Aphron studied all kinds of mating rituals and watched extensively and exclusively pornographic material to try and be a better partner for Caeda. There was so much to learn that it felt like too much.
He hoped that he would be able to become an adequate lover for her; he was so embarrassed looking at these things that he had to do it in the darkest corner of the Arcaenum so no one would see him.
When he was alone in his room, he would imagine doing some of the things he watched and read and would fall into a bit of delusion. Pretty soon, things would blend together.