Plutonium Desu
Planetoid
- Joined
- Feb 17, 2013
- Location
- Southwest
His tone of voice startled her, mostly because she had just heard him in his 'eye's of the public' tone. Although she didn't respond, her fidgeting lessened. The most she did near the end of the ride was play with her seat belt, giving her a nostalgic feeling of the day she was driven to his penthouse. She couldn't help but wonder if he drank a lot if he could be this sober. Well, somewhat sober. The alcohol seemed to loosen him up a bit. And he had to be INCREDIBLY loose to want to sleep with her. Her mind replayed the course of the night, and the more the timeline went on, the more insecure she got. She wasn't the only one that saw a different side tonight. He saw her in a way she never thought she would see herself. Confident, having fun, her head not in a book. And not only that, but he actually saw her. Wearing little to nothing. The thought made her want to bury herself in a hole and never come out. Did he even like her body? Or was his vision clouded and he was picturing her as some calender model? The more she thought about it, the more she didn't want him to sleep with her out of insecurity. She couldn't just come out and ask 'Is my body decent enough?'
Her thoughts were still racing when they arrived, and multiplied when she realized where they were. Unbuckling herself, she glanced over to him, watching as he made a phone call with specific instructions to his driver. She really hoped the man got paid a lot if he were to do something as trivial as picking Mike's car up at 2 A.M. With his smile as signal, she carefully followed behind him, but not too close. She had his public image in mind, and she read enough articles about celebrities in general to know that cameras and paparazzi were everywhere.
The ride on the elevator to his floor was almost too long. It gave her more time to basically be drowned by her thoughts. The excitement of what was happening at the time earlier had disappeared and left her to think about what really was going to happen. Could she do this? It really scared her to think that she was about to sleep with someone for the first time. Not only that, but sleep with a celebrity. She should have been jumping for joy or all over him in this very elevator. But he wasn't really a celebrity right now. The to of them were just two teenagers/young adults who were going to have sex. And even if it was going to be a 'one night stand,' it was still a big deal. Did she really want her first time to be a one night stand? Her feet had moved for her apparently, because it was the sound of his door closing and the lock turning that brought her back to reality. Well. They were alone now. And it brought on an anxiety attack. Juliette felt like she couldn't breathe for a second, like her heart could burst. She had turned around just in case he could see the panic in her face.
But then, something warm took her hand. Just like at the party when he brought her close for the first time. Without thinking about it, she turned around, instantly met by the now familiar feeling of his hands resting on her waist.
"Do you still want me?"
She...she honestly didn't know. Did she want him earlier. Yes. Her body wanted him more than anything. But did she really want this? What if things got complicated? What if tutoring him got awkward because she couldn't look him in the eye? What if tomorrow he went back to the guy he was when they first me; and he thought of her as nothing but a one night stand, or even a mistake? She opened her mouth to say no, that she couldn't do this. It wasn't that she didn't want him. She just didn't want what could happen after the night was all over. 'Happily Ever After' couldn't come no matter how close to Cinderella she was tonight. Heck, she didn't even know what 'Happily Ever After' would be between the two of them.
But then he kissed her again.
She should have thought it was a way to butter her up, to hypnotize her. However, it really wasn't. She didn't know how she could tell, but it was sweet, dare she say even romantic. As if they wanted each other in some way other than sex or lust. A kiss that wasn't the same as the first one they had shared. It continued a lot longer than the last one as well. The more she kissed him, the more the panicked feeling in her chest began to fade. Their lips separated just barely when he began to speak. Her eyes stayed closed, wanting to concentrate on her other senses: the sound of their breath mingling together, soft and slow. The taste of alcohol he left on her lips, the aching she felt just to kiss him again. That embarrassed feeling enveloped her again at his first few words. She felt he had already seen more than enough of her, literally. It was the same for her, though. She had seen more of him than that his fans would ever get to see. And quite honestly, she was a bigger fan of who he was now. This 'real him' from what she could tell. Tonight was her chance to be what had been hiding from her grandparents. The same had to be said for him ten fold. He was being the person that had to hide from the whole world. No wonder he was so tired.
His kisses, calling her 'love,' the look in his eyes, even his touch. They were all...well all she could think of was the word 'affectionate.' When he pulled away, she slowly opened her eyes. As he had for her, she took a snapshot of the handsome face she saw in front of her. The paparazzi would pay all the money in the world for a face like this one. And she would pay just as much to see it all the time.
His touch was the final thing needed to push her panic away. Absently, she leaned into his hand, closing her eyes once more to truly enjoy the feeling. Was this what it felt like...to have a boyfriend? To want to be with someone? To receive affection and even want to give it back? To be a normal girl who felt something for a boy? She had opened her eyes again to reach up and place her hand atop of his just as he pulled away. She stood there, watching him with sorrowful eyes as he sat himself down on the couch, looking distressed. The sight had caused her to move over to him, kneeling down in front of him. She reached her hand out carefully, her fingers gently resting under his chin and tilting his head up to look at her. For a moment she had no idea what to say. She opened her mouth a bunch of times, but no words came out. She realized something that she definitely couldn't say.
If they were both normal people. Maybe they could have been together.
Without notice, she simply tilted his face upward, allowing herself to kiss him this time. It was meant to be just a kiss, trying to make him feel better even. But it became much more than that. It was that sweet, melting yearning from earlier tied in with the wish that she wouldn't admit to herself: she wanted to be with him. Not sleep with him, but be with him. The one she wanted was the real him she was able to see tonight. It was a desperation knowing that she wouldn't be able to see him like this ever again and tomorrow he wouldn't call her 'love' and he would kiss her like he had. It would all be gone.
She didn't want him, she needed him.
