-.☾ 𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 & 𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 ☾.- 🄽🅂🄵🅆

[Silver]

Sometimes there's so much a person wants to say but why make an effort when it falls on deaf ears? Will you always be overlooked? Will you always be considered the last option? Will you ever be good enough for anyone to give you a chance? Will you always be compared to someone else, the prettier one, the one who is everything that you'll never be, even on your best day? Effort and positivity can only get you so far, there are days when that's not enough and you are left to sit with all the unspoken feelings. Yet on some level, people already know; it's why it'll remain an endless cycle. It's why you'll always long to be enough in a sea of those who are everything and so much more.

 

[Silver]

I wish that I had someone to talk to... I feel so drained after last night. Depressed, Worthless. Is that all I am; a skin color? Is that all I am the butt of jokes? Being called the token black parent directly to my face and unable to react... 'You sound so well educated for someone such as yourself' I wish someone saw me for me. I feel small, so unwelcomed in every space... Other parents, people can be so cruel, so mean. I suppose they forget that children mirror our actions. I'm just... If I feel so empty then why are there so many tears? ​

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[Silver]

The past few days have revolved around; Tornados, Graduation & figuring out my new normal... I have so many conflicting emotions, thoughts, and feelings regarding the past few days. I don't know why I'm writing this... I should work on the things that I owe and be silent...​

 

[Silver]

Sometimes a person realize that they won't ever be accepted no matter what they do and there comes a time to make a choice; to stay where no one wants them or to move on and try finding another place; to try once more with hopefully better results or at least be seen if even for fleeting moment. Sure it might just be all in the person's head but one should never ignore what they feel or what's been observed... Currently, I feel that I'm at a crossroads and I'm fully aware of how I'm beginning to isolate myself. Maybe it's due to feeling creatively stunted in some ways, the fear of repeated rejection and mockery, the acceptance of not even bothering to try given past results, and experiences, or simply concluding that certain ideas I have will never be brought to life unless I undertake writing a solo story of my own that'll never be seen. [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos & JID] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far [Verse 1: JID] Uh, baby, come a little closer Come and hear my song, pretty sounds Sayin', sayin' that you love me Don't you lift my hopes, put it down Come on, come on, let me show you if it's real, I know Please, baby, don't you steal my show Take my heart, but don't you kill my soul (Say it loud) [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos & JID] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far [Verse 2: Sirens of Lesbos] Baby, I'm in another world I feel your song, pretty sounds Say, sayin' that you love me You're in my dreams and hopes, don't be down (Down) Can't keep believing that I'm real, I know Even though I never show You're in my heart, but I'm a flying soul [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far [Instrumental Break] [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far​

 

[Silver]

Sly and The Family Stone Sly Stone from Sly and The Family Stone died today at age 82. This group had such an impact on me as I grew up. I even got in trouble because of a song I was listening to by the group. (that was a fun day and a core memory) There are so many songs that I could post but I'll try to stick with just a few... I'm just really gutted and I can't even explain why properly...​ [Chorus] It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair [Verse 1] One child grows up to be Somebody that just loves to learn And another child grows up to be Somebody you'd just love to burn [Verse 2] Mom loves the both of them You see, it's in the blood Both kids are good to mom Blood's thicker than the mud [Chorus] It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair Over there, world gone bad [Verse 3] Newlywed a year ago But you're still checking each other out, hey Nobody wants to blow Nobody wants to be left out, uh-huh [Verse 4] You can't leave 'cause your heart is there But, sure, you can't stay 'cause you been somewhere else You can't cry 'cause you'll look broke down But you're cryin' anyway 'cause you're all broke down [Chorus] It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair Oh, hey, a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair It's a family affair (It's a family affair) It's a family affair Well It's a family affair It's a family affair​ [Verse 1] Sometimes I'm right and I can be wrong My own beliefs are in my song The butcher, the banker, the drummer and then Makes no difference what group I'm in [Chorus] I am everyday people, yeah, yeah [Verse 1] There is a blue one who can't accept the green one For living with a fat one, trying to be a skinny one Different strokes for different folks And so on and so on and scooby-dooby-dooby [Refrain] Ooh, sha-sha We got to live together (Ooh, sha-sha) [Verse 2] I am no better and neither are you We are the same, whatever we do You love me, you hate me, you know me and then You can't figure out the bag I'm in [Chorus] I am everyday people, yeah, yeah [Verse 3] There is a long hair that doesn't like the short hair For being such a rich one that will not help the poor one Different strokes for different folks And so on and so on and scooby-dooby-dooby [Refrain] Ooh, sha-sha We got to live together (Ooh, sha-sha) [Verse 4] There is a yellow one that won't accept the black one That won't accept the red one that won't accept the white one Different strokes for different folks And so on and so on and scooby-dooby-dooby [Chorus] Ooh, sha-sha I am everyday people (Ooh, sha-sha)​ [Verse 1] Lookin' at the devil, grinnin' at his gun Fingers start shakin', I begin to run Bullets start chasin', I begin to stop We begin to wrestle, I was on the top [Chorus] I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again Thank you for lettin' me be myself again [Verse 2] Stiff all in the collar, fluffy in the face Chit-chat chatter tryin', stuffy in the place Thank you for the party, but I could never stay Many things on my mind, words in the way [Chorus] I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again Thank you for lettin' me be myself again [Verse 3] Dance to the music all night long Everyday people sing a simple song Mama's so happy, mama start to cry Papa still singin', you can make it if you try [Chorus] I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again (Different strokes for different folks, yeah) Thank you for lettin' me be myself again [Verse 4] Flamin' eyes of people fear burnin' into you Many men are missin' much, hatin' what they do Youth and truth are makin' love, dig it for a starter Now, dyin' young is hard to take, sellin' out is harder [Chorus] Thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again Thank you for lettin' me be myself again Thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again Thank you for lettin' me be myself again Thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again I want to thank you for lettin' me be myself again​