ClearSight
Supernova
- Joined
- Sep 20, 2013
- Location
- United States
"Not that it doesn't make me a tad more comfortable with you being as clueless about this as me... But it does sort of piss me off that you're not so experienced in any of this and still had me bending over that first night together... I tried my best to be charming and ended up on my back. Makes it all the more embarrassing a defeat." She grinned, obviously not upset about their first night, it had been the start of a strange, but incredible relationship. Though it pissed her off when the thought of overcompensating came to her mind when thinking back at their fights over the years of knowing one another. It had always been something, and while she blamed family anger that was only a part of it, the spark that hit her jealousy, attraction, and apparently desire to submit to the headstrong alpha. Jocelyn was amazing though, the perfect woman to be with. She was gorgeous, sexual, brilliant, powerful, had sexy magic connections, and was probably the only woman Michelle had ever met that could look at everything that had happened between them over the years and somehow also give a damn about her.
She wasn't going to ruin it by over-analyzing what they were doing, it was pleasant and she was going to leave it at that and focus on just what was so yummy about it. Surprisingly, or not so much if one only considered her time with Jocelyn, Michelle found herself excited about trying anal. Not without anxiousness to follow but it was such a taboo, alphas didn't really allow others to use their ass, it was too submissive, it was an act that threw away all pride... It was the very reason ultimate domination matches were so brutal in the eyes of werewolf culture. Losing for an alpha became the loss of pride as an alpha, in front of everyone. Michelle had already decided though, she was going to use the match as an opportunity to prove her sincerity to Jocelyn, and show everyone else that she had made a decision, to be with the girl she was supposed to despise. She couldn't pretend not to be scared, it was a huge change in her life, but as she nipped at Jocelyn's nipple and slowly turned around to present her rear... She just knew it was what she wanted, Jocelyn was who she wanted. It was insane but undeniable.
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Almost dying was strange. Unlike the stories Chris didn't see bright lights or her life flash before her eyes... But a lot of things became clear in that moment, and as she woke she found her mind revisiting them, as if the memories had been waiting for her consciousness to pay attention. Mainly they were of Caitlyn, but she also found herself thinking over her biological parents, and the parents who had raised her. She had loved her mother and father and losing them had been so very painful, and sometimes still made Chris feel like a little girl, curled up crying and hyperventilating. How could she think about doing that to those she loved now. She knew the pain, lived with the pain, and she had almost put that burden on those closest to her, the girl she claimed to love, her parents, and even the few friends she had despite being quite anti-social. It was funny really, more people would miss her than she assumed, her charisma was incredible, but nobody ever entered her eye aside from Caitlyn, and waking up to see her was all she cared about.
It was overwhelming of course, coming back to her own body and feeling so very heavy. Her limbs were sore, her head felt like it was on fire, and she felt like she couldn't move like she wanted to. Most likely it was a mix of injury and drugs, but part of it was from Caitlyn not only being beside her but throwing affection at her. She couldn't help but smile after a moment, a few tears rolling down her cheeks as she leaned in and wearily put her arms around the other girl, and barely managing that with all the pain killers and soreness. "I missed you more than you'll ever know." Even in the same house she had felt separated from her sister, worlds away, and without her best friend she was helpless. Chris was the weaker of them, there as no doubt... Cait could survive alone, Chris wasn't so sure she could. "No doctors Cait... Just... Let me hug you for a bit." Her tone spoke of weariness, a slow drag to her usually sure voice that made it clear she wasn't quite one-hundred percent. Still, she was awake and with her sister with her, well she could do anything if it meant being with Cait.
"I promise I won't even think about it again..." She took a few long, deep breaths after telling Caitlyn what the girl needed to hear, that she wasn't going to go killing herself, though she wasn't so sure she would be able to jump back to regular Chris, not anymore. The moment they were having, the reason she didn't want to stop the hug, was because once it was over she had the feeling it would be awkwardness and hate all over again. After all... Caitlyn had ever right to be disgusted, she didn't have sexual feelings for Chris, so what the French alpha had done... It was unforgivable, though Chris still held out some hope she would be forgiven. That side she was already feeling sleepy again and hesitantly she let go of Cait and laid back, groaning in pain as she did and finding it difficult to ignore the throbbing and discomfort, even as her eyelids began to fight her desire to stay awake. "I'm so sorry Cait... For everything." She muttered, head plopping back against the pillow as she drifted out once again... But at least she had woken up, she just wanted a few minutes more of rest.
She wasn't going to ruin it by over-analyzing what they were doing, it was pleasant and she was going to leave it at that and focus on just what was so yummy about it. Surprisingly, or not so much if one only considered her time with Jocelyn, Michelle found herself excited about trying anal. Not without anxiousness to follow but it was such a taboo, alphas didn't really allow others to use their ass, it was too submissive, it was an act that threw away all pride... It was the very reason ultimate domination matches were so brutal in the eyes of werewolf culture. Losing for an alpha became the loss of pride as an alpha, in front of everyone. Michelle had already decided though, she was going to use the match as an opportunity to prove her sincerity to Jocelyn, and show everyone else that she had made a decision, to be with the girl she was supposed to despise. She couldn't pretend not to be scared, it was a huge change in her life, but as she nipped at Jocelyn's nipple and slowly turned around to present her rear... She just knew it was what she wanted, Jocelyn was who she wanted. It was insane but undeniable.
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Almost dying was strange. Unlike the stories Chris didn't see bright lights or her life flash before her eyes... But a lot of things became clear in that moment, and as she woke she found her mind revisiting them, as if the memories had been waiting for her consciousness to pay attention. Mainly they were of Caitlyn, but she also found herself thinking over her biological parents, and the parents who had raised her. She had loved her mother and father and losing them had been so very painful, and sometimes still made Chris feel like a little girl, curled up crying and hyperventilating. How could she think about doing that to those she loved now. She knew the pain, lived with the pain, and she had almost put that burden on those closest to her, the girl she claimed to love, her parents, and even the few friends she had despite being quite anti-social. It was funny really, more people would miss her than she assumed, her charisma was incredible, but nobody ever entered her eye aside from Caitlyn, and waking up to see her was all she cared about.
It was overwhelming of course, coming back to her own body and feeling so very heavy. Her limbs were sore, her head felt like it was on fire, and she felt like she couldn't move like she wanted to. Most likely it was a mix of injury and drugs, but part of it was from Caitlyn not only being beside her but throwing affection at her. She couldn't help but smile after a moment, a few tears rolling down her cheeks as she leaned in and wearily put her arms around the other girl, and barely managing that with all the pain killers and soreness. "I missed you more than you'll ever know." Even in the same house she had felt separated from her sister, worlds away, and without her best friend she was helpless. Chris was the weaker of them, there as no doubt... Cait could survive alone, Chris wasn't so sure she could. "No doctors Cait... Just... Let me hug you for a bit." Her tone spoke of weariness, a slow drag to her usually sure voice that made it clear she wasn't quite one-hundred percent. Still, she was awake and with her sister with her, well she could do anything if it meant being with Cait.
"I promise I won't even think about it again..." She took a few long, deep breaths after telling Caitlyn what the girl needed to hear, that she wasn't going to go killing herself, though she wasn't so sure she would be able to jump back to regular Chris, not anymore. The moment they were having, the reason she didn't want to stop the hug, was because once it was over she had the feeling it would be awkwardness and hate all over again. After all... Caitlyn had ever right to be disgusted, she didn't have sexual feelings for Chris, so what the French alpha had done... It was unforgivable, though Chris still held out some hope she would be forgiven. That side she was already feeling sleepy again and hesitantly she let go of Cait and laid back, groaning in pain as she did and finding it difficult to ignore the throbbing and discomfort, even as her eyelids began to fight her desire to stay awake. "I'm so sorry Cait... For everything." She muttered, head plopping back against the pillow as she drifted out once again... But at least she had woken up, she just wanted a few minutes more of rest.