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First Day of College, First Day of Freedom, I Think (CLOSED)

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Cassius snorted a little at Oliver's question. “of course she didn't, why in the hell would I use rape as a way to punish myself? That's just stupid.” he stated simply, forgetting that he shouldn't have heard them. “no it's nothing like that, I just realized something...when you yelled at me about money I realized there where other things I was obsessing over... I'll never like dirt, or people, and I might never be able to trust anyone as much as i'd like, but...well, I realized that my overbearing terror over, well everything, was part of the reason that Max was able to catch me off guard in the first place... and, I can't let my fear of, well, practically everything was cutting off my life...” he snorted and held up his gameboy. “i mean I didn't even know that this was a STYLUS! That's pretty pathetic.” he admitted shaking his head. “when I was raped, and I didn't actually feel any worse than I did every other day, I realized that I was really very pathetic.” he admitted sighing a little. “i tried to explain to her but she didn't listen.” he scowled. “she treats me as if I'm two and can't access my own damn feelings.” he complained. “i don't like her, not at all...” he admitted smiling at Oliver. “you helped me too you know, realize that my life was shitty... I mean, you have practically nothing, and I bet some pretty terrible things happened to you, yet your always smiling and happy and finding fun things to do, even with a crappy scholarship like what you had...” he smiled a little. “if you can be happy, then I can be too.” he decided before pausing. “...or, well I can try....”
 
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Oliver arched an eyebrow "I thought she didn't ask you the question?" he said after Cassius had finished. "And that sure sounds like using rape to me." he said and opened up a book looking into it to start and read. "I'm glad I've helped you some, but you really should keep talking to her, she's pushy sure, but she's trying to help." he spoke evenly as if he wasn't really paying attention to what was going on. "And to answer your question, no, I really haven't. The scholarship isn't crappy, if you haven't noticed, I've been with you for several days, not leaving your side. I've been absent from school for those days, which means my grades were being lowered. If we want to call something bad, I suppose I can say having my parents not know I'm gay...if I had to come out to them, yeah, that would be bad." he said, his hands tightening slightly around the book he was 'reading.'

Coming out to his parents is what scared him the most, and he wasn't about to tell Cassius that. It wasn't his business, at least, not yet. "Anyway, I've led a pretty normal life. I'm just a normal human being." he shrugged "You have every right to feel bad, bad things have happened, but you shouldn't let them rule your life. Feel bad for as long as you need, but work to get better, to feel better. I just wouldn't think that anyone would want to feel bad as long as you have."
 
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he blushed bright red as he was called out on overhearing their convocation. “oh, well... uhm.” he coughed a little and went 'back to his homework' looking vaguely guilty about something. “in any case I suppose your right about the scholarship. At least you know it won't be a hand out.” he teased Oliver, grinning at him and teasing his 'I'm not a charity case' complexion before pausing a little and then. “Oliver...why haven't you told you parents?” he asked curiously. “you don't have to tell me if I'm roaching on in something sensitive, I was just curious.” he admitted his head tilted. “you do know I won't make you tell them right? No matter how serious it gets between us.” he wanted Oliver to understand, that Cassius didn't need any relationship they had to be open or public. He was happy keeping it a secrete so long as Oliver stayed with him. He smiled at the other, to show Oliver not to be so serious and sighed as he focused on his homework.

“i didn't know how.” Cassius admitted. “i was so guilty you know? About getting Briant killed...” he shook his head a little. “i guess I didn't know how to work past it until I saw you coping with your own life... I mean, my own mother and father couldn't get over what happened...well you saw, so I never learned how to balance myself out either, I guess it just...clicked all of a sudden when you didn't treat me any different after being raped. I realized that I wasn't different, I thought I was but I wasn't, and I guess I just figured I was being really stupid, being all depressed about something that happened to me so many years ago.” he shrugged and scribbled something down on the homework sheet. “and the game boy is helping too. I couldn't clean at the hospital, and I can't run, so I guess I found a different outlet.” he beamed at Oliver. “you know, these games really ARE fun, you should try them sometime!”
 
