FoxWriter
Cluster
- Joined
- Jan 20, 2011
- Location
- in the realm of lust and seduction
"okay." he said softly. letting her drop the conversation now. he'd said what he wanted to say. dragging it on would only upset both of them. "it wasn't your fault." he assured her, shaking his head. "and it wasn't my fault either... it took me a long time to understand that. that it wasn't my fault i mean. that i couldn't control John Winchester and that the things he did to me... the things he said. they weren't my fault." he admitted. "it took a long time and... honestly i only realized it because i started treating Sam the way John treated me and i realized... i realized that i was just like the monster from my nightmares." he admitted. "that's when i started realizing if it wasn't Sam's fault, then it couldn't have been mine and things started... clearing up for me a little bit." he admitted. "Bobby helped a bit." he admitted before he scoffed at her. "you couldn't even squish a mosquito in a state like this. besides, Jo has more training than you do in shit like this." he sniffed. well aware she'd know who Jo was because everyone knew Jo and Ellen Harvelle.
"i suppose that's true." Dean agreed with Sam. "thats why your supposed to call Bobby. i never remember." he grumbled at Sam before scowling at Cas. "yes you where." he grumbled before watching Bailey with a small smile. she was so cute. "Don't fight it Spark-plug. he's an Angel. he always wins and if i have to put up with it so do you." he informed her before watching her go to sleep, examining his own hand where a familiar scar had once rested. a scar that he knew she'd have on her hand. he made his excuses to go clean out the last of her things and bring them back over to talk to her. things like 'i was on a hunt' and 'are you okay?' and 'i'm glad your okay' and then nothing once more because he didn't want her taking to him. not while she was there, maybe not ever. then he tucked himself into bed with Sam because he was supposed to sleep. he wondered if she had noticed how he'd more torn his pizza apart rather than eating. he just wasn't hungry when he was high and he couldn't sleep when he was high either but he could lay in bed for a few hours until the high wore off enough to let him sleep.
"i suppose that's true." Dean agreed with Sam. "thats why your supposed to call Bobby. i never remember." he grumbled at Sam before scowling at Cas. "yes you where." he grumbled before watching Bailey with a small smile. she was so cute. "Don't fight it Spark-plug. he's an Angel. he always wins and if i have to put up with it so do you." he informed her before watching her go to sleep, examining his own hand where a familiar scar had once rested. a scar that he knew she'd have on her hand. he made his excuses to go clean out the last of her things and bring them back over to talk to her. things like 'i was on a hunt' and 'are you okay?' and 'i'm glad your okay' and then nothing once more because he didn't want her taking to him. not while she was there, maybe not ever. then he tucked himself into bed with Sam because he was supposed to sleep. he wondered if she had noticed how he'd more torn his pizza apart rather than eating. he just wasn't hungry when he was high and he couldn't sleep when he was high either but he could lay in bed for a few hours until the high wore off enough to let him sleep.