A Niche in Time

Trying day. I'm still stunned. I have talked to one of my partners about what is going, and I thank her for her advice. Thanks for being a good friend too.
 
Edit : Was afraid of coming across as annoying and nagging, and that's exactly what the post sounded like. lol.
 
*Leans against her dragon* Thanks Sirix. I know sometimes it's needed, but I don't want to bug anybody. I do worry about what other people think. All the time. You have no idea.
 
Its ok to worry a little, just don't let it stress your life out. Stress can do some crazy things to a person.
 
Listen to your dragon. Make yourself happy first, and instead of caring about everyone and speading yourself so thin you stress out... Try only to care about those that really matter.

Besides, let people think what they want, its completely irrelevant...
 
I have a couple of days off from work. I know I owe some replies. So I'm going to try and get those done. If you're looking for a reply from me, keep your eyes opened. I actually do have a spot that has opened up because one of my partners shelved our rp. So I'm on the prowl again. I like to keep busy. A look at my current rps shows that, and I actually have a craving for one of my adopt-a-rps. I might make a slight change to it, but I don't know. It's for the rp, We Meet Again. I really wanted to see that one to completion, but it didn't happen. So I think I want to recruit someone for it.
 
http://bluemoonroleplaying.com/forums/showthread.php?tid=56328

That's the link to it. It was a lit rp. The concept behind it is simple. The two characters went to school together. MC was a popular, bitch who used people. She used his character simply to get him to do her homework. After school, he went on to make his fortune while she ended up being an escort. One evening, after he's given a speech at the local high school he attended, he calls for an escort. He's only in town for the speech, and he's not attached to anyone. The agency sends MC over. At first she taunts him again. Just like she did in school, and at first he takes it. When she starts to leave though, something inside him snaps, and the evening is all down hill for MC. Sadly as things progress, though she's afraid of him, there are times she starts to enjoy certain, normal things. It can be modified for her to begin to enjoy the not so normal things as well. My old partner took it to a very dark place. It as because of this rp I started to really enjoy this sort of thing. No I don't get off on the fact that he held underwater until she passed out and then fucked her unconscious body. I get off on the rush I got from reading that. It's addicting.
 
I remember it was sometime last year. I think the last post to the rp was made this same month in fact. For whatever reasons it was, the rp came to an end. As I always am I was saddened to see it go. It wasn’t just because I’m a rp slut but because I also truly enjoyed this rp. I like to remain friends with my partners even when we’re not rping. My partners aren’t just partners. I’d like to think of them as more than that. So just because we don’t have an active rp going, doesn’t mean we can’t chat. So I would send this person messages on YIM every so often, hoping to spark some interest in a new rp. It never happened. As time progressed, my messages grew fewer and fewer until they stopped. I still saw this person on YIM, but I didn’t want to be considered bugging them. I wanted to rp with them, but I didn’t want to be annoying about it. So I would still the occasional messages hoping they were well and so on, but even those stopped. Not too long ago, I can’t tell you exactly how long it’s been off the top of my head, I got a PM from this person, out of the blue, wanting to do a rp. Needless to say I was elated. We talked, and soon enough a rp was born. A Shift In Power has been beyond a delight to rp with ladydark. She is so much fun to plot and scheme with. What people don’t know is that she and I talk and plot on YIM most of the time I’m online. Lol. While the rp going on, she approached me about taking up where another partner had left off with another rp. She enjoyed it and wanted to keep it going. I read through the rp, and after teasing her slightly about it when she would ask if I had read it, I started posting to it. Trophy Wife has become equally enjoyable to me. Ladydark creates characters that I simply enjoy interacting with. Granted there’s a lot of smut in the rps, the character’s personalities are ones that I can clearly imagine. She brings the names on the screen to life. I just got a message a few moments ago that TW a.k.a. Trophy Wife is posted to. Lol. We do this most of the time I’m online. Send each other a message saying, “TW is up,” or “posted to shift.” It’s fun, and when we’re not rping, she’s sending me pictures, we’re talking about various things, and planning. It’s a very open OOC we have. Although there was something she never told me last. Which two ladydark? I told you something personal. No fair. You gotta spill. On YIM of course. *smile* So this post is to thank my partner, and friend, ladydark. You’ve given me two enjoyable and memorable rps that I hope we can continue for a while.
 
TT____TT Awwwwwww... You're gonna make me cry.... I dont remember you trying to talk to me that much :( now i feel bad for ignoring you... But I guess I've more than made up for that ^__^ I love how make your characters react to different situations and can't wait to see what they'll do next... And it was march 24th that our last rp ended... But for the life of me I can't remember why it stopped, I don't know why I never replied... And as for which two... ^__^ YIM... :p
 
I didn't hound you Ladydark. I did try a few times. I remember once sending you a certain rp hoping you would take it, but nah. It wasn't meant to be. It's a good thing too because the ones we do now more than make up for it. Plus, I have to say, we have some of the best OOC I've had in a long time. Very revealing at times you might say. lol.
 
Sirix! lol. You want a sparkly vampire?

In other news, I have started a new rp. Already we are getting to the meat of the plot, if you will. My desires for rps have taken a darker turn, true, and this is number two that I am doing. This man has been kind enough to take a try at the rp, We Meet Again. Of course there are adjustments to my partner's kinks. I'm perfectly okay with that. I try to cater to my partners, to keep them happy as well. So we shall see how nice Finding Solace goes. So far, I have no complaints. My partner is proving to be talented. dukeofhearts07.
 
Oh my gosh. I am so glad I have two days off. I am so far behind on rps it’s not even cute anymore. Here’s a list in no particular order of what I have to send out.

The Perfect Teacher – Tyr
Just A Peek – Pazzo
The Mages – Sliverknight (Edit: Turns out I already posted)
Acquisitions – Victorian_Virtue (edit: posted)
Finding Solace – dukeofhearts07
Princess and Her Slave – Sirix
A Shift in Power – Ladydark (edit: posted)
Babysitter Debauchery – Caleb Raines
Something Ordinary – Reydan
Summer With Daddy – Tyr
Cassie’s Downfall – Tyr
Could It Really Be you - Group Rp (Added and edit: posted)
Trophy Wife - Ladydark - (posted)

(Edit: See. I am making progress)

That’s all of them from all the different places I have my rps. Whew. Think I’m behind? 11. I love you guys and our stories so much! I don’t think I’ve missed anyone. I looked at my subscribed threads to make this list. And to think, that’s not all of my rps there. Indeed I have more. I have one more in email not shown. I have three more, I think in thread not shown. When I say I’m a rp slut, I mean it. When I say I’m addicted, I mean it. I can tell you what’s basically going on in each and every one of my rps. I keep up with the characters, the scenes for the most part, and it’s amazing to me. Don’t have much room to remember much of anything else in my mind, but these I keep up with. Lol. I belong to another site where I rp in a group rp, but as of late, that rp is slowing down. I’m also a member of one group rp here that’s about to get off the ground. Thank you so much VioletRose. Wonderful idea she had there. Is That Really You? Cast of characters to include her, myself, Reydan, and Boyo111. So it should be lots of fun. I’m also shamelessly promoting another group rp I hoping takes off. Last Virgin Standing. Graphic Depictions has a wonderful idea for a sick, depraved game show. So far, I remember Sirix is signed up to take part in it. That reminds me. Sirix I will try to have those pictures to you today. Perhaps tonight we can both be in bed, and I’ll show you what I got. *wink* Wow. Busy day as you can see. If you don’t have me added on YIM, then I hope to hear from you here on BMR. My inbox is always opened. I haven’t figured out how to close the darn thing. Just kidding.
 
There are a lot of nasty, bad things in the world. Rude people, for example. I myself am just as guilty of what I'm about to rant about, and for that I truly am sorry. I want to openly apologize to anyone that has ever sent me a pm, and I didn't respond to it. That was very rude on my part. Thoughtless. Careless. Sometimes it's easier to avoid an uncomfortable situation or not hurt someone else's feelings if you simply don't answer. That's no excuse. People deserve to be heard and responded to. They took the time to send the pm, they should get a reply. I have six pms in my inbox right now that I haven't even looked at. They've been there a while too. Some a few days. Some longer. I'm sorry to those people that have sent them to me. You deserve a reply, and today I'm going to send you a reply. It may not be what you want to hear, but I will send you a reply. You deserve that much.

Now that I've come down on myself publicly enough for that, I will say it again to all those I have sent pms to. You should have replied. Even if I'm bugging the heck out of you, you're sick of hearing from me, and you just wish I'd go away, you should have told me something. It doesn't take five minutes to tap out a reply to someone and click send. It's a common courtesy. One I haven't extended, and have apologized for already, but you should have done the same to me, for me. I'm woman enough to admit when I've done wrong and try to fix it. Are you man enough to do the same? Show some deceny.

Okay. Enough of that now. I've got that out of my system. lol. Addiction is a nasty thing. I suffer from a couple of those. I have a compulsive, addictive personality. When I find something I like, I tend to over do it. Thus is the case with the sheer amount of rps I do. Currently, I have, I think 19 rps going on. They are all at various stages of activity, but nonetheless, there it is. I am addicted. Yeah I know this. Do I want to stop? No. I'm looking at joining another group rp as it is. I've already got one character profile worked up. That's right. One. As in I plan on doing two characters for this rp. I'm an addict, and I can't help it. I know it's consuming my time, my thoughts, and I can not help it. I can not stop it. Sure I could turn off the computer for a few days and walk away, but let me tell you this. I would NOT be a happy camper. In reality I suffer from anxiety issues. They are crippling in some aspects. I have panic attacks that can be pretty bad. Being online is an escape, a freeing experience that allows me to talk to strangers the way I wish I could. Now when I go to work, the anxiety issues don't bother me that much there anymore. I talk with people there. You take me to a party where I don't know many people, and I'm uncomfortable. Certain situations can make my chest tight and hurt. I can't breathe. A full blown panic attack is tears, hysterics....it's not pretty. So BMR has given me a gateway to this wonderful, free world where my characters can do the things I can't always do. One of my rps is pushing the boundaries for me in a sense that the character is so close to who I really am. Closer than you think. *grin* Imagine a character by the name of Andy that rps on a site called Bluemoon under the user name AndNich123. Sound familiar? The course of events that have spun out of her control in this rp do push my limits. It's that whole dark themed rp aspect I'm addicted to lately. See? Another addiction. It's not the acts that arouse me in these types of rps. Oh sure some of them do, but it's the rush of adrenaline, the heart racing as I read the reply, my toes curling as I feel the emotions my character is experiencing....oh my gosh. *wipes sweat from forehead* I better stop now. *grin* Wow. My partners in these endeavors are all talented beyond words. I truly don't deserve them. One of which is Victorian_Virtue. Acquisitions has become my new drug of choice lately, and he's my pusher. I hope I used the right terminology there. lol. I know NOTHING about drugs since I have NEVER DONE ANY OF THEM. That's actually scary though. The depraved thoughts I have come from my mind, and I've never smoked pot? Swallow that thought if you really know me. I will go deeper into what Acquistions is all about at a later post. I see I now have 7 Pms to reply to, and true to my word, here I go.
 
Damn right you dont deserve us... lol *hugs *

I can assure you, if you ever piss me off bad enough, i will have the testicular fortitude to tell you directly...
Its likewise what I expect from others "Please just go away " hurts a lot less than being ignored and left to wonder...

I am now down to 7 RPs including the one we have... there was a mass exodus of 10 people during those two weeks of intensified study....
I have sent out 15 inquries to various rp enthusiasts, after posting a refrence to some hidden item in thier RT to prove i read all the way through it... no replies at all, like I have been blacklisted...

Shit happens. The silver lining is that I have more energy to devote to my current RP partners, and the stories are better as a result.

7 will be the magic number for me from now on, I am not as stressed, and happier.
I encourage you to try consolidating your stories... If mine doesnt make the cut I understand, but it is a great drain off of you and one less headache
 
Hold your tongue Paz. No really. Hold it. I'd like to see that actually. I don't consider my rps a strain. Any of them. They are a joy to me. I worry about letting my partners down sometimes due to the amount of time it can take to get a reply. When I get really busy, it can take a while to get out 19 replies. Not to mention I belong to group rp on another site. Our rp is a wonderful experience for me. You adopted it for me, and I thank you for that. I don't walk away from rps often. Seriously. If it's in thread, I never walk away. No matter what. My partners and I are putting our work out there for everyone to see, and I'm not walking away from that. Plus I don't want to gain a reputation as a flake. You walk away from rps, you can get that. I honestly want to make a name for myself here at BMR. Thank you for your concern and your offer, but rest assured, I am not walking away from your and Just A Peek.
 
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