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The Key to Going Green(Avengers)Lady/Moon

“I sorta traq’d him before he started foaming at the mouth. Sorta offset things.”Erin snickered a little before smiling. “I know.”She agreed studying him before laughing. “Almost. But not enough to stop.”she snickered.

“No he isn’t, and it makes making fun of him all the more awesome.”he snickered before smirking.”I’m sorry. You’ll have to find your boyfriend.”he snickered before pausing, staring at the other for a long moment, reaching down to adjust himself before swallowing. “I’ll...I’ll keep that in mind.”He stuttered a little before laughing. “Probably. Between him and Erin I’m being fussed over enough to stay healthy.”he snickered before laughing, “He is a sassy bastard.”He agreed before the smirk broke over his face, utterly evil and great. “I know. I watched the video I had jarvis record of that. It’s like my favorite moment now.”he snickered before nodding.”Kay.Later Clint.”He grinned.

Bucky winced as the other shrieked, “Sorry!”He said sounding worried before relaxing as the other laughed, grinning. “It could be a small pony. I mean, he’s fairly big. Erin could probably ride him.” “I am not that small!Besides, it’s just a puppy. To small for rides.”Erin sputtered from where she was sitting in her chair, looking delighted to see steve so animated. “I know. I thought we have the room, and the money now to take care of one, so here you go. A dog to match you, tall and big and protective.”Bucky grinned at him, before frowning, feeling there was a joke there, but not getting it.”....madden? I was thinking Hamlet or something, you know, prince of the danes."Bucky snickered at his own wit.
 
Steve blinked a little. "...that's hilarious!" he admitted with a laugh. "no, certainly not enough to stop." he agreed with a laugh.

Clint smirked. "not even going to offer me a Blowjob? now your just being cruel." he teased with a chuckle as he wiggled his eyebrows at the other." "see that you do." he teased playfully. "i have an entire outfit. Corset, stockings, heals. i look fantastic in it. one of Coulson's favorites actually." he admitted with a grin. "you and him are both sassy bastards." he admitted with a chuckle before he snickered. "i want a copy of that!" he ordered as he wandered off.

Steve laughed as he smiled at the Dog, kissing it's forehead and grinning as the tail wagged wildly. "it's adorable, that's what it is!" Steve admitted with a grin as he wrapped his arms around the dog and snuggled it before snorting at Bucky. "Big Tall and protective huh? sure you're not talking about yourself?" he asked with a grin as he snuggled his new puppy. "yes. Madden. it's Irish." Steve explained, his eyes glittering. "it means 'little dog'."
 
“You should know that by now. I’m a cruel bastard. Torturing you by making you wait....that just amuses me.”Bucky said though it was more because the guilt at being so aroused by steve, and clint ate him alive. Steve because of what happeened, and clint because he had aboyfriend. But he still needed to let the stress out somehow, and this was the least harmful way.

Bucky smiled quietly as erin left quietly, smirking as he settled on the edge of the bed, snickering as madden’s tail whomped him in the chest, “It is adorable. And he’s going to get bigger. He’s only half grown.”He smiled before making a face at the other, “I am not. I’m tall dark and handsome, the dog’s big tall and protective.”He huffed though his eyes were bright with happiness and pleasure at steve being so happy. Laughing he shook his head. “I like it. Only you would name a great dane ‘little.’”He snickered as the dog twisted between them, wiggling and getting comfortable, trying to pay attention to his two humans.
 
Clint just smirked. "well. i'll be sure to wait, just for you then." he promised with a chuckle. "i'll go lay in bed and ache since your so mean." he complained playfully as he headed off, swaying his hips as he went.

Steve chuckled a little as he nodded. "Great Danes are amazing." he agreed, rubbing the boys head. "oh your not that handsome, and i'm taller than you are." he pointed out with a smirk. "and your not that dark now that you took a bath." he teased, snickering. "it's a good name!" he complained, eyes sparkling with laughter as he rolled Madden onto his back and rubbed the boy's belly even as Loki poked his head in to inform them that the Dog's things where here from the stores. asking where Bucky wanted all the things.
 
