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GeekyLina

GeekyLina

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I have been thinking for a few days about the idea of creating my own journal to keep track of some thoughts, events and other stuff, perhaps even mention some things I am craving at the moment but not in the sense of trying to use to make requests, just as a way to get some of those things out of my mind and into written form.
I am not planning to have any type of nsfw pics here and if I do I will make sure they are in spoilers so people can check the thread without issues.

As a short introduction, my name is Carolina although everyone just calls me Lina, I am 28 and I am Portuguese, so please excuse me if I sometimes write things that don't make much sense in English as it is not my first language. The geeky part of my user name refers to my many hobbies which include (but are not limited to) reading, writing, playing computer games (never really had a console so I don't play those), building and painting miniatures from different settings and historical periods. I also like to build small dioramas, terrain and other things using what is essentially garbage and a few bits from my miniature kits. Despite my geeky nature and the fact that I am mostly introverted, I grew up on a farm so I am strong and I know how to use several kinds of tools (including axes :) ), so you better think twice before messing with this geeky woman.

I have always enjoyed reading and writing and I have often wondered if I would be able to write something that could get published one day, so I think that is in part where my desire to write long term roleplays with lots of plot comes from. I enjoy lots of different themes when reading and writing, although in many cases lately I have been thinking about post apocalyptic settings, probably in part because of the time I have spent over the last few years playing Fallout 4.

If you enjoy chatting about hobbies or something similar don't hesitate to send me a PM, I try not to bother people with details they don't want, but a nice chat/discussion is always nice even if there is no intention to roleplay anything in particular.

I haven't thought about making this journal a super regular thing, so it might be that I post every day for a week and then leave it untouched for several days, not yet sure as it will go.
 
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I have been thinking for some time about publishing my own stories in a book format one day, but one thing that I know would be quite hard to deal with is promotion.
I really don't have a strong presence in social media and as an introvert my group of close friends is super small, so I can't really expect things to get publicised through traditional social means or virtual ones.

Publishing nowadays is easier, especially in digital format, as there are several ways to get things out there, but in a sea of different offerings it would be hard to stand out, regardless of how good my stories are, so promotion would be a requirement for sure. Traditional publishing would take care of the promotion for me but managing to convince a publisher when they have been getting larger and turning into large conglomerations of publishers that used to be small and easier to deal with (at least in Portugal), with one single company currently holding over 50% of the publishing market in my country.

For now thinking is what I do throughout most of my days, since I have been unemployed for a few months and my hobbies don't manage to keep my mind occupied at all times (can we really call them hobbies if I don't have an actual job?), but for now I am trying to stay positive most times, trying to avoid daydreaming too much but at the same time avoid the doom and gloom that being unemployed can bring.

Only the future will tell how things might go.
 
Sometimes having ideas and finding someone to roleplay them with can be hard, which can happen for several reasons, including people just not being an adequate match in some way (it is perfectly fine for people to have different tastes and objectives in mind), people not really having the availability required to make it work (obviously real life takes precedence over roleplay so things happen) or simply because the same topic might mean different things to different people and while I would want to focus on x the person on the other side wants to focus on y.

Although it might seem that I am just complaining about other people, what I am thinking right now is whether or not sometimes I am too strict with my views on certain topics and that leads to issues finding partners for the different things I would like to roleplay. I am an introvert in real life so I suspect that does have its influence on how I interact with people in general, even here, so maybe I need to improve a bit on that and try to make sure I communicate things in a better way.

Well that was what I wanted to get out of my chest, hopefully a more pleasant entry coming soon.
 
Made a bit of a tough decision and decided to leave the open roleplay I was playing over the last couple weeks, as I didn't feel like I really belonged there (I mean both me and my character), but I think it was better to make that call now before things developed further and my character became somewhat important for the overall roleplay, which for the moment is not really the case.

I might try to do another group roleplay in the future, but I think for now I am satisfied with just 1 to 1 roleplays as that makes it easier overall to find common ground and make sure no one feels like they are the third wheel or like we say in Portuguese "Fazer de vela", which would translate to essentially being the candle on a date.

Despite the fact that I wasn't too much into how things turned out, I think overall it was a good to try something new, but for any future groups I would likely invest a bit more on knowing the individual people and what they had in mind before actually committing to it fully, but it is all a learning experience and I hope that I made no enemies in the process, as I tried to be as polite about it as I could.
 
