Dad had a relapse yesterday, and it's not looking good. He had to be restrained to stop himself from ripping the catheter and oxygen tubes out, and is incoherent. I called Mum yesterday, who's been by his bedside the entire time, and when she told me, I was like, "I don't want to see him like that." I deal with these things better by myself, then I realised how selfish that was, and went in to visit, and provide her some support. We may soon need to make some decisions on his ongoing medical treatment. At least he was lucid enough on Friday to tell the Doctor's that he didn't want to be kept artificially alive, and luckily all of the family is on the same page.
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I've been an Atheist ever since I can remember, and can vividly recall coming home from my first week of Primary School, after a 'Religious Instruction' class where we were asked to accept Jesus into our hearts, and telling my parents that I thought it was stupid, and asked if I needed to keep going. Thankfully, even at that age, they allowed me to make up my own mind, and that was the last I ever attended. How any intelligent and rational person can ever possibly believe in a benevolent God worthy of worship, is, and always has been, totally beyond my comprehension:
“Nothing could add to the horror of hell, except the presence of its creator, God. While I have life, as long as I draw breath, I shall deny with all my strength, and hate with every drop of my blood, this infinite lie.”
― Robert G. Ingersoll
Death is cruel, but it's also a part of life. There is no more, so make the most of the one you have, and don't wait for the next.
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At least I woke up to some good news this morning. Tony Abbot is no longer Prime Minister of Australia. I'm not sure how it works elsewhere, but here we vote in the Party, not the leader, so he can be challenged by those within his Party at any time. There's been discontent for weeks, and yesterday, Malcolm Turnbull, one of his Minister's, advised that he was going to challenge, so Tony Abbot called for a vote that very same night. And lost. Malcolm Turnbull is probably the best choice at the moment.
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The strange thing is, that with what's happening with my Dad being on the horizon for quite a while, I'm not actually down, or upset. It's more just I want a resolution, one way or the other; both for his sake, and the rest of the family; and my brains in limbo, which is somewhere it doesn't like to be.
To my partners and OoC friends, whilst it may at times take me a while to reply, keep those story responses, banter and smart-ass remarks coming, xD