“Uh-huh. I can’t wait till tony realizes we got a big boy, instead of a small thing. It’s going to be great.”Bucky snickered a little before twitching. “Fine, see if I try being nice to you anymore. I’ll just go back to talking to the girls, they think I’m perfectly tall.”Bucky sulked a little before grinning. “It is a good name. I think he likes it.”He grinned watching Madden wiggle and squirm happily as his stomach was rubbed, glancing at loki. “Bring the bed and the food, and a few toys in here, take the rest upstairs to my rooms.”Bucky said smiling a little as they looked down at madden and steve, relaxed now that the man seemed to be okay for the moment. Letting his mind relax, not thinking about violence and protecting, simply relaxing. Trusting that for the moment, everything was okay.
 
Steve snickered. "he's going to be worse when you realized that what you did to that poor Tablet was on purpose." he stated with a smirk. "he had to completely rebuild the poor thing." he admitted with a laugh. "well, you could do with getting laid." Steve teased. "you're walking around like you have a stick shoved up your ass." he pointed out as Madden squirmed. "...hey Bucky?" he asked after a moment, hesitating. "could... could i..." he fidgeted. "could i sleep in your spare?" he asked softly. "i... i don't want to be alone but i... i don't want to stay in here either..." he admitted, swallowing thickly. he hated having to ask, but he was so scared. and he knew that Jame's rooms where the safest in the entire building. James was safe and he was tired of looking at the lab all the time.
 
“I know, but that was awesome.”Bucky snickered as he considered the tablet before shaking his head. “It needed done. It’ll give him a reason to make it even more user friendly.I was helping, really.”he said before staring at the other, his mouth dropping open a little, looking away before his blown pupils could give him away on who he was thinking about, feeling sick with guilt for even considering it before shuddering. “I do not!I’m fine.Really.”Bucky sputtered, amazed that steve was actually trying to get him laid before tilting his head, grinning at him once he was sure he had things under control. “Yea, it is kinda boring down here. Besides, the room’s already made up for you. Erin figured you’d want to stay with me, moved some of your stuff into the room, make you feel at home.”James fidgeted a little, before getting up.”Come on, Captain. Let’s go.We'll take madden to see his new place."
 
Steve chuckled a little and shook his head. "we're so mean to him." he admitted with a chuckle as he shook his head. "your not fine." Steve scoffed with a roll of his eyes. "but i'll let you pretend you are." he promised with a yawn before he stared at Bucky, wide eyed with shock before his lip quivered and he began to cry. not the gut wrenching soul breaking sobs he did after a nightmare, but the gentler weep of a person who simply can't handle so much god feelings. he wiped his eyes after only a minute and muttered an apology for breaking down, again and stood up and followed Bucky, freezing in the doorway when fear overcame him. deep, gut wrenching terror of the knowledge that there where other people out there. he stood there for a long silent moment and then crept cautiously out of the room. it was rather horrible to watch. it was worse than the time Steve had been in elementary and gotten on the wrong side of a drunk teacher. he'd been bruised for days, and had twitched nervously for weeks. only the fact that his mother had threatened to file a lawsuit against the school saw the teacher fired. Steve had never really gotten over it, he couldn't stop getting into fights after that. the twelve year old boy took nothing from no one after that, refusing t be weak, even when he was. now he had reverted to the terrified eleven year old who had been struck for the first time.
 
“We are, but its so amusing.”Bucky snickered before frowning a little. “/...I’ll see what I can do, to be better.”He muttered before startling as steve started to cry, looking utterly at a loss, anxiety showing in his eyes. “Steve?Steve’s what’s wrong?I don’t have to move your stuff, we can put it back.Whatever you need.”Bucky looking worried as he wrapped his arms around the other hugging him tightly before swallowing. “No need to apologize.”he muttered before following him, wincing as the other man froze, holding out a hand. “Here. Armed and dangerous, Captain.”he muttered handing over the knife in his hand to the other, looking worried, glad that the others weren’t down here, smiling as madden ran circles around them, excited to be somewhere new. Quiet as he got them upstairs, he sighed softly. “You okay, stevie?”he said quietly, gently pushing the other down onto the couch, lookign worried and having no idea how to make it better.
 