Today I decided to write something a bit more positive :)
I have started some nice roleplays to replace some of my roleplay partners that simply stopped responding so hopefully I should keep myself busy :)

In other news, I am down to a box of miniatures to build so a few more evenings and I should have built all that there is to build, which should stop my painting queue to keep getting bigger (I have actually been painting more than I build so not entirely true, but you get the idea, it is a finish line that keeps moving away from you), so with the exception of some terrain or vehicles that I might build with what is essentially garbage, I should have to find new ways to occupy my evenings when I am not on the pc (painting in the evenings even in the summer is something I avoid, my eyesight is bad enough already, although I guess that is good for guys who like girls with glasses).
Since I am still trying to find a job I obviously won't be getting any boxes of miniatures soon, so I definitely need to find something to do, probably learn how to use water slide decals or actually work on basing my models, I am sure something will come up as I really hate being idle.
 
This week the weather is getting hotter again, so I expect things to get quite hard for me as I melt away, which is certainly a good excuse to avoid going outside throughout most of the day.
I am not sure if it is the fact that summer is approaching quickly and people have less interest in roleplay in general but in the past couple of weeks I have noticed an increase in ghosting, but luckily I have managed to keep some really nice roleplays going and replace most of the ghosts with active partners. I understand hobbies are never a priority compared to real life things, but I often feel like discarded garbage when people simply stop replying, always wondering if it was something I did, if real life got in the way or if they simply got bored.

I often try not to think too much about those things though, to avoid becoming depressed, I already have enough things going poorly in my life to worry about that kind of stuff.

In other news, I am thinking about making some mini bunkers with garbage and potentially impact craters on the ground around them as terrain for my miniatures, only time will tell how that will go.

You can see an example of the first attempt I made for that (without any impact craters) here:
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Small bunker with areas defended by sandbags

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This time of the year is always super hard for me due to the heat and this year the heat has started quite early indeed.
During the day the heat is hard enough to bear but when I feel worse is during the night, as it is hard to sleep when temperatures don't go below 20ºC even during the night.

One of the greatest issues is that I don't have AC so the heat just doesn't go away unless it is getting colder outside and the house gradually cools off due to that.
This causes some weird situations at night, especially since I had to move back in with my parents for financial reasons (being unemployed and paying rent would be a high risk even with savings), as I often feel like I would be cooler if I removed a piece of clothing, but I still need to be relatively covered since I am not home alone. So in essence I usually only have the chance to remove my pyjama shorts during the night and sleep with my pyjama top and panties to try to cope with the heat (I sleep without a bra so obviously removing my top would not be "proper"), but sometimes it is the upper part of my body that is warmer, so I often have to turn my pyjama top into something closer to a tube top, exposing my belly to help my body to cool off a bit.

I think I will eventually have to convince my parents to get some sort of AC before I melt down completely, but for now I must endure. At least in my mind I can go somewhere colder to escape the reality for a bit :)
 
Lately I have been playing Dawn of War: Dark Crusade again. It is quite a pleasant RTS especially with mods for extra factions and such, something that most recent games unfortunately don't support in the same manner (except a few that end up having a big modding community around them).

Warhammer 40k is certainly an interesting setting for roleplays, despite how it is meant to be a huge satire where everything is exaggerated, but so far that is not something that has come up for roleplay around here, maybe some day that will be the case (I know some people have such themes in their threads but I haven't found a plot/scene that would match my tastes).

Still struggling to deal with the heat, but at least there was some light rain this morning, so hopefully the weather will change a bit and things will become easier. For now I will continue to melt and dream of colder times, until this heat ends I will endure the temperature and drink lots of water.
 
I have continued to work on my small bunker dioramas in the evenings, so I have a few more ready to be painted, although the painting will likely only happen next week or the week afterwards (I am waiting to hear from a recruiter to know whether or not I might get an interview next week and if I do I likely won't come to the farm due to that, so lets wait and see).

I should share some pics of the WIP state over the weekend, in case someone is interested in seeing those, as the internet at the farm is a bit slow to take care of uploading that sort of stuff.

In terms of roleplay things are going ok, my regulars are doing a nice job and I have been chatting with some potential new roleplay partners to see if I get a few more to replace ghosts, only time will tell how that will go.
Overall I feel like this is the right place to look for long term roleplays like the ones I have been trying to do, but I guess like everything in life it is all about trial and error until things get sorted and become more stable.

One thing I do wonder though is whether I am writing this only to myself most days or if someone is actually reading with interest. I am mostly using it as a diary of sorts so lots of other people reading it is not necessarily something I was expecting to see, but since it is a public area of the forum, it is hard to know whether someone is actually checking them or even waiting for my next update here.
 
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