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Oliver chuckled "Yeah, games usually are. I would tell your therapist that, ten bucks says she'll be happy to hear it." he said, "And stop bothering your so much about it." he mumbled and took a deep breath. "As for why I haven't told my parents...they are super religious. Like, we prayed at every meal no matter where we were, I've been going to church since I was born, every Sunday no doubt and no matter what. Our preacher hates homosexuals, he thinks they are sick, disgusting, horrible human beings that deserve to rot in hell." he fidgeted "My parents take the same view." he said and looked down "and then there is the sex that I've been having...which even if it wasn't with men, my parents would kill me. But you know, I like it. I like sex, and as long as you're safe I don't see what the problem is. God still loves me." he said and fidgeted a little more. "I'm lucky I have a scholarship...because if I ever told them...they would cut me off from everything and everyone."
 
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Cassius looked amazed at Oliver's admittance and then looked a little upset at Oliver's admittance and moved over to Oliver's bed, sitting down next to him and gently setting his hand on the others shoulder. “i'm sorry Ol.” he muttered softly. “i didn't know that it was so bad.” he admitted sighing a little. “i don't know much about God.” he admitted shaking his head. “my family are not religious. We value the earth and the people.” he admitted smiling at him. “but I know that God is all loving right? And he created everyone so I've heard, if he created gays and homosexuals and the like, then why should he hate them?” he asked his head tilted. “if god didn't want us to have sex, he wouldn't have made us with the capabilities.” there was a pause then. “well, procreation I suppose, but I don't think there's any rule in that bible thing that says you can't have sex right?” he smiled a little. “and, just so you know, if your parents do find out, as doubtful as that might be, I will always be your friend. I won't ever let you be all alone.” he promised smiling at Oliver. “in time, I'm sure they would accept you. They might be angry and upset at first, but I'm sure they would come around.” he admitted kissing Oliver's temple.
 
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Oliver shook his head "It depends on how your interpret it." he said and shrugged "I stopped believing what my parents do a long time ago." he smiled slightly, but there was still a sad smile to it. "Anyway, they aren't going to find out, no one but myself and whomever I sleep with needs to know." he said and nodded. He had this belief for a long, long time. He was actually pretty okay with him being gay, it was the sex that he had felt guilty about for the longest time. The only reason he had never gone through the guilt about being gay was because he had an amazing history teacher when he was in school, who taught bits of the bible and the history of it. He had eventually figured out that with how far the bible was written they couldn't even known about homosexuality, sex they knew about, but not homosexuality. So he was okay with that. However, for the longest time having sex before marriage and not procreating with it was his problem, he very slowly had gotten over it, with each man he had slept with.
 
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he smiled a little and shrugged a little. “i suppose that's true.” he admitted his head tilted a little as he considered this. “what do you believe in?” he asked curiously looking up at the ceiling. “did you know that homosexuality occurs ion nature?” he asked smiling a little. “it's very rare, but it does happen. I had a gay cat once.” he admitted. “out neighbor called all the time, complaining that our cat had her male cat pinned and was screwing the life out of him.” he snickered a little. “very amusing. Well, I thought it was amusing.” he admitted smirking. “everyone else thought it was rather horrifying.” he shrugged and grinned at Oliver. “so how are your studies going? And the training? Have you beaten my records yet?” he demanded smirking a little, his head tilted a little. He was better at long distance than he was at sprinting to be honest, so he didn't have the sprinting record, but the long jump, high jump, and cross country records where his. “i was thinking of coming down tomorrow, I can't run yet, but I can play as cheerleader.” he smirked a little. “i think I could even borrow my sisters old cheerleader outfit, wouldn't that be sexy?”
 
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Oliver looked at him. "I know, I'm not very educated in the gay stuff, but I am educated a little. And at this point I don't know what I believe." he said and shrugged "They are going. There is no way I'm ever going to beat the long jump or high jump record. I beat the lazy ass that got the sprinting record. I need 2 more seconds on you to beat the cross country records." he said and smiled "Come down as a cheerleader in any outfit and I'll have you beat." he said, with a nod. He was sure of himself. "Though...I would rather you stay out of the cheerleader outfit. Sorry, but you are a tad too masculine, you would not make a very pretty girl" he said and shook his head.

Oliver glanced at the clock. "I'm going to go take a shower. I want to get up early before classes and go for a job along one of the paths and clean it up a bit, there isn't much left to do on it." he said and grabbed his things, to go take a shower.
 