Steve smiled at Bucky. "i just want you to be happy." he admitted to Bucky with a small smile before he broke down, shaking his head. "no. no. i'm okay." he promised with a hitching sniffle. "i'm sorry. i'm just... i wasn't sure..." he shook his head. "i don't know why i'm crying." he admitted, wiping his eyes again, trying desperately to stop. he leaned into the hug. Bucky was the only one who could touch Steve without a cringe... well, so long as Steve saw it coming anyway. "...thanks." Steve choked, gripping the knife hard as he followed Bucky. "Fine." he managed to choke out, letting go of the knife as he wrapped his arms around his legs and trembled, looking frightened and frustrated and enraged. "i hate feeling like this. i'm so.. so SCARED all the time even when i know i'm safe... i don't like it... i want it to stop...."
 
“I am happy.Even if I’m thinking a one night stand of stress relieving sex would be a good idea.”Bucky muttered thinking about it beofre sighing, gently stroking the other’s hair.”Steve, if I had been...”he shied away from the memory, a memory almost there, almost...cringing away from something...before focusing again. “I’d been a blubbering, crying mess for days now. You’re okay, Steve. I’m used to you getting snot and tears all over my clothes.”Bucky teased a little before nodding.”Welcome.”he muttered watching him as he settled on the couch, crouching down in front of him, looking so utterly out of his depth, lost and drowning because he needed to protect steve, and he couldn’t. He was utterly lost on how to make this better, and even then, seeing his beautiful best friend.... He felt sick and utterly disgusted with himself really. “It will. With time, Stevie. You’re still handling things. You remember what Erin told you?It comes in stages. You’re like me, I was so scared, so lost when she first found me...but I got better. You will to.”Bucky muttered, wrapping his arms around the other, burying his face against the other’s shoulder, shuddering a little, trying so hard to not cry, trying so hard to not lose that precious control that was the only thing that had kept him from totally losing it in the last days.
 
he nodded a little. "go have sex. i know you hate having to be celibate." Steve admitted with a grin, hating how much he still wanted Bucky. "...i don't cry that much." he complained. but he had. honestly, Bucky was the only person who had ever seen Steve cry before now. he had been a bit of a crybaby before he had gotten smacked around by that teacher, but after that he had never shed a tear in front of anyone save Bucky. not even when his mother died. "...i don't want to 'deal' with it Buck... i want to forget it ever happened." he whispered. "i feel so disgusted with myself for being afraid of Bruce of all people. afraid of Tony... i KNOW they would never lay a finger on me, but i'm still scared." he admitted, shaking his head as he leaned into the other. "...you where scared?" he sounded almost surprised. he had always been under the childish impression that Bucky wasn't afraid of anyone or anything. he just laid there in Bucky's arms, and before he knew it, he was asleep. worn out from the short trip out into the open.

twenty minutes later, Phil Coulson was knocking at Bucky's door. asking if he could talk.
 
“...I will then.”Bucky said sounding utterly lost at the idea that he was getting permission from his crush to go get laid. Making a face at the other.”You totally do, princess.”he teased a little before sighing, stroking the other’s back.”I know you don’t want to, but you need to. Please...don’t not deal with it. You’ll make erin worry even more, and you’ll always be afraid if you don’t deal with the emotions going with it...”Bucky sighed before nodding a little, swallowing hard. “Terrified. Even when I started waking up, when I got my orders...I didn’t...I didn’t know who I was cap...all I had was echoes of things I once knew, ghosts....I felt surrounded by ghosts, and I had no one to trust. I was scared, so scared. Until erin. Let us help you, it’ll be easier, if you let us help. I had no one. You have a team, family.”he muttered before starting to hum, easing the other to sleep.

