"Okay," Svana says, and Annabelle nods. The pair follow Emilia out to the entrance. Upon opening the door, she's once again struck by a magical urge. This time, though, it takes over, and she can't control herself. Thoughts of her failures and weaknesses overcome her, and she suddenly can't bear it. She has a very clear thought that there's an easy way out, and the blade is already in her hand. Almost before she can think, it comes down in a sudden slash at her own wrist. The blood begins to flow in earnest from where it bit in, and she smiles at the realization that soon her problems will be at an end.
The last thing she hears is Serathiel screaming No in her head.
The next thing she knows, she's waking up, lying on a cot. She feels terribly weak, but she doesn't appear to have died again. Annabelle and Svana are both sitting close by the bedside, watching her with worried expressions.