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That's What I Like (1x1 w/ Mr.Aznable)

"Th-Theo~❤" God, he missed hearing his name tumble from her lips, seeing her face contort from the pleasure he gave her. She had new scars on her thighs, he noticed, some even still healing. Oh, Sena. No matter how beautiful they made her look, she shouldn't have received more.
 
Just enjoy it, just enjoy it, don't think about it. Don't think about it. Shut it out, let her heal. She didn't deserve this, you could have saved her if you didn't shut her out. This is y our fault. Your fault, she's hurt because of you. You did this to her. The thoughts shot through his mind, and he fought for control of his own mind.
 
He was almost shaking, running his unsteady hands over the scars, eyes flooded with concern and regret.
 
She looked and frowned heavily, "Hey..." She turned his head to look at her, "Don't worry about those, ok? I told you, I don't mind them, regardless where I get them from..." She said gently, "I'm safe now, see...? I have you to protect me from now on...I don't have to worry about new ones unless I want them.."
 
He shut his eyes tight and held her tight, burying his face in her chest. "God Sena I'm so sorry..." he said. His grip on her tightened just a bit, he was trying to steady his breathing.
 
She held him and pet his head, "It's ok, baby, it's all ok now...I'm not gonna go anywhere ever again..." She said. She kissed his temple gently and played with his hair, "I never blamed you for how you acted...it hurt, but I understood...you were hurting too...but we don't have to worry about that anymore because I won't let anyone do that to us again...I'm not gonna hurt you like that ever again, not even if my life depended on it..."
 
His breathing was shaky, and his hand trembled over her scars. The photos he saw burned hot in his mind, now fully realising everything she had to go through. Why didn't he save her sooner? She's broken now because of him.
 
He shook his head, eyes firmly fixed on her scars. He did this. This was his fault. He couldn't tell her because he knew she would deny it. This was his punishment. He would suffer in silence for this.
 
She frowned, "I know, baby...he did a lot of stuff that didn't feel very good or make me very happy...but it's done now...he won't do it ever again..." She said softly
 
"I couldn't help... I couldn't help at all...." he said. His eyes dropped back down again. You let her be harmed. You let this happen.
 
"Ssshhh..." She pet his head again, "None of that now...I told you that I didn't blame you...I still don't...you did help, you destroyed everything..."
 
He was shaking, trying not to sob. His gem, his star, thr love of his life had been defiled, harmed, scarred and hospitalized while he selfishly destroyed himself. If you really loved her you would have saved her. You could have saved her, idiot. Your fault. Your fault. Her trauma is on your hands. If you really cared, you wouldn't have agreed to her sucking you off in the first place. That didn't help. You're making it worse.
 
Soft lips pressed against his in a gentle loving gesture. Soft hands took hold of his and held them, grounding him. Sena did what she could to calm him, to hopefully help him see that nothing was his doing. How her scars and her fear and hesitancy weren't because of him. Words weren't working, he wasn't listening, so maybe action would help.
 
It didn't. Why are you crying? Why is she comforting you? You don't deserve this. He was shaking harder, he wasn't doing well. This was too much.
 
She pulled away and gave a soft noise of defeat before climbing off him and putting on some pajamas before getting back in bed and holding him, muttering gentle nothings to him. She did this, not him. She ruined everything in hopes to protect him. She only broke and destroyed him. God, she was the worst girlfriend in the world.
 
After this incident, he explained everything to her. How he blamed himself, how he felt bad for ruining something she wanted to do. It was difficult for him, but he managed to get it out. He didn't get much better at first, often too ashamed to even touch her.
 
Sena sat with him as he played his games, another bad run due to his depression. She made a soft noise and carefully put her hand on his leg. She wore leggings and pants until the scars healed so they wouldn't upset him further. "Do you wanna go get drinks and just hang out later, baby...?" She asked gently, "Maybe order some Chinese food or something...?"
 
He made a noise. He looked awful. He wasn't eating as much, and he had lost some muscle mass. He shook his head. "No I'm ok.. you can, if you want to..." he said.
 
"I don't wanna do anything without you..." She said, "What if I went out and bought stuff to make something here? Whatever you wanted, I'll cook it...is there any type of ice cream or sweet you like? I can get that, too...!"
 
"Theo..." She pursed her lips, "Baby, please...." She pleaded, "Have you seen yourself....? You're dropping weight and locking yourself up in the house...it isn't healthy....I'm so worried about you...."
 
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