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Memoirs of a Real Life Lover, Wife and Slave (Feel free to comment, post, PM, etc.)

RE: Memoirs of a Real Life Lover, Wife and Slave


Dear Blue Moon Diary,

Annoyed sigh

So .. I can't blame anyone if by now they hate me or think I'm the most fickle woman in existence. But ... I've tried to log back on. I can't find enough inspiration or will to remain on here for very long. I can't say why or why not just that .. I can't. So, once again, I'm going to leave the forums. However, I will leave behind ways to keep in touch with me, whether for OOC talk and discussing an RP over any messenger. As much as I did used to love threads, I can't seem to muster up the ability to write here. And that genuinely does annoy me as someone who does love to write.

Here are the ways to get a hold of me:

AIM: layne05007
Skype: virgobushin
E-mail: virgobushin0915@yahoo.com (put your user name in the subject line if you contact me this way so I know you're from here, please. Or somewhere in the message at least)

I do have Steam but ... I don't see that as a medium to use really. Same applies for Facebook. Have an account but don't like it. I made it originally just to see what the hype was about. So those two options aren't going to be included due to those reasons.

Again, I really, really am so very sorry. I ... have no excuse nor words that I can find let alone use to explain myself.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2


 
RE: Memoirs of a Real Life Lover, Wife and Slave


Dear Blue Moon Diary,
I .... I can't do this much anymore. I'm about to wave my white flag on pretty much everything. This place for fucking sure ... maybe life in general. I'm so ... infuriated and equally taken aback.

Veinexes got hired about three weeks ago at the Burger King. Not the best, no. But fuck it's something which is far better than nothing, right? Or so we thought. Days turned into weeks when they promised to call him back with when they could get him scheduled to work. Nothing.

He just called back ... and some bullshit about the same manager who hired him not being able to get a hold of the district manager is the reason they haven't let him work.

Why?! What bullshit is this?! They said he was hired! Now they've practically undone the entire process of accepting him as a worker!

I .. I can't do this much more. Hope had found me when they said they would let him work with them. But now, that's slowly fading away once again.

My own kid asked once over the phone if she'd ever see me and/or Veinexes again. I tried to reassure and swear to her the answer would be yes. But honestly, I'm beginning to question that myself now. It scares me and breaks my heart ... again at that rate.

I don't know what the fuck to do. This is one of those times being on SSI is a blessing and a curse. It's giving us some source of income, yeah. But that's literally all we have! I've been the main source of money for ... fucking three and a half years now. We get by; barely but still. I ....

Shakes head

I don't know what to think .... let alone do. I almost wanna pick up the phone and call for my lawyer who helped me win the SSI case. Because this really is bullshit and I feel like Veinexes should get some sort of compensation for this.

Damnit, Nana and Granddaddy. It's days like this that I really wish you were here ... so bad ....

You always knew what to do ....

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2


 
RE: Memoirs of a Real Life Lover, Wife and Slave


Dear Blue Moon Diary,
Something clearly held me back from waving my white flag. All I can say .. is I'm glad it did. Things are finally turning around for the better.

Last week, Vein called up the Burger King (after I insisted he had the right to get a straight answer) and the manager admitted that although she hadn't heard back from the district manager, she still hired and put him on schedule. He's at work now as his first official day. Later that day .. or before/after it, I found out I had some extra money in my account. I'm using that to go visit my kid for her birthday. It'll be a few days after when I arrive, only because my dad couldn't get off from work before then. But fuck, it's better than missing another birthday. I also kinda wish it was for more than 12 days but I'll take what I can get.

That being said, from the 10th of June to the 22nd, I will be gone. And posts will probably be ... seldom if existent at all. I don't want my parents finding out I'm here. They'd have a fit, rest assured. And I just ... yeah. I don't want anymore drama. Been there, done that too often.

I think my most upset/annoyed side is my writing one or lack of in this case. But ... I know it's partly my fault. I knew making that new thread would cause a lot of people to dislike it due to it's nature. But ... it's just too hard for me to do a non-fandom or an RP not somehow inspired by an anime/manga. I'm kinda irked at myself for it because I know this is my doing and all. But I'm not going to ask for it to be removed. It'd be lying to myself and all that I do like and enjoy.

I do, however, need to contact some people and ask what's up because ... yeah. It just needs to be done.

