He laughed with her, "Some days I still have trouble. Then I hold out my arm and make an L, then I remember." He figured he would be funny, he had been irritated all day, and he didn't like to be in a bad mood. "I'm not scared to find out anything beyond this farm. Out there, life's a piece of shit. Don't even try to argue with me about that, you know it just as well as I. But to answer your question, I want to tell you what I want out of life." He paused for a moment, stopping them both and now facing her.
"I want a peaceful, meaningful existence. I want there to be a tangible, definite reason for why I'm here. I also want to be able to do what I want and be happy. How many people do you know can do both? If I were to do something tangible, I could be a doctor, or an architect, sure. They have definite, tangible results. But are they happy? The former deals with sickness and pain on a daily basis, and often from within as well as from patients. Architects can build huge buildings, sure, but the suicide rate and satisfaction rates among architects are the respective highest and lowest in a large number of careers.
"And if I wanted to be happy, I could easily become anything. An actor, a waiter, an artist, a writer, all these could easily help me be happy. But what would be the point? What am I doing for the world? Sure, I'm entertaining someone at that moment, whether it's a movie, a painting, a book, or even singing happy birthday for a kid in the restaurant, but that's the keyword: at that moment. What happens after you're done? Nothing. I want real results to come from my work.
"That's why I choose to farm. I can produce real, tangible results that can instantly be seen. I can feed hundreds of people with a simple few hours of work. And being in the fields, working with the land and the livestock, it's calming. Peaceful. Almost therapeutic. I live doing this because it makes me happy, and I know what results I get from my work." He almost had to catch his breath. "Sorry about the speech, I'll get off my soapbox now."