Startling a little when he heard the door he swallowed.”yea...hold on...”Bucky called back before easing steve down onto the couch, before moving to the door, opening it open a little, stepping out. Not wanting to leave steve, but not about to invite phil in, compromising by standing half in the door, half out. “yes?”He said looking at phil, looking slightly anxious, sure he was about to get yelled at for flirting with clint.
 
"don't call me princess or i'll turn you into a girl." Steve growled, annoyed as he always was. "...i know i need to. it will fester on my inside otherwise. or something like that." he muttered, shaking his head. "i forget what Erin said." he admitted with a sigh and a shake of his head. "i'm tired of being scared though." he admitted, absently patting the pup as it bounded past. "...okay." Steve whispered. he could let them help. it wouldn't be so bad... he could get over this... he could.

Coulson offered him a tight little smile as he studied the other. "Steve must be in there?" he asked, hesitating before he shrugged and handed something to the other. "you'll have to forgive my paranoia. but you'll need to read and sign this before i allow you to fuck Clint." he stated simply. "while i am a dominating asshole. Clint is very precious to me and i wish to ensure that nothing long lasting can be done to him." he admitted. "i would like to ask that i get a video recording of your activities from time to time." he admitted. "i like to watch." Coulson admitted before he shrugged and walked away. in Bucky's hands was a standard contract, of sorts. well, it wasn't standard... it was a list of things Bucky was not allowed to do to Clint. including permanent scarring, branding, piercings, needle or blood play and other such things. it was an agreement for him to obey Clint's Safe-word 'Talladega' at all times no matter the situation. it was basically a sex contract.... Phil was such an Agent. but it was certainly agreement for Clint and Bucky to 'fondue'.
 
“Yea, something like that. I sorta spaced out when she was telling me to. Just tell her you forgot. You’ll get to hear the speech all over again.”Bucky teased a little pressing a kiss to the other’s forehead. “I know, me to.but we’ll be scared together.”He muttered not about to admit he was more scared now for steve, then he’d ever been for himself.

“Yea, he’s sleeping.”Bucky said offering a similar tight smile as he was handed the paper, for a moment simply staring and having no idea what to say as he looked at coulson.”...I hadn’t thought clint was serious in letting me fuck him.”he muttered turning his head to make sure steve was still asleep, not comfortable with the idea steve knew he liked guys, not when the man was so traumatized already, not wanting to freak him out. “Paranoia is a good thing when it concerns something precious.”He muttered before laughing softly.”I’ll record.”he said shrugging a little watching him go before looking over the paperwork. Well. This was something new. Settling in to read as he sat down next to steve. This was so weird.

“So.Steve ordered you to take a break?Go get laid?”Erin snickered amused from where she was laying on the couch next to steve, amused that over the last week of steve being back in bucky’s apartment, and even with the dog, bucky had sank his heels down and refused to be budged and was even more wound tight to the point she was afraid he was breaking. Not sure what was driving him to being so tight assed and tense, but knowing the assassin needed to let the stress out before he shattered. “Yes.”Bucky growled from where he was cooking lunch, pointedly ignoring the command to leave.
 
he chuckled a little and nodded. "i'd rather not. it's a long one and i always fall asleep and then she gets annoyed with me." he pointed out. pregnant women where scarier than women where! "okay." he murmured. if Bucky of all people was scared, maybe it was okay to be scared himself.

Coulson looked a bit worried, Steve was his Idol after all, and he hated himself for letting his guard down and letting Steve be hurt like that. "Clint is always serious about Sex. i broached the Topic with him and he liked the idea so i gave him permission. when he told me you seamed hesitant, i figured it was because you where wary of my reaction." such, an, agent. "yes. i suppose you are right." he agreed with a smile. "you are very paranoid over Steve after all." he admitted, gently patting Bucky's shoulder. "he'll be alright, you'll see. he is a strong man. he won't let this hurt him forever." he promised as he headed off.

