RE: Mine (ambiguouscaptain and miu_meowww
"oh sweetie it's just lunch..." I answer, feeling something catch in my chest at the sight of him: I can't help giving him a quick head-to-toe glance from his bare feet, up past his thin grey sweatpants and old t-shirt (what is a tar heel anyway?) to his 3-day beard and thick mop of hair. He looks more disheveled, more like a sick puppy that needs help than ever and the warmth flows down from my chest to between my thighs and I try to keep from squirming. oh I want him so badd ahaha ..!
As he half-blocks me from the entrance, I see his eyes giviing me the same up-and-down treatment and i'm still not used to that wide-eyed stare of admiration i get from guys now - but i like it alot. I especially like it when they get that speechless look, and he's definitely got that and I can't help but smile and take advantage...
"...And anyway..." I continue, stepping up into the doorway and noticing him draw back, withdrawing into the house a step to allow me in. I feel my eyes sparkle at his reaction as he realizes how much taller than him I am in these four-inch pumps. I was five-ten this morning and feel evvery inch I have over him. I look down at him, straight into his eyes, loving that flustered look he's got. "...what are friends for?"
Even though I've buttoned up a bit, I catch his eyes sneak a glance down my top as I look into the condo and he steps aside to let me in with my bag of take-out. It's a mess in here!! He shrinks back a bit, sheepish and obviously embarrassed about its appearance, and I step ahead of him into the foyer and down the step into the sunken living area.
I think the shock must be apparent on my face and I barely notice him hobbling after me, following me down and taking the plastic carry-out bag from my hands. This place used to be so nice! Charles was always so concerned about keeping everything tidy and - even if not ultra-fancy - at least appropriate for a guy in his position, a young, smart, semi-stylish attorney.
But what's happened?? I gasp, first, at the brown thing wilted and dead in the large ceramic pot by the sliding door. "Oh no! Matt!!" I exclaim, shocked at seeing the tall snake plant I had bought him so incredibly dead dead dead. "And Fern!!!" I continue, eyes shooting over to where she sits, now equally dead, on the sofa table behind the couch to the left.
He's stammering, moving over clumsily and stepping up out of the living room to place the bag on the raised kitchen bar to my left, starting to try to explain himself. I'm looking around and definitely taken aback by the state of this place. Dirty dishes, beer cans everywhere. Filthy clothes strewn about, on all surfaces. Dust dust dust. The shades are all half drawn, some of them crooked and broken. Cabinet doors open in the kitchen beyond the bar, more dead plants on the shelves to my right.
"Mr. Pokey!!!" I cry, seeing another gift I'd given him dead. Who kills a cactus?!?
This isn't just the clutter in the apartment of a single guy. There's something wrong here...
..Have I done this to him??