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theWatcher
Meteorite
- Joined
- Oct 17, 2021
- Location
- The Multiverse
Let's see how a little journal goes. It can't hurt, right? I doubt anyone will ever read this, but hey, maybe it will help me get my mind in order. Or at least some temporary relief.
I think that it's strange that I know beyond a doubt that I am my own worst enemy. In so, so many ways. Even as I sit here and mull over what I want to say, there are so many other things that I could be, definitely should be doing. But instead, I would rather distract myself from them. Put them off to the last possible moment. I think that all goes back to when I was in high school, or possibly university.
Being a self-saboteur was the best strategy for me to unlock my full creativity. It was true when I was in uni, and it's true almost thirty years later. Nearly all of my best work was made so I could meet a deadline. Sitting there in evaluations being praised for work that was barely dry, or even still wet and glossy with my oils…. that I think did something to me.
Ooh, that wasn't what I expected, but I'll take it. I might also leave my first little journal entry here and go and do some of the things that I should be doing.
I'll most likely just waste a little more time doing something else though....
I think that it's strange that I know beyond a doubt that I am my own worst enemy. In so, so many ways. Even as I sit here and mull over what I want to say, there are so many other things that I could be, definitely should be doing. But instead, I would rather distract myself from them. Put them off to the last possible moment. I think that all goes back to when I was in high school, or possibly university.
Being a self-saboteur was the best strategy for me to unlock my full creativity. It was true when I was in uni, and it's true almost thirty years later. Nearly all of my best work was made so I could meet a deadline. Sitting there in evaluations being praised for work that was barely dry, or even still wet and glossy with my oils…. that I think did something to me.
Ooh, that wasn't what I expected, but I'll take it. I might also leave my first little journal entry here and go and do some of the things that I should be doing.
I'll most likely just waste a little more time doing something else though....