Steve was dozing again, but he wasn't so bone dead exhausted anymore. in fact, he had made great strides in his recovery. he was no longer sick, though he did have his moments of complete terror, or flashbacks where he hid in the nearest closet, or under a bed where it was too small to fit anyone but himself. "Buck... please." Steve mumbled, watching his friend. "i'm worried about you..." he pleaded. "go out with Clint and do something fun. your no good like this. you're going to snap and i don't know if i'll be able to contain you if you do." he warned, looking... afraid. Steve was afraid of Bucky. if that wasn't a kick in the teeth nothing was, even more than the fact that Steve was right. if Bucky broke, snapped, reverted... Steve wouldn't be able to talk Bucky down.
 
Bucky laughed softly. “Yes, that was it. It seemed...wrong to cross that line without asking.”he muttered softly snickering quietly.”You are such a agent.”He muttered watching him go, before sighing quietly. “I’m trying not to be. As paranoid I mean.”He muttered looking down, relaxing. If coulson thought things would be okay, he knew things would be okay. This would be okay.

“He’s doing okay, James.You can go out for a few hours, and he wont fall apart. Besides, I’ll be here, and you need to relax.”Erin said watching bucky, flicking a look towards Steve, wincing a little as she saw the look on James’ face as he turned to stare at them. That broken, hurt look filling grey eyes...the moment he realized that steve was afraid of him. “James...go.”She said gently, watching him. James nodded, his shoulders tight and hunched,”Just a few hours. And I’ll have my cell.Call if you need anything.”James said walking out before he lost control, feelign the utter need to cry when he realized that his best friend was afraid of him, feeling like he’d been gutted. Slumping against the wall for a moment he rested his head back against the door before swallowing hard, before going to look for Clint, not caring what he was doing, simply walking towards the man, and after making sure he wasn’t holding a weapon or anything, jerked his head back and kissed him with a desperate anger that was more anger and frustration then it was about passion.

“....”Erin sighed quietly watching him go, slanting a look towards steve. “Don’t worry. Clint’ll take care of him. Wont let him drink that much.”Or at all really. Clint was going to be lucky to not get pounded through a wall or something.
 
"hmm. a noble assassin. how quaint." he teased with a smile. "it's not bad for you to be paranoid. he's hurt. your instincts are to protect him. it only makes sense." he pointed out.

Steve grimaced as well, upset that he had hurt James but he couldn't help it. "i trust you James." Steve promised the other. "i do. but you have to take care of yourself too." he stated gently. "i'll call you if anything at all happens. i swear it." he promised, watching him leave. he looked up at her, tears in his eyes. "i was afraid of him." he whispered. "i couldn't help it and he saw... how can i ever make that okay?" he asked, shaking his head as he laid his head on her lap and wrapped his arms around the swiftly growing Great Dane snoozing with them. "i hate this!"

Clint wasn't holding any weapons. he was in the Gym, pounding on a punching bag. he gasped as he felt his head being jerked back and he went lax in the others grip, moaning into the kiss. there was nothing Clint loved more than to be taken by surprise. he kissed back, as if trying to swallow that anger and frustration. he didn't really care why he was being fucked after all, all he knew was that this was going to be some very fun sex.
 
James gave the other a jerky nod even as he avoided his eyes, staring at the floor. Watching him go Erin swallowed hard as she looked down at Steve, gently running her fingers through his hair, “He’s been expecting you to be afraid of him.he’s used to people being afraid of him. Just let him get this out of his system, and he’ll talk to you after.”he said softly stroking his hair, looking worried for them.”Just talk.He’ll understand...and I know you do, but you’re doing better.”she said quietly.