With passion filled voice, she pulled back just slightly, allowing her lips to brush against his before speaking. "We have an hour. Just, make me feel like Cinderella, please." She whispered, kissing him again and again until she just couldn't take it. "Let me thank you for tonight. For giving me a chance to be a regular girl. Just-just let me be with you, damn it!" With that, she began to show him her appreciation. She moved forward, her body pushing him against the couch. Her lips found his neck, unsure where exactly to kiss it, but still doing it nonetheless. Her lips had done enough kissing already to know to gently brush her lips over the skin, even suckling it a bit before moving back to his lips. "S-Show me what to do." She whispered nervously.
Her thoughts were still racing when they arrived, and multiplied when she realized where they were. Unbuckling herself, she glanced over to him, watching as he made a phone call with specific instructions to his driver. She really hoped the man got paid a lot if he were to do something as trivial as picking Mike's car up at 2 A.M. With his smile as signal, she carefully followed behind him, but not too close. She had his public image in mind, and she read enough articles about celebrities in general to know that cameras and paparazzi were everywhere.
The ride on the elevator to his floor was almost too long. It gave her more time to basically be drowned by her thoughts. The excitement of what was happening at the time earlier had disappeared and left her to think about what really was going to happen. Could she do this? It really scared her to think that she was about to sleep with someone for the first time. Not only that, but sleep with a celebrity. She should have been jumping for joy or all over him in this very elevator. But he wasn't really a celebrity right now. The to of them were just two teenagers/young adults who were going to have sex. And even if it was going to be a 'one night stand,' it was still a big deal. Did she really want her first time to be a one night stand? Her feet had moved for her apparently, because it was the sound of his door closing and the lock turning that brought her back to reality. Well. They were alone now. And it brought on an anxiety attack. Juliette felt like she couldn't breathe for a second, like her heart could burst. She had turned around just in case he could see the panic in her face.
But then, something warm took her hand. Just like at the party when he brought her close for the first time. Without thinking about it, she turned around, instantly met by the now familiar feeling of his hands resting on her waist.
"Do you still want me?"
She...she honestly didn't know. Did she want him earlier. Yes. Her body wanted him more than anything. But did she really want this? What if things got complicated? What if tutoring him got awkward because she couldn't look him in the eye? What if tomorrow he went back to the guy he was when they first me; and he thought of her as nothing but a one night stand, or even a mistake? She opened her mouth to say no, that she couldn't do this. It wasn't that she didn't want him. She just didn't want what could happen after the night was all over. 'Happily Ever After' couldn't come no matter how close to Cinderella she was tonight. Heck, she didn't even know what 'Happily Ever After' would be between the two of them.
But then he kissed her again.
She should have thought it was a way to butter her up, to hypnotize her. However, it really wasn't. She didn't know how she could tell, but it was sweet, dare she say even romantic. As if they wanted each other in some way other than sex or lust. A kiss that wasn't the same as the first one they had shared. It continued a lot longer than the last one as well. The more she kissed him, the more the panicked feeling in her chest began to fade. Their lips separated just barely when he began to speak. Her eyes stayed closed, wanting to concentrate on her other senses: the sound of their breath mingling together, soft and slow. The taste of alcohol he left on her lips, the aching she felt just to kiss him again. That embarrassed feeling enveloped her again at his first few words. She felt he had already seen more than enough of her, literally. It was the same for her, though. She had seen more of him than that his fans would ever get to see. And quite honestly, she was a bigger fan of who he was now. This 'real him' from what she could tell. Tonight was her chance to be what had been hiding from her grandparents. The same had to be said for him ten fold. He was being the person that had to hide from the whole world. No wonder he was so tired.
His kisses, calling her 'love,' the look in his eyes, even his touch. They were all...well all she could think of was the word 'affectionate.' When he pulled away, she slowly opened her eyes. As he had for her, she took a snapshot of the handsome face she saw in front of her. The paparazzi would pay all the money in the world for a face like this one. And she would pay just as much to see it all the time.
His touch was the final thing needed to push her panic away. Absently, she leaned into his hand, closing her eyes once more to truly enjoy the feeling. Was this what it felt like...to have a boyfriend? To want to be with someone? To receive affection and even want to give it back? To be a normal girl who felt something for a boy? She had opened her eyes again to reach up and place her hand atop of his just as he pulled away. She stood there, watching him with sorrowful eyes as he sat himself down on the couch, looking distressed. The sight had caused her to move over to him, kneeling down in front of him. She reached her hand out carefully, her fingers gently resting under his chin and tilting his head up to look at her. For a moment she had no idea what to say. She opened her mouth a bunch of times, but no words came out. She realized something that she definitely couldn't say.
If they were both normal people. Maybe they could have been together.
Without notice, she simply tilted his face upward, allowing herself to kiss him this time. It was meant to be just a kiss, trying to make him feel better even. But it became much more than that. It was that sweet, melting yearning from earlier tied in with the wish that she wouldn't admit to herself: she wanted to be with him. Not sleep with him, but be with him. The one she wanted was the real him she was able to see tonight. It was a desperation knowing that she wouldn't be able to see him like this ever again and tomorrow he wouldn't call her 'love' and he would kiss her like he had. It would all be gone.
She didn't want him, she needed him.
With passion filled voice, she pulled back just slightly, allowing her lips to brush against his before speaking. "We have an hour. Just, make me feel like Cinderella, please." She whispered, kissing him again and again until she just couldn't take it. "Let me thank you for tonight. For giving me a chance to be a regular girl. Just-just let me be with you, damn it!" With that, she began to show him her appreciation. She moved forward, her body pushing him against the couch. Her lips found his neck, unsure where exactly to kiss it, but still doing it nonetheless. Her lips had done enough kissing already to know to gently brush her lips over the skin, even suckling it a bit before moving back to his lips. "S-Show me what to do." She whispered nervously.