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he chuckled a little and sighed. “when I first learned I was gay I did a lot of research.” he admitted shaking his head. “plus, my family has had gay men and women all throughout their history.” he admitted chuckling a little. “so I know a lot more than people might realize... my family tree goes as far back as ancient Romania and the Viking Warriors.” he admitted smirking a little. “besides, you could never beat me.” he teased winking at the other. “i'm too amazing.” he admitted with a laugh. “besides, I don't bottom.” well he didn't often, and he wasn't sure he was ready to bottom after...that, no matter how much better he felt, he was still terrified that Max was going to come back, finish him off, or that someone else might try to hurt him. “alright, you enjoy a shower.” he ordered, smiling a little. “i'm going to take a nap on your bed.” he decided grinning a little. “oh, before I forget, my mother is throwing a party this weakened.” he admitted. “she does that when she gets nervous or worried, anyway I was wondering if you wanted to go?”
 
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Oliver shrugged "Romania huh? Sure you're not a vampire?" he chuckled and looked at him "Don't worry I never top, so we're good." he chuckled and winked before nodded "yeah, if you want to go that is. I wouldn't mind, beats going to your sisters club, not that it isn't awesome." he said and headed off to the shower. He took a long shower letting his sore muscles relax under the warm water, before heading back and smiling at the boy taking a nap on his bed. He shook his head and got dressed.
 
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Cassius chuckled a little and shook his head. “werewolf.” he teased, winking at him and flashing him a smirk. “and I wouldn't have offered to go with you if I hadn't wanted to go you know.” he teased smiling a little as he snuggled into Alex's pillow and went to sleep right then and there, and he was still asleep when Alex got back, dozing lightly as Oliver got dressed, jerking awake when he heard the door click shut all the way, a look of terror crossing his face as his breath hitched, looking for the stranger before relaxing when he realized it was Oliver, giving a nervous chuckle. “nightmare.” he lied, snuggling into the pillow again. It was clear, that no matter how relaxed he speared to be, he was still very affected by what had happened to him. Wasn't that good news? At least he wasn't punishing himself. “can I sleep with you tonight?” Cassius asked softly. “just for tonight?” though they both knew he was probably going to end up sleeping in Oliver's bed most of the time.
 
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Oliver looked over and nodded at both of the things that Cassius said. "No problem." He said and headed over to the bed. "Sleep with me as long as you like" he smiled at the other and moved into his bed, cuddling into the other. He hesitated before kissing Cassius on the cheek and smiling a litte more. "Good night." He whisered before yawning and going to sleep.
 
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Cassius smiled and relaxed into Cassius, in the morning he was tangled up in Oliver, snuggling into him with a happy little grin on his face, cuddling the other like he was a giant teddy bear. “mmm Oliver.” he murmured, nuzzling the back of the others neck. “your going to be late.” Cassius's alarm was going off, yelling at him to get up, but in his sleep fogged mind he thought he was laying in his bed, and it was Oliver's alarm going off. Yet, he did not release his hold on Oliver to let the other up either, nuzzling his neck, enjoying the others scent and taking comfort in the cuddling, too tired to care that he might actually be making Oliver late.
 
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Oliver grumbled at the phone going off. "fuck!" he yelled when he realized it was Cassius's alarm going off and he sprung up. "Oh god, Cassius, what time is your phone set for?" he asked, scrambling to find it. He had wanted to go for a jog before his first class and have enough time to take at least a short shower. Looked like he wasn't going to get the shower. He cussed as he tore through the dorm room, throwing on his clothes for the day, stumbling to get into his pants. "Fuck, fuck, fuck." he mumbled and moved over to Cassius kissing him. "See you later, bye!" he said as he zoomed out the door and started to job around the campus, no tie to do the cross country route like he wanted.
 
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Cassius grumbled as he felt his pillow abandoning him, but simply rolled over and went back to sleep ignoring the frantic actions going on behind him as he snoozed away. When he came back to the room there was a police woman waiting for him with a troubled expression on her face, the same woman who had taken Cassius's statement. “Oliver right?” she asked nervously, looking rather timid, as if she had bad news. “have you seen Cassius?” Cassius was sitting with the therapist that he didn't like, as the note on Oliver's bed would state, but the officer couldn't get into the room being that she didn't have a key. “well maybe it;s better if you tell him...” she decided, licking her lips. “Max has escaped.” she stated softly, swallowing hard. “we think he might go after Cassius again...or you.” she admitted softly. “we don't know where he's gone and we can't figure out how he escaped...” she admitted, shaking her head a little. “as an officer I am more than willing to assign a team to protect you, being how volatile this case is I would even recommend it.” she admitted, watching him closely. “but in the end you have to agree to a protection watch or we can't, not legally anyway.” she had a very bad feeling that Oliver was going to refuse, she knew Cassius was going to. Cassius hated being followed.
 