James growled as he felt the other go lax under his hands, only pulling away long enough to growl a order at jarvis to record this for coulson before manhandling the other pressing him into the wall. Growling as he looked down at the other man in his arms, the anger spiked higher, because even if he was enjoying this, wanted clint, he was angry this wasn’t the man he wanted, and it made guilt and anger tighten his stomach all the more as he looked down at him, pulling at the other’s pants, not even bothering to undress them all the way as he coated his fingers in lube, sliding them into the other, even if he was angry, he didn’t want to hurt him to badly. Growling as he stretched him, before thrusting into him with a groan, hands tight on the other’s hips as he fucked him, snapping badly, all the anger spilling into the flesh and willing body he held against him.
 
he nodded. "i'm not normally scared of him... but he was so close to snapping. i'm scared of the Winter Soldier. if i was pinned... i wouldn't be able to control myself. i'd just freak out." he admitted softly. "do you think he could ever forgive me?" he asked softly before smiling. "...i guess i am doing a little better. i wasn't scared when Clint stopped by yesterday." he admitted. "he was only here for a few minutes, but i wasn't scared."

he moaned as Bucky pulled away and mewled as he was pressed into the wall, spreading his legs submissively. opening himself to James. he shimmied his hips, making the pants fall easier and gasped, moaning as the fingers breached him, bucking his hips into the fingers. he moaned, and then mewled like a horny slut, or a kitten when Bucky sank into him and fucked him for all he was worth. he came twice to Bucky's once, babbling in some language that Bucky didn't know. Italian maybe. either way he didn't sound upset or in too much pain, and he wasn't spitting out the safe word either. so all was good.
 
“I know you’re not. And he knows your not. Tell him that. He’s hurting because he’s trying to figure out what he did to upset you....he’s probably not considering that he has a tendency to pin people when he’s the winter soldier. Just tell him that.”She said quietly stroking his hair before smiling. “I know he will. He loves you, you know.”He mtutered smiling quietly at him, before grinning happily.”That’s good. So good.”She grinned smiling quietly as she looked down at him.”Tony’s bringing stuff down for you later. Just as a warning. He’s spent the last week in the lab. Sorta scared of what he’s made.”Erin snickered, trying to distract him from worrying about bucky.

James grinned as he listened to the other mewl like a kitten, and when he came he sank to his knees, pulling the other with him as he drew out of him, smirking ever so slightly as he laid on the floor with him, sighing quietly as he ran his fingers through his hair, panting and quiet, “You okay?”He muttered glancing over at the other assassin, sighing quietly for the moment the anger spent, but the hurt and pain still there, trying really hard not to think about it.
 
he nodded. "i'll do that." he promised. "of course he loves me. i love him too. he's like a big brother." still in denial then. suddenly he heaved out a massive sigh. "that's a dirty lie... i don't love him like a brother. i just love him. it's one of the reasons why he scares me so much sometimes. because if he... wanted. i'd let him." Steve admitted. "i wouldn't struggle, because i want it too, even if it terrifies me." he admitted. "i love him and he's too straight to see it. he'd hate me if he knew..." his lip trembled. "he'd hate me if he knew that i came when they where raping me..." fuck, no wonder Steve was so fucked up. they had made him like it, so pleasure itself was a fear trigger. "...Tony'll leave if i get scared right?"

Clint groaned as he was pulled down and sighed as he was pulled out of, laying there quite limp. "fuck yeah." Clint breathed. "that was fantastic. i'm making Coulson do that." he muttered. "what brought that on?" he asked, blinking at Bucky, looking concerned. "did something happen?"
 
Erin sighed wuietly at the denial,before her eyes widened at his admission,maybe she could nudge him in the right direction."steve,he loves you to.like that. Has for years, but he thought you were straight.so much so he's made himself try and forget he does,because he thinks you'll hate him to,and he'd rather have you in his life rather then lose you completely....you scare him to you know. "She gently stroked his hair."its why he doesn't want you around when he has a episode. He doesn't think he's strong enough to not tell you when hes that fucked up..."erin sighed quietly. Cupping his face in her hands she growled quietly, "it is not your fault you came. Many rape victims do.its a natural reaction,even if it is forced on you.it is not yiur fault,and he would not hate you."she dounded utterly frustrated and upset for him,having no idea hoe to make him see."and yes. Hes already said he'll leave the moment you need him to."