But all in all, things are finally improving. And I really am glad for that. It's a bit odd being a housewife again for the first time in .. too long. Hopefully I can get used to that again while balancing my own obligations (namely HEX-related stuff).

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2


 
RE: Memoirs of a Real Life Lover, Wife and Slave


Credit goes to Ironic for this format.

Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Meh
Listening to: "Believe x Believe" ~ Bullettrain - Opening theme of Yu-gi-oh! Arc V

Thoughts:
21st May, 2014

Meh, I've been better.
I've also been worse.
I hate that we went through this month's food stamps so fucking fast though.
I'm kinda famished.
But it seems ... silly almost to make food at 3 AM.
I'm about ready to say 'Fuck it' and go make something anyway.

Annoyed sigh

I may just go make something soon anyway.
I suppose this is what I get for denying the offer to have had Burger King yesterday.
I knew I should have taken it as a future meal if nothing else.
Sometimes, I feel like the biggest idiot alive x.x

If I haven't gotten back to anyone in an RP, it's not because I've forgotten
Just taking it easy for a bit.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Still kinda tired, waking up
Listening to: "Clear Mind" ~ Yu-gi-oh 5Ds theme

Thoughts:
22nd May, 2014

I'm killing the next hour by getting back to people now.
Thanks everyone for being patient with me ^^;;

As far as I've been seeing, results for the elections may not be revealed until the 26th like they originally decided.
It still seems like too long to let people vote but ...

Shrug

I've waited longer for things.

Today is my parents' anniversary so I'm gonna call later during the day and wish them well.
My own's coming up pretty soon.
Even if it's only dinner/lunch/something simple, I'm gonna see about trying to do something when that day arrives.

Well, time to get back to the other RPs.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Tired, reluctant to leave
Listening to: "Radioactive" ~ Imagine Dragons

Thoughts:
23rd May, 2014

Fuck sakes, girl.
You have got to get a better sleeping schedule.
Ugh x.x

I'm gonna try to get the finals typed up and send some OWLs regarding my job as a proofer/moderator soonish.

....

Or, I may sneak a nap in.
I dunno.
I'll figure it out ... somehow.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Twizzlers
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: A bit annoyed
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
24th May, 2014

...

Two words:

Goddamn period
Ugh.
It keeps making me pass out and especially when I don't wanna.
Vein got the weekend off. I've been trying to enjoy it with him.
Kinda hard when I keep being shoved into an unconscious state

Sigh

And now I've probably ruined my sleep schedule ... again

Hopefully this will get better soon.

Sorry in advance to those I'm in an RP with.
This thing's really kicking my ass so ... yeah.
But I really haven't forgotten, I swear ^^;;

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Kinda lazy
Listening to: "Hitmoi no Tsubasa" ~ Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion 3rd Opening

Thoughts:
25th May, 2014

I kinda want tomorrow to arrive ....
And yet, I don't at the same time x.x
Don't get me wrong, I'm glad that the trip is becoming closer and closer to actually happening.
But the driving I gotta do in between waiting?
Kinda tiring, especially with how my schedule's been as of late.
It's no one's fault or anything.
Just this lame ass city's - town's - and how they handle their public buses.
They need to make the damn things run at better times and stop being afraid of the slightest drops of snow or rain.
Seriously, I fucking lived in Minnesota for about 3 years or so with Veinexes.
I've seen real snow, like 3+ feet of it.
A few inches is nothing

-.-

Stupid dumbasses. I'm so ready to get outta here. Ugh.
Given I need to turn in a substitute class tomorrow, I'll probably be back to my more normal pace of getting stuff done.
For now though, I'm posting back when I get the inspiration to do so.

Term's about to end on HEX; kinda glad.
It's been fun but I want my break now, ya know? xD

Not much more to add for now.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Sick
Listening to: Jack Atlas' Duel Theme from Yu-gi-oh 5Ds

Thoughts:
26th May, 2014

God-fucking-damnit.
Why can no one in this godforsaken place cook?!
Seriously, no one can!
Almost every time I eat something made in here, me and Veinexes tend to get sick!
It's not that hard to make a decent meal. What the fuck?!

Just need to wait a bit longer.
Term's almost over and the vacation is approaching ...
Gods I can't wait till those things plus a few others arrive.
Lord.

