Hahvoc The Decepticon
Singularity
- Joined
- Mar 4, 2009
Watching Mason's eyes trail over her body gave her goosebumps. A warning bell was going off in her head that she'd changed it from some harmless and stupid game to something serious. Mason's look was what confirmed it. Her instincts were sluggish like her brain, but the bell was loud as a scream. A panic settled into her stomach and started churning the alcohol and little food she ate into something to be despised. As she stared at his face and his body, she felt herself backing up, trying to click rewind on what she'd done. Being drunk had benefits - being a soldier in this case, did not. She'd been trained to be able to find some logical thought even when at her worst and a little logical voice was screaming at her to get out of there. To do something to stop this possible train wreck.
Seeing him take the shots made that queasy feeling get worse. Her arms wrapped around her stomach as if she could hide from him. She wanted to hide from this situation, from the wrong feelings welling up. Was it just because he was familiar? Safe? Or was it just Mason that she was seeing? That he was a man and that she was a woman and nothing else seemed to be so cut and dry as that? When he left to get the other bottle of liquor, she didn't know what to do. She was losing it, she knew and tried to get herself back on track. The room wobbled in her eyes and her stomach was rebelling against her panic. Not good. Not good.
As he returned with limes, salt, and the tequila she felt tears prick her eyes. This situation was out of control. And so were they. She had never backed down from a challenge she found worthy, but if they kept this up, this game of wills would turn into regret that would eat them both alive. Shaking from some of the thoughts circling in her mind, she covered her face in her hands, hearing his words. It was true, she'd slept with men, but she couldn't go through with this. Didn't think she should.
"This isn't real."
She whispered and before he could respond, she rushed into the bathroom without shutting the door and emptied her stomach of all the booze she'd swallowed.
Seeing him take the shots made that queasy feeling get worse. Her arms wrapped around her stomach as if she could hide from him. She wanted to hide from this situation, from the wrong feelings welling up. Was it just because he was familiar? Safe? Or was it just Mason that she was seeing? That he was a man and that she was a woman and nothing else seemed to be so cut and dry as that? When he left to get the other bottle of liquor, she didn't know what to do. She was losing it, she knew and tried to get herself back on track. The room wobbled in her eyes and her stomach was rebelling against her panic. Not good. Not good.
As he returned with limes, salt, and the tequila she felt tears prick her eyes. This situation was out of control. And so were they. She had never backed down from a challenge she found worthy, but if they kept this up, this game of wills would turn into regret that would eat them both alive. Shaking from some of the thoughts circling in her mind, she covered her face in her hands, hearing his words. It was true, she'd slept with men, but she couldn't go through with this. Didn't think she should.
"This isn't real."
She whispered and before he could respond, she rushed into the bathroom without shutting the door and emptied her stomach of all the booze she'd swallowed.