She nodded and sighed, a little saddened by the fact that he was going to leave, even for a short while. "Yeah. Go ahead and take care of what you need to, my love." She kissed him back, wishing she would at least have him for a little moral support. She didn't figure she was going to have to go through her father's things so quickly, and so soon after his death. There were so many things she wanted to take with her, but she didn't think she could. She watched him go, and turned to head toward her house when she felt a nudge against her back. It was her mare who she had forgotten about in the midst of meeting Callar and the battle and all of the other sudden changes in her life. She rubbed the mare's nose and walked beside her, unable to bring herself to ride another horse.
When she reached her house, it seemed so cold and empty. She was scared to enter, unsure about the fact that it was not two days ago when she woke here, only to have her world so turned upside down. The first thing she saw was a small, old painting of her mother. She wouldn't dare leave it behind. She held it close to her chest and dropped to her knees, crying. It was so hard to get up again to move through the house, grabbing several bags here and there to pack things in. Of course, she packed food for her, Callar, and her mare, tack and blankets also but she found a few toys from her childhood that she couldn't leave. One was a doll that sat on a shelf in her room, a gift from her mother shortly before she got ill and died. Another was a bear that she had always thought resembled her father. She held them close as she scanned for more. Another painting went into another bag, one of her parents and her as an infant, then one of her and her father, and also one of her and her father on her stepmother's back. She sighed and took those with her. A few clothes were thrown together, and she sighed, sitting down on her father's bed. She didn't want to leave. She didn't want her father to be gone. She didn't want to be a queen of these people and lead them away from their homes.