Annoyed sigh

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Anxious & Excited at the same time
Listening to: "I Could Not Ask For More" ~ Sara Evans

Thoughts:
27th May, 2014

So many promising things are coming up.
I've got two weeks until I get to see my daughter again.
She'll turn 7 .... heh. Funny. I just realized it'll be her golden birthday.
Thank gods I'll be able to celebrate it with her this year.
True, it'll be a few days late but ah well.
Much better late than never.

Hopefully later today, the results of the voting on HEX will be posted up.
Part of me doesn't care too much if I don't become Prefect, just because I'll have an idea on how to try again next time.
But then there's the rare, competitive side of me that wants this just because of how far I got and all.
It is a win-win overall, regardless of the actual result.

I was trying to wait until the damn results got posted but ...
I may just edit this later when I know for sure instead of doing a double post.

Finally, a year that's turning out to be pretty damn decent.
Gods knows I needed one to come around while living in this shit hole.
Until I get the results, that's all for now I suppose.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

P.S. My gods.... I fucking did it!
I'm one of the two Prefects!
I ....

Shakes head, chuckles

Am somehow going to celebrate this.

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: A bit torn but mostly well
Listening to: "Tonight And the Rest Of My Life" ~ Nina Gordon

Thoughts:
28th May, 2014

Suddenly, everything feels so ... hard to believe.
I almost fear I'm just in an amazing dream, one that I don't wanna wake up from.
But I've been realizing every now and again, it's all true.
From the upcoming trip to being chosen as a Prefect.
I'm practically on cloud nine

At the same time, this comes with a slight downfall.
I got almost instantly swarmed with new things to do.
That being said, I may have to reduce the number of RPs.
I swore to everyone I'd be able to handle this.
I don't wanna break that promise.

Mind you, I'm not leaving.
Just ... probably not going to reply as fast usual is all it means.
I'll need to figure it all out, honestly.

It annoys and pains me to consider doing this.
But that's why I'm thinking on it more.

I already passed out earlier so ...
I'm gonna kill time for the next few hours before I gotta drive people.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Pretty content
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
29th May, 2014

So ...
After starting my first official day as a Prefect yesterday, I now know I'm gonna have to reduce the number of RPs.
However, I'm not making the decision on whom to choose from.
I want people to PM/IM me on if you want to continue with me or not.
Before you say yes, however, know my replies will take a lot longer than usual to get to.
If you can't handle that, it'd be best to end things because I swore I'd be able to handle all of my obligations.
And I am not going to just go back on my promise.

On a happier note, we have a second .... kitten.
It wasn't exactly planned for, mind you.
I literally got a knock on my door yesterday. Turned out to be one of the coordinators holding a small (and I do mean small) kitten in her hands.

At first, the agreement was to at least keep her with us since we had cat food and a litter box.
But it felt wrong to make the decision without informing Veinexes at all.
So I told him when I picked him up from work, showed the little one to him and ...
Well, he fell in love with her.

We're pretty sure it's a girl but we're gonna get her checked out since she'll need her shots and such.
So, unless we're proven wrong, here is Aphrodite.

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She's believed to be about 8 weeks old.
The poor thing literally dove into the food bowl when she first arrived in our home though, suggesting she was probably malnutritioned.
Although if she really was found in the parking lot of the ER we live near... I can believe that.

She's incredibly shy but so very sweet and loving.

Well, that's all for now.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Just finished having some rolls
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Depressed though not as bad as earlier
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
30th May, 2014

Turns out Aphrodite had been owned, fucking owned!
And I wouldn't be so mad and upset ...
If it weren't for the fact the owner admitting to not fucking noticing her own kitten got into the owner's handbag,
Thus when the woman took it with her to work, she took the kitten as well.
She didn't fully close .. the door or window, one of those two.
And that's why she was found in the parking lot of the hospital.

-.-

If they fucking lose her again, I will personally beat the bitch myself.
I don't feel they deserved her back, even if they were her true owners.
But Veinexes is right .. it was the correct thing to do.
Still, it's as painful as a closed adoption
Because I know I'm never going to have or hold Aphrodite again

I cried myself to sleep earlier ... so I'm wide ass awake.
Hopefully tomorrow will allow for happier ongoings, especially with the anniversary coming up.
I'll be better .. just not right away.
But in time, yes.

Frustrated sigh

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Just finished having some cheesecake from Chili's
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: A bit better, still kinda tired though
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
31st May, 2014

I've been keeping myself busy to avoid thinking too much on Aphrodite.
Not that my mind won't go back to her every now and again ...
But I don't wanna get stuck in a rut as Vein always says.
Perhaps the better wording is I can't really afford to.
I'm still the driver and have my online obligations
So I need to get over it, even if not perfectly.

I kinda wish he didn't work today
But somehow, we can figure some way to celebrate our anniversary out.
Mind's drawing a blank so I'm gonna end it here for now.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Mac & Cheese from KFC
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Hopeful
Listening to: "Pieces" ~ Red

Thoughts:
1st June, 2014

I can't help but feel like I fucked up me and Vein's anniversary yesterday by breaking down over Aphrodite.
>.<
I'm working on it. Really, I am.
I'm pretty sure I'm getting better.
It'll just take a bit more time I suppose.

The term on HEX is finally coming to a close.
Finals are being posted up today.
However, this isn't to say I won't be doing anything on there, mainly because I did wind up becoming a Prefect.
So I'll be busy doing my Chats/Contests of the Week, Riddles of the Week, and any other tasks I was given.
Ah well, the busier the better for me, honestly.

For those who have gotten back to me in regards to our RPs, thanks.
For those who haven't, I'm fairly assuming (until you PM/IM me proving otherwise) that you don't want to keep in touch.
Honestly? That's more than fair given how fickle I've come off as.

Not much more to add for now.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Accomplished
Listening to: "Light On" ~ David Cook

Thoughts:
2nd June, 2014

Got my Prefect duties for the month of June done.
Well, most of them.
But now I should be able to enjoy my trip and focus more on it and my kid/parents than fretting on not having anything done.
About a week to go before I leave!
I'm fucking ecstatic!

I can imagine it's been hard for my parents to keep this away from my daughter.
But I'm glad they have.
It'll really add in the element of surprise and, hopefully, be worth it all.
I only wish I could have been able to stay longer than 12 days.
Still, I intend to make every second count for her.

To those who have gotten back to me, thank you.
I'll see about getting back to everyone today or later this week now that I am feeling much better.
Not perfect but hell it's a start.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: A bit hungry but mostly excited
Listening to: "Send Her My Love" ~ Journey

Thoughts:
3rd June, 2014

Heh, quite the fitting song.
Well .. almost, save the break-up aspects.
But about not seeing someone in so long?
Fuck yeah.
Thank gods that's about to be remedied.
I really can't wait for that still!

Happy dance

Thanks again for those who have been ... patient/tolerable/some other adjective with me.
I'm finally getting back to everyone, slowly but surely.
Hopefully we can do something about food when Vein gets off.

Money shouldn't be as tight as it's been after we finish paying this damn car off which .. should be sometime this month, according to calculations.
Not much more to add for the time being.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: A bit irritated
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
4th June, 2014

God-fucking-damnit
Why am I bleeding as if having a secondly period in the same month?
-.-
I seriously hate my body sometimes ... ugh.
It always seems to do this shit when I least want it.
Hopefully I won't be bleeding by the time I leave for Oregon.
I don't wanna be bitchy
(Unless I gotta be though I'm not counting on it.)

Well ... at least Vein has off tomorrow.

I'll end this entry here for now.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: About to warm up some pizza
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Well-rested
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
5th June, 2014

That was actually some of the best 8 hour sleep I've had in a hell of a while.
Granted, the new spotting/bleeding session probably helped out but ... still.
Hopefully I can get something like this on the plane ride to Oregon.
We're mostly done with all the preparations.
I can't fucking wait.

Ares is 9 months old today; time's going by so fast.
It feels like only yesterday we adopted him.
He's really turned out to be a very sweet kitten (one that's also close to becoming a cat but oh well)

Sigh
Goddamnit ....
Of course, Vein gets called on his day off.
Urgh, I hate when people do that shit.

-.-
I'm gonna get some food before I try to punch something ...

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Relieved
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
6th June, 2014

Today didn't start off as a good day.
It's gotten better, thankfully.
I almost wonder if I should have gone with Vein.

Slight frown

Hm ... he should be okay.
He had a really bad panic attack, to the point where his arm went numb and chest ached.
I didn't let him go into work today.
He slept until a few hours ago.

I've been up since 9ish AM, watching him.
Whatever is bothering him does seem to be gone but ... it doesn't completely get rid of the worries.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
We get to call our angel up.
She'll be 7 tomorrow.
Tempus fugit indeed.

Small smile
I can't wait to see her soon.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Frustrated but incredibly relieved
Listening to: The mental cursing fit in my head

Thoughts:
7th June, 2014

Eight ... fucking .... hours.
Seriously? That fucking long to fix a goddamn router problem?
Fuck this place to the lowest layer of hell.
They don't do shit properly,
They don't let anyone who knows anything help.
Fuck it.
I wish it'd burn.
Seriously, I really do.
No one gives a fuck about anyone who lives here anyway, especially the owner.
She can bullshit others and put on a good face for the public .....
But she sure as fuck isn't fooling me,
Maybe even no one else living here.
Gods knows enough people here are as sick of the place as me.

Money though .. it's tight for everyone
And thus pretty much the only keeping anyone here.

Three more damn days ....

Don't get me wrong, I'll miss Vein and Ares.
But there is definitely a part of me that still is gonna be glad to take this trip.

Hopefully tomorrow goes better.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Making mini-pancakes
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Frustrated but incredibly relieved
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
8th June, 2014

Why, why, why in the nine layers was the demonic mom and her brat allowed to come back here?
They fucking moved out in .. like ... April.
Just stay the fuck away.
Seriously, the day they left was one of the best, ugh.
If I come back to find out they've been visiting here every damn day - or worse are in the emergency part of the shelter ....
I ... am going to have a major fit.
I don't wanna hear/see her again
And especially not her child.
He is by far the worst 5-6 year old I've seen; seriously.
And given I'm a parent myself, that's a hell of a feat for me to be saying.
They're both just fucking awful and I want nothing more than for them to stay the fuck away.

Two more days, two more days ....

I should arrive at the airport around midnight or so and will have about 5-6 hours before I get on my flight.
I'll see about logging on while at the airport.
But it depends if I can find anywhere to do so.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Reese's
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Anxious and simultaneously excited
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
9th June, 2014

So ... I'll head to the airport around midnight.
My flight, however, doesn't leave till 6 AM EST.
So before I leave and during the time I gotta wait, I'll have time to talk to anyone who wishes to.
My AIM/Skype are free for anyone to use to contact me over.
Just .. no trolling or crap like that, please?
Otherwise, feel free to chat with me.

Like I've said before, I have no idea how often I'll be able to log here.
But I'll try when I can, even if only to update this and hint how things are going.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Content
Listening to: Nothing

Thoughts:
10th & 11th June, 2014

So ... getting past security was by far the worst part of yesterday.
Bastards almost didn't let me on the plane at all. -.-
But we got things settled out and all I had to do afterwards was go from plane to plane to plane x.x
It was tiring as fuck. Hell, my legs are still kinda sore.
But everywhere was beautiful, including Eugene & Florence, Oregon.
Mom was right about one thing, though.
Florence isn't much bigger than Boone nor has much more in terms of selection so ....
Probably should look at other places.

Anyway, gonna cut this entry short for now.
She went to pick our angel up who is doing very well.
But ... yeah. Still don't want her seeing this.
Though I do admit, it's odd she hasn't noticed the two extra tats or tongue piercing (though I've been working on hiding the latter)
It's a funny to imagine but I wonder if she's thinking I've always had them ^^;;
Ah well, just makes things easier.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Mood: Mixed
Listening to: "But For The Grace of God" ~ Keith Urban

Thoughts:
12th - 18th June, 2014

The past several days have been a real blessing and curse.
I'm so so so glad to see our daughter.
Really, I am.
But the thing that's going wrong is pretty much what I feared;
Being near my mother.

She always finds some way to bring the past up in the most unpleasant ways.
It's like ... umm, hello?
Yeah, kinda not here for that shit.
I swear, she manipulates and times it all too,
Always seems to do this when no one's around to stand up with or for me besides myself
And dad never hears how it begins so I look like the bad guy.
I hate that shit ... so very much.

I'm trying hard to just enjoy the presence of my daughter.
But honestly, I'm still kinda hurt by the attempted sabotage [it's what it feels like to me anyway].
I'll be back in a few days.
When I return, I'll get back to everyone ASAP.

For those who haven't gotten back, you can post if it's your turn to do so.

Nothing more to add for now.

Until next time,
LadyYunaFFX2

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