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Oliver nodded "Yeah, that's me. I saw him this morning." he said, looking at his watch, it wasn't too long ago. "I think he has classes today, I don't know if he's going to them or not." he said and fidgeted "Honestly...I rather not, at least not one that is visible. It kind of bothers me, being followed like that." he said, "I understand your concern, I don't blame you. But, just between you and I, he's already had his way with me and I was willing, I doubt he'll come after me." he shrugged. He honestly didn't think Max would come after him, why come after someone who was so willing the first time, right? "I'll be sure to tell Cassius though, he's not going to be happy about it." he wrinkled his nose "And I'm sure with out whatever protection you would give me, Cassius is going to be on my like a hound dog, so don't worry too much." he said and nodded to the officer, moving to unlock his door.
 
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she nodded to him and sighed a little. “well I can't make you accept, but if you come down to the station later on we can give you some gun lessons and a carry permit.” she offered watching him closely. “i only offer you this because I know Cassius very well and he wouldn't be friends with a homicidal maniac.” she admitted offering Oliver a grin. “please be careful alright? I'll be waiting for you at the precinct.” she informed him before tipping her hat at him and walking away just in time to not be seen by Cassius who was scowling as he approached Oliver. “that bitch called me a LIAR!” he complained to Oliver. “can you believe that!? A liar! I don't lie! I NEVER lie! She's the... why do you look so pale? Do you feel unwell?”
 
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Oliver nodded to the lady and opened the door, turning to look at Cassius when he heard him yelling about his therapist. "She doesn't mean that kind of lying, Cassius, and you know that." he said and hesitated. Did he really look pale? Maybe Max being out scared him more than he thought. "I'm...fine." he said and walked through the door. "But, I've got something I need to tell you, and I think you should be sitting down and calmed down, before I tell you." he said and headed towards his bed, reading the note that Cassius had written before throwing it in the trash.

Oliver took a deep breath hand looked over to Cassius. "Cassius...Max..."he looked down and fidgeted a bit "Max isn't in jail right now...he's escaped." he licked his lips, ready for an explosion from Cassius "The police are looking for him, but they just wanted to make sure you were safe, they've offered a body guard if you want one. We can go down to the police station and ask about it." he explained. Maybe he was just worried for Cassius, maybe that's why he was so pale. He also hadn't been getting much sleep, not just because Cassius was sleeping with him, that was fine. But worrying about Cassius and trying so hard not to show it. He was sure lying to himself. He liked Cassius, a lot.
 
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he growled a little and scowled as he moved into the room, giving it a quick once over to make sure there wasn't anyone in the room before he flopped down onto his own bed and grabbed his gameboy, flicking it on and pausing when Oliver said Max, freezing completely as he looked up at Oliver with terrified eyes. “he's...gone?” he asked softly. “escaped?...” he swallowed thickly and his eye twitched a little as he fumbled in his pocket for a moment, pulling out a pill bottle, shaking out a single pill and tossing it back before pausing for another moment, as if expecting it to kick in right away before his eye twitched again, standing up and moving over to the door, locking it, and then bracing a chair against the doorknob so that no one could open it before pausing again, very clearly having a silent meltdown as he pondered how else to keep the world out so he could panic in private. “.... I need to clean something....” Cassius muttered, his voice strained and close to tears. “i..i need to find my gun... I... I need... I need...” he trembled and collapsed onto the floor, much the way he had when he'd discovered that Blaze had been destroyed. “i need....” he covered his face with his hands, struggling to stay in control of himself, struggling not to fly into an outright panic.
 
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Oliver watched him put the chair on the door and winced "Probably could have handled that more delicately..." he said to himself and took a deep breath finding blaze and handing it to Cassius as he sat down next to him on the floor. "It's going to be ok, we'll go to the police tomorrow and get a body guard, ok?" he said and hesitated before touching him on the shoulder. "How about you clean the room? You can even clean my side, make everything spotless." he said and smiled a bit, just trying to calm him down so they could talk a little more rationally about what should be done. "Cassius...it's ok to freak out if you want." he said, figuring that's all Cassius needed at the moment. "I can go for a jog if you want to be alone. I'll knock on the door when I want to come back, I'll even leave my key here for you." he suggested.
 
