From Gimmick Gamer To Gamer Girl (MsBloom x DarkDreamer9110)

[DarkDreamer9110]

Chloe nodded at Alice's comment about Theresa being a straight ally, and again at the comment about it being a shame. Then Alice remarked about Chloe likely not being the first "guy dressed as a girl" that Theresa had seen or served, and Chloe flinched. It didn't feel right to have Alice calling her a guy, even if Chloe had set herself up for that by describing herself as crossdressing.

After Theresa had departed again, Chloe spoke. "Yeah. She's hot. Too bad she's not into girls. Guess we're both shit outta luck with her." She said.

As she realized what she'd said, she paused, then shrugged. "You know what? I'm gonna stand by it. I'm not a guy." She said. "And I mean ... Like, at all. I don't feel right as Sid anymore. Ever. I ... I know it's only been like a week, but I already know I prefer being Chloe. I ... I'm not ready to come out fully just yet, because I want to get more comfortable doing things like publicly and stuff, and I don't know if I want to, uh, pursue anything more than social transitioning yet, but ... I really do think I'm transgender."

 

[MsBloom]

Alice nodded at Chloe's realisation. It did not come as a surprise to her, not after the talk they had had that afternoon when she first helped Sid transform. It might perhaps have begun as a fun challenge for Halloween but on some level Alice now suspected that it might have been more than that, perhaps an alibi for Sid to dress up for the first time, one he could dismiss as exactly that; a challenge for Halloween. At the same time she couldn't help but wonder if that had really been the first time Sid had worn feminine clothes. She could easily imagine him trying on his sister's clothes in secret, drawn to them by a force he might not actually have understood until now ... that he was not the boy he had been assigned to be at birth. It had been so obvious even back at the apartment when he arrived that he was Chloe, even when not presenting femme.

"I can help you with that," she said quite seriously.
"You are like, welcome to visit whenever you feel like it and allow yourself to be Chloe publicly in a place where no one really knows Sid," she added and smiled.
"I don't have that many friends outside of the internet but the ones I do are like cool with the whole LBTQ thing even if perhaps none of them are transpersons per se, but I do have a friend who is non-binary."
She paused and thought back to her previous train of thought from when Sid had transformed into Chloe less than an hour ago; that Chloe looked more girl than she did, and also ... somehow ... seemed to act more girl than Alice usually did.
"As for myself I have to admit I have never really thought about it but earlier when you had done your transformation I ... I dunno ... It sort of made me feel quite masculine even if I can't really say I feel male or anything like that. I don't have any issues with the bits I've got and I don't feel weird about having been assigned female but ... still ... y'know ..."
She paused again and smiled at Theresa when she showed up with their order. And then let her eyes linger at that sway when she walked away to start clearing a table at the other end of the small restaurant.

"How about I call up Aiko and ask if she wants to go out tonight, like to a club or something ... she's been curious about you ever since I agreed to help you with your challenge anyway. Just the three of us and you can ... I dunno ... test Chloe? in a social situation."

 

[DarkDreamer9110]

Anyone who had been watching the SidProQuo channel for any notable length of time would know that Sid had had a tendency to play as female characters, which he had often justified with a few different excuses. "I'd prefer to watch a character I'm attracted to as I play," "the female options just look better," and "hey, the girls are just absolute badasses" were some of his favourite justifications. And maybe Sid himself had believed those excuses. But in the past week, the truthfulness of those had been called into question. Had there been more to it? Some part of the girl inside expressing herself?

Chloe nodded as Alice extended the offer to let her come and be Chloe anytime. "Thank you. I could really use the help with that. Having a place to explore this ... It means a lot to me. I just ... I haven't dared leave my room as Chloe, let alone go out as her. I guess it's still a mix of shame and fear. But I'm working on unpacking that. My therapist knows about me, and she's gonna do some research and stuff to figure out how to help me best."

She nodded as Alice confessed to not feeling as feminine compared to Chloe. "That's interesting." She said.

At the suggestion of going to the club with Alice's friend, Chloe nodded. "I think that would be cool." She agreed.

 

[MsBloom]

Once lunch was over and the two young women had returned to the apartment Alice called up her friend Aiko and arranged for the three of them to go out that evening to Man Ray.
"Aiko is cool and you can basically tell her everything and anything and she will barely lift an eyebrow. I mean ... y'know ... but I'll leave it up to you how much to tell her. If you want to introduce yourself as just Chloe and say nothing about Sid she won't even look at you twice to hint at knowing you are not AFAB, and the same holds true if you decide to tell her the whole story."
Alice then went again to the closet and said that Chloe could basically choose whatever she wanted to wear to the club.

Aiko showed up at Alice's apartment about fifteen minutes later with a bag slