Aurora shook her head widely and moved to hug him. "No Robert that's not what i thought at all. I knew you would understand the choice, that was not the problem, I just...." she sighed and looked into his eyes. "I just didn't want to hurt you, I know how badly you wanted more children and i feel like I am destroying part of that dream for you, My body isn't strong enough to carry more children and I hate myself for that, I hate myself for not being able to give you the large family that you dreamed of, that we dreamed of"