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Cassius clung to the little Dragon as if it was a lifeline, trembling violently as he closed his eyes. “no! No body guard...” he stated firmly, sounding almost angry, but it was just fear. Body guards where useless, and pathetic. He could handle himself just fine, there was no problem doing that so long as Max didn't catch him unaware again. “don't leave!” he pleaded, grabbing for Oliver and wrapping his arms tightly around him, locking him in place as if trying to protect him. “he'll go after you too... he'll attack you to punish me... can't let you get hurt... won't ever let him hurt you.” he muttered, full out panicking now as he clung to Blaze and Oliver alike. “they'll find him, we just have to stay here... it's safe here.. can't get in here.” because he had shelled out extra money to get a reinforced lock. Max wouldn't be able to kick this one open, or pick it. You had to have a key, and he couldn't get Oliver's or his key if they where locked in the room. It was safe, safe as it could be. “we're safe in here...” he mumbled softly, closing his eyes as his ;chill pills' started to kick in, sighing softly as he felt his terror start to wash away. “oh those are good pills...” he mumbled blinking at Oliver and blushing hard, releasing him. “sorry....”
 
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Oliver nodded along with the other, though he really felt the other was over reacting just a bit he let the other calm down. When he finally did he smiled a little "It's fine, but you do realize we can't stay in here forever?" he said "And I in no way plan to sit in this room because you don't want me to get hurt. I'm going to live my life, alright?" he said, more demanding than asking. "I'm happy that you are worried about me, but I can handle myself, alright?" he shook his head and didn't move away from Cassius "We each handle things like this in our own way." he said. He yawned. "Now, if you don't mind, I kind of want to go to bed." he said and kissed Cassius on the forehead, "You coming?" he asked.
 
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he shook his head. “sorry, no that was... stupid.” he admitted standing up on shaky legs and removing the chair, shaking his head a little. “i don't...” he hesitated then. “the psychiatrist said that my fight or flight response was supercharged.” he explained. “which is why my panic attacks are... well, meltdowns.” he admitted sitting down on the bed and running his hand through his hair, yawning a little. “she gave me these pills, it makes me calm down and relax, but they make me really sleepy.” he admitted holding out a second bottle to Oliver. “would you take a bottle? Sometimes when I panic I don't have enough sense to take one myself.” he admitted shaking his head a little. “i guess Max affected me a lot more than I realized.” he muttered laying down next to Oliver, wrapping his arms tightly around him, and holding him close, relaxed and sleepy now that the drug was in full bloom. “promise me you'll be ok? He said he was going to do terrible things to you...” he admitted softly sighing a little. “i won't be in tomorrow.” he admitted. “i'm going to go home and get my conceal and carry and find my handgun.” he admitted hesitating. “are you ok with having a gun in the room? I can get a knife or a tazer instead if you don't like them.”
 
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Oliver grabbed the bottle and set it in the drawer at his desk before climbing into the bed and letting Cassius cuddle with him. "It's fine, just don't go firing it when you don't need to ok?" he asked, and smiled. He wanted to reassure that nothing was going to happen to him personally, that he really doubted Max would come after him, but now he wasn't so sure anymore. Maybe it was the policewoman showing up, or maybe Cassius's words had finally gotten to him. He would never be certain he thought.

Oliver stayed asleep for the rest of the night, until he got up in the morning and headed out for his jog, switching it up for once. He had been to class sweaty and then realized it probably didn't matter since it was P.E. anyway. He could shower before his next class. He chuckled to himself, and had just enough time to run along one of the cross country paths, picking up sticks as he went to make sure they were out of the way, come the meet that they were having soon.
 
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Cassius was gone when Oliver woke up, a note informing him that he was at the doctors for a routine checkup and to pick up his gun, then he was going to talk to the therapist and that he was hoping to be back before classes ended. The paths where mostly clean, save for a few fallen sticks from the last rain, but there seamed to be someone watching Oliver, he would be able to feel the burning gaze of someone watching him. Someone who hated him, wanted to kill him, wanted to teach him a lesson, but as soon as he was out of the woods, the sensation stopped. Someone, was stalking Oliver in the woods.
 
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