She looked at him and had to wonder why she was so trusting of him. She was telling him things she had not even told Lund or Kiana. "I suppose I just want this marriage to be built on a foundation of truth. It won't work if it's built upon lies. As for if I still care for the man..." she paused for a long while then, taking a hearty sip of the drink in her hand, "I think I do but... it's not in the same way I cared for him at the start. Something about... how... well...." she paused again and spoke feelings she had had for a long time but never spoke. "The night I lost my virginity to him, I had asked him to stop. I didn't want to sleep with him. But he kept kissing me and asking me please. So I bent to his will even though I did not want to. Something about the way I felt about him changed that night. I had said no and I can not help but wonder why, if he loved me, he did not respect that. Rather he pushed me to give in to what he wanted. After the night morning we were caught together, he vanished all together. We had spoken of running away to be married but he just ran away from me when times were bad. I felt... abandoned. I don't feel the same way I once did about him. I don't really know how I feel I suppose."
It felt good to get that confession of her long buried feelings out into the open.