-.☾ 𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 & 𝚃𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 ☾.- 🄽🅂🄵🅆

[Silver]

Sometimes there's so much a person wants to say but why make an effort when it falls on deaf ears? Will you always be overlooked? Will you always be considered the last option? Will you ever be good enough for anyone to give you a chance? Will you always be compared to someone else, the prettier one, the one who is everything that you'll never be, even on your best day? Effort and positivity can only get you so far, there are days when that's not enough and you are left to sit with all the unspoken feelings. Yet on some level, people already know; it's why it'll remain an endless cycle. It's why you'll always long to be enough in a sea of those who are everything and so much more.

 

[Silver]

I wish that I had someone to talk to... I feel so drained after last night. Depressed, Worthless. Is that all I am; a skin color? Is that all I am the butt of jokes? Being called the token black parent directly to my face and unable to react... 'You sound so well educated for someone such as yourself' I wish someone saw me for me. I feel small, so unwelcomed in every space... Other parents, people can be so cruel, so mean. I suppose they forget that children mirror our actions. I'm just... If I feel so empty then why are there so many tears? ​

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[Silver]

The past few days have revolved around; Tornados, Graduation & figuring out my new normal... I have so many conflicting emotions, thoughts, and feelings regarding the past few days. I don't know why I'm writing this... I should work on the things that I owe and be silent...​

 

[Silver]

Sometimes a person realize that they won't ever be accepted no matter what they do and there comes a time to make a choice; to stay where no one wants them or to move on and try finding another place; to try once more with hopefully better results or at least be seen if even for fleeting moment. Sure it might just be all in the person's head but one should never ignore what they feel or what's been observed... Currently, I feel that I'm at a crossroads and I'm fully aware of how I'm beginning to isolate myself. Maybe it's due to feeling creatively stunted in some ways, the fear of repeated rejection and mockery, the acceptance of not even bothering to try given past results, and experiences, or simply concluding that certain ideas I have will never be brought to life unless I undertake writing a solo story of my own that'll never be seen. [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos & JID] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far [Verse 1: JID] Uh, baby, come a little closer Come and hear my song, pretty sounds Sayin', sayin' that you love me Don't you lift my hopes, put it down Come on, come on, let me show you if it's real, I know Please, baby, don't you steal my show Take my heart, but don't you kill my soul (Say it loud) [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos & JID] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far [Verse 2: Sirens of Lesbos] Baby, I'm in another world I feel your song, pretty sounds Say, sayin' that you love me You're in my dreams and hopes, don't be down (Down) Can't keep believing that I'm real, I know Even though I never show You're in my heart, but I'm a flying soul [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far [Instrumental Break] [Chorus: Sirens of Lesbos] Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far Searched the stars tryna get back to you I never get down, I never get down Traveled far, tryna get back to you I never get far, I never get far​