Bucky laughed quietly as he stared at the cieling before closing his eyes as he listened to the other."I'm glad I can lead you to things to do with coulson."he sighed,a flinch tightening his features."steves scared of me.I had to leave."he sighed quiet,pained utterly devastated that he'd scared his friend."besides I can't take care of him...not when I want him still.."oh thr guilt and disgust with himself in those words."I'm going to have to convince him to move in with erin...she'll take care of him and he wouldn't have to worry about mr..or being scared.he coukd relax.."
 
Steve shook his head. "Bucky's straight. i know he is. he slept with enough Dames to prove it." he pointed out. poor guy seamed to have not found out about bisexuality yet. "how could i possibly scare him?" Steve asked, looking confused. "oh... so. he really. he actually...?" the idea was flooring him. he wasn't sure what to do with that actually. "...i'm not disgusting?...i'm not foul for... for.." for liking it. no, he hadn't enjoyed it at all, but his body had. there had been pleasure despite the pain and agony and brutality. "it is my fault though, isn't it?... i wasn't strong enough to make them stop." he admitted before he nodded. a little hopeful. maybe he could be okay with Tony. even for just a little while. it would mark some improvement.

Clint chuckled a little. "he likes to watch." he admitted with a grin. "he's probably watching us right now and stroking off." he admitted before he blinked at he other. "Steve's not afraid of you Bucky. he's afraid of the Winter Soldier. he was simmering very close to the surface, and while Steve knows neither of your aspects, neither of your personalities would hurt him... what's the first thing the Soldier does when he snaps to the surface? he pins the first thing he sees to the floor. Winter was very close to the surface just now, and Steve could see it, and he was afraid. not of you, but of how he would react if the Soldier snapped free and pinned him. he needs you James. Bucky, you where always there for him. and you always will be. you will always be his safe place."
 
“Uh, so has tony, and you don’t see him resisting being in a relationship with Loki,even if they’re not calling it that.It’s possible to like both sexes, Steve.”Erin said gently petting his hair before sighing. “Because he has no control around you, even more when he’s already feeling vulnerable...”Erin sighed before smiling. “Yes. If you really don’t believe me, ask him who volunteered to help him with his ‘getting laid’ issue.”She snickered a little not about to tell him more, letting that be surprise before staring at him. “What?No, steve no. That is not your fault. None of it is your fault. Nothing. It is their’s, not yours. Even if you are Cap, you were overwhelmed.”She bit her lip wondering what to say, trying to figure out what to say without making it worse for james, before realizing she had the perfect stick in which to get through to him on this point. “Is it James’ fault he killed all those people he did, while he was under?Killed and raped his way through the greater part of 70 years, because he wasn’t strong enough to stop himself from doing it?”she said, hating telling steve exactly what some of james’ missions had inclded, beyond the killing, it had been the raping and breaking, torture of his victims that kept James waking up screaming. But maybe it would get the point across.

“Hm, hope so. Cause that was hot.”Bucky panted reaching down to get into his cargo pocket, pulling out the ciagerettes and lighter, taking a long drawl off of it as he listened to the other talk. “....I can’t do anything about it. I can’t shove it all the way down, not when Steve’s so hurt.”He said sounding utterly lost, because it upset him to know he was upsetting steve, and utterly lost on how to make it better because the protective side, the deadly side of his nature was what surfaced with the winter soldier, and the more he was drawn to protect, the more that side of his nature was present, even if he was in control. Swallowing hard he frowned as he smoked, knowing tony’s ventilation system was good enough to take care of the smoke quickly. “...I’m not that safe for him anymore.”he said sounding utterly hurt and pained.Wanting so badly to believe clint.
 
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