"Ohh! No no, it's not a problem at all. I just wondered because I have never had anyone order food for me. It isn't a bad thing in the least, I was just surprised." It was a very obvious thing to do to display one's courtship status, she reasoned. Elves didn't do it, but Markus had declared his intentions towards her very openly, so it made sense that he would follow the traditions of his people in that regard. His questions about her made her blush slightly, and she found herself at a loss for words. She truly didn't find herself fascinating in the least. Quite the opposite, she was very ordinary in her opinion. At least she had been until for some reason Sarenrae had chosen her as an oracle and her entire world had been turned upside down. She would never dream of questioning the will of a divine being but sometimes...sometimes she wondered if her life would have been so terrible if she'd been able to stay in her village and follow the path she had chosen, rather than the path that had been chosen for her.
"I...don't really know. Ever since I've come here, there have been healers more skilled and more powerful than I am, and there is no call for me to practice the other arts I was trained in. Things are very different here than among my people. There is no veneration of the spirits of ancestors, no worship of the spirits of nature so there is no need to perform any rites or rituals for that purpose, or for blessing homes or births or things of that nature." She frowned slightly, looking down at the table. "I...there is very little that I have to remind me of my home, and even less that I can have with me. There were so many rituals and festivals and celebrations that...that humans do not revere. Even now, we are the middle of one of our lunar festivals. And yet...I look everywhere and see nothing even resembling a glimmer of the familiar. It is...unnerving sometimes."
She sighed slightly, feeling as though she were being entirely too negative about the situation. She supposed that she should be more grateful for the position she was in, even if it was nothing that she had ever prepared for or desired. Her dreams had always been very close to home, a family of her own perhaps, a position of respect among her people. "I do have my studies of course. I've been studying the anatomy and physiology of humanoid species. I am not the most powerful healer of course, so I hope to strengthen the effect of my spells with a detailed understanding of the workings of the body. That is...that is going well." It really wasn't because a working internal understanding of the body and how it operated required dissection and corpses and she was rather certain no one around here would care much for researching in a manner that so closely resembled necromancy.
She tried to smile a little but it felt a bit flat. "I..read, quite a bit. I confess I haven't really gotten out much. It feels very awkward being one of the only people in a town to be of a certain race. There are other elves but not very many, and none from my village or even region. We weren't the highborn elves in their shining cities. We were a small village, and we didn't have much contact with the outside world. I didn't even see my first human until I was...sent away from my tribe after the whole...you know...oracle calling was revealed."