She groaned a little and lowered her head, resting her face against his shoulder then, her face by now just burning with embarrassment. "You're going to make me say it, aren't you?" She sighed and moved, sitting up, not able to look him in the face as she spoke, spelling it out for him, "I mean... it traditional sex that good? I mean, I always figured it had to be since Juliet forbid Dilian from doing it with me. If it's as good as what you just did then I suppose I understand why. She didn't want him doing anything with me unless I got nothing from it." She was nervous of what his reaction might be and when she was nervous, she tended to just ramble on and on, even about things she didn't want to say. There was no controlling it. "If it's just as good I finally understand why now. I mean, it's an absolute horror from behind. There is nothing I can do but just, you know, take it. And having to use my mouth, he just..." she was started to shake a little, her eyes tearing up but she kept on rambling onward, "he rips at my hair and makes me gag. Sometimes he'll even slap me when he's making- making me-" She hugged her knees to herself, resting her head against her knees, still shaking.