Lina's Journal

[GeekyLina]

I have been thinking for a few days about the idea of creating my own journal to keep track of some thoughts, events and other stuff, perhaps even mention some things I am craving at the moment but not in the sense of trying to use to make requests, just as a way to get some of those things out of my mind and into written form.
I am not planning to have any type of nsfw pics here and if I do I will make sure they are in spoilers so people can check the thread without issues.

As a short introduction, my name is Carolina although everyone just calls me Lina, I am 28 and I am Portuguese, so please excuse me if I sometimes write things that don't make some much sense in English as it is not my first language. The geeky part of my user name refers to my many hobbies which include (but are not limited to) reading, writing, playing computer games (never really had a console so I don't play those), building and painting miniatures from different settings and historical periods. I also like to build small dioramas, terrain and other things using what is essentially garbage and a few bits from my miniature kits. Despite my geeky nature and the fact that I am mostly introverted, I grew up on a farm so I am strong and I know how to use several kinds of tools (including axes ), so you better think twice before messing with this geeky woman.

I have always enjoyed reading and writing and I have often wondered if I would be able to write something that could get published one day, so I think that is in part where my desire to write long term roleplays with lots of plot comes from. I enjoy lots of different themes when reading and writing, although in many cases lately I have been thinking about post apocalyptic settings, probably in part because of the time I have spent over the last few years playing Fallout 4.

If you enjoy chatting about hobbies or something similar don't hesitate to send me a PM, I try not to bother people with details they don't want, but a nice chat/discussion is always nice even if there is no intention to roleplay anything in particular.

I haven't thought about making this journal a super regular thing, so it might be that I post every day for a week and then leave it untouched for several days, not yet sure as it will go.

 

[GeekyLina]

I have been thinking for some time about publishing my own stories in a book format one day, but one thing that I know would be quite hard to deal with is promotion.
I really don't have a strong presence in social media and as an introvert my group of close friends is super small, so I can't really expect things to get publicised through traditional social means or virtual ones.

Publishing nowadays is easier, especially in digital format, as there are several ways to get things out there, but in a sea of different offerings it would be hard to stand out, regardless of how good my stories are, so promotion would be a requirement for sure. Traditional publishing would take care of the promotion for me but managing to convince a publisher when they have been getting larger and turning into large conglomerations of publishers that used to be small and easier to deal with (at least in Portugal), with one single company currently holding over 50% of the publishing market in my country.

For now thinking is what I do throughout most of my days, since I have been unemployed for a few months and my hobbies don't manage to keep my mind occupied at all times (can we really call them hobbies if I don't have an actual job?), but for now I am trying to stay positive most times, trying to avoid daydreaming too much but at the same time avoid the doom and gloom that being unemployed can bring.

Only the future will tell how things might go.

 

[GeekyLina]

Sometimes having ideas and finding someone to roleplay them with can be hard, which can happen for several reasons, including people just not being an adequate match in some way (it is perfectly fine for people to have different tastes and objectives in mind), people not really having the availability required to make it work (obviously real life takes precedence over roleplay so things happen) or simply because the same topic might mean different things to different people and while I would want to focus on x the person on the other side wants to focus on y.

Although it might seem that I am just complaining about other people, what I am thinking right now is whether or not sometimes I am too strict with my views on certain topics and that leads to issues finding partners for the different things I would like to roleplay. I am an introvert in real life so I suspect that does have its influence on how I interact with people in general, even here, so maybe I need to improve a bit on that and try to make sure I communicate things in a better way.

Well that was what I wanted to get out of my chest, hopefully a more pleasant entry coming soon.

 

[GeekyLina]

Made a bit of a tough decision and decided to leave the open roleplay I was playing over the last couple weeks, as I didn't feel like I really belonged there (I mean both me and my character), but I think it was better to make that call now before things developed further and my character became somewhat important for the overall roleplay, which for the moment is not really the case.

I might try to do another group roleplay in the future, but I think for now I am satisfied with just 1 to 1 roleplays as that makes it easier overall to find common ground and make sure no one feels like they are the third wheel or like we say in Portuguese "Fazer de vela", which would translate to essentially being the candle on a date.

Despite the fact that I wasn't too much into how things turned out, I think overall it was a good to try something new, but for any future groups I would likely invest a bit more on knowing the individual people and what they had in mind before actually committing to it fully, but it is all a learning experience and I hope that I made no enemies in the process, as I tried to be as polite about it as I could.