would drop that one off tonight when he raided Narcissa's room.

After a few minutes, Sirius apparated away to drop the letter off and collect Narcissa's belongings. it was a hour later that he returned with another bag full of belongings. He set them out for Narcissa before preparing for bed. In his room, he set out a pair of dress robes he had lifted from Grimmauld place. They would do well for the next day's meeting. Sirius climbed into bed and was out until morning.
 
Narcissa took the dreamless sleep potion he gave her for Bella, taking her broken sister up to bed. Helping her get dressed and ready for bed getting her to take the potion, laying down in her night gown curling into a ball laying on the bed drifting off to sleep, cuddling into her pillow and blankets.

Narcissa dressed herself in a sky blue night gown climbing into bed with Bellatrix running her finger's through her sister's hair. Trying to help soothe her. Falling asleep after a long day.
 
Sirius slept through the night. Unlike Bell attic though, he did not need chemical assistance. When he woke early the next morning, Sirius grumbled to himself and rolled over content to get a couple more hours of sleep. When he properly woke a couple hours later he let out a great yawn and stretched be fore slipping out of his bed. He showered and dressed in the recently acquired dress robes and focused on making himself presentable. Sirius shaved everything but the goatee away and styled his hair back out of his face. With a deep breath, he acquired the look of power and swagger that so many of the noble class had. With that persona in mind he left for the kitchen. Since he had slept late he could already hear someone moving about downstairs and assumed it would be Narcissa, but hoped it would be both sisters.
 
Bellatrix was out cold getting a peaceful nights sleep for once, no dreams or night terrors to disturb her. Sleeping through the night, and well into the morning. Struggling to wake from her slumber, not normally taking potions for sleep.

On the other hand Narcissa had awoken early showering dressing in a lavender sun dress, with a black shawl. Realizing everyone was still asleep granted that was her normal usually up before most people. Narcissa had made her way down to the kitchen, and figured she'd start making breakfast for the other two. Looking into the fridge to see what was there, making omlettes for the three of them granted she wasn't sure if her sister would wake up or not.
 
Sirius stepped into the kitchen and smiled at seeing Narcissa moving around so efficiently. "I should have known that Bellatrix would sleep in this morning." Sirius said and moved to pour himself a cup of tea. "Good morning, Narcissa." He greeted and took his cup back to the table. He was dressed to impress and was preparing to ambush Lucius shortly. He tucked away Narcissa's letter into his robes and watched the young witch move around the kitchen. "How did you sleep last night? How about Bella?"
 
Narcissa jumped slightly not hearing him come into the room, "You gave me a fright." She smiled at him. "Yes Bella was still asleep when I last checked on her. " She shrugged then again Having taken the potion, it wore her sister out. "Morning don't you look dapper." She smiled turning to fully look upon him. "I slept alright once I got Bella to bed, I assume she is fine not another word was spoken between us she took the potion and went to bed, you're more than welcome to check on her..."
 
"I will before I leave. Just to make sure she's okay." Sirius agreed and sipped at his tea. "She had a rough night, but I think that it was a good thing that she broke down like she did. A lot of that has been bottled up for far too long and thank you. I am trying to make a good impression today." Sirius watched Narcissa as she saw to the eggs and when the omelets were ready, he helped plate them before setting them on the table. He even put a charm over Bella's to make sure it was fresh when she came down. "This is good, Narcissa. You're talented in the kitchen. If healing doesn't work out, you could always open a restaurant." Sirius winked to show he was teasing a bit. Restaurant work was not work for pureblood witches.
 
Narcissa nodded Bellatrix was jus difficult and it seemed as the years went on she would get worse. "Perhaps it was rather hard to see her like that...." Narcissa said never seeing her sister so pained. "I'm sure that wasn't all it... I'm sure you will." She replied finishing up the omlettes. "Oh thank you..." She smiled then laughed as he suggested her going into food service as much as she enjoyed it that was more for half-bloods or less. Pouring her some tea she wentto the table to sit with her plate.
 
Sirius ate slowly and made small talk with Narcissa until both of them had completed their food. "After you finish up in here, you should start your meditation again. The more you practice, the easier it'll be." He helped her with the dishes before seeing to it that she would be able to practice. "Oh!" He pulled the spare bag that he had filled with her belongings. "Here. This belongs to you. All of your belongings. Just unshrink it and you'll be able to decorate however you like."

With her squared away, Sirius made his way upstairs to Bella's room. He did not knock, but stepped slowly into the room and glanced around looking for Bellatrix.
 
Talking with Sirus as they ate keeping an ear out for Bellatrix. "Yeah I assume that would be a good idea, to continue practicing." He was right it would make it much easier and she'd get better control of it. Looking at the bag confused "Oh, thank you.Is there another room or am I sharing with Bella?" She asked once she recieved her anwser she went to the yard to meditate again.

Bellatrix laid in bed in her black nighty, in a sleep like state. Hearing the door open she groaned softly, turning away. from the window facing toward the door, not knowing who was there.
 
There was another room that Narcissa was able to use. With that room gone though, there were no more spare bedrooms. Either people would have to start bunking together or they would have to not take in strays.

Sirius stepped into Bella's room and crossed over towards the bed. He had heard her groan and watched her shift towards the door. He walked in and set a headache relief potion on the bed side table before sitting down on Bella's bed. He reached out and brushed some of her dark curls from her face. "Good morning, Trixie." He greeted gently. "How are you feeling?" He thought she might have a headache from all the crying the day before. "There's a pain relief potion here that'll help with your headache if you have one and there's food waiting for you down stairs."
 
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