I have to reinvent myself now
I could use some help
Where's everybody else gone?
I need a new "me" to arise, feed my shell to the fire
A reputation built on lies
I don't want to sell myself
Leave that to someone else
Headfirst Into A Sea Of Flames - Krypteria
Sooo my hopeful lunch today with Shu got canned, which is okay I understand what with her work schedule and everything. Though on top of that my Lunch date seemingly forgot the fact we had even discussed a lunch date that was going to discuss being walking buddies or something along those lines like 2-3 times a week and decided to go towards Asheville this weekend.
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Which kinda bums me out because I'm not exactly in the mood to see some of my other friends (I think one of them specifically has work even if I really wanted to see her. Though considering she had a pseudo make-out session on my bed I'm not so sure I wanna see her yet.), but I don't wanna go out by myself because I've been such a Fucking Homebody lately since Dan (Aka Ex) broke up with me that I wanted to go out and just see somebody. :/ Granted Chris is going to Asheville to see a Scientist he's been wanting to see for 3 years. And Shu had work.
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So tomorrow I'm going to go get my supplies for Hahvy's things. And Ari's. That should distract me for a bit. Buuut. I suddenly feel very very very lonely :/ and it's not good for me considering...yeah. This was supposed to be "Vega Cheers Up" weekend. So faaaaaaaaar not so much. I asked to borrow like $20 bucks from mom last week to get some gas in the car, well she gave me $30. And she's like "DONT FORGET D:<" .-. since I see her Sunday for lunch. So apparently on top of that she managed to tear a shit ton of tendons in her ankle so she's in one of those boot things til further notice.
The reason why this is irking me is because I've been trying to call her all day today to get a definitive answer on her stew recipe 'cook time'. She says all day in the crock pot. Well...I'd like to know what her definition is so that I can make it and forget <.<. I'm also adding things she normally doesn't add in her things. When I little there used to be carrots, celery, meat, and potatoes. Now it's just meat and potatoes...I dislike the texture of cooked Carrots and celery. My brain registers crunchy! D:
But I managed to get ahold of 2 decent sized Portobello mushrooms (For those who can't splurge - all a Portobello is a full sized Crimini =P), one of which I'm going to slice up and put in the stew as well with green pepper and potatoes. Considering it lasts my family of 5 at least two sittings <<; this might take me awhile to eat ._. but I've been craving it like crazy.
The other one I'm splitting between Chicken Alfredo and Spaghetti. Next month I'm gonna make the penne dish I got from work O-o simply because right now it looked a bit on the pricey side this month. But that, too, would serve at least 3 days worth of meals. O-o; If you guys haven't noticed by now the reason why $70 covers a month's worth of groceries its because a LOT of it is because the way I cook things is meant for multiple people for at least two servings.
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Yes I like to cook. Shush.
I'm tired of being sad.
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Though apparently my current crush does not mind I have a crush on him >>; So yeah. That cheered me up a little bit anyway.
I should go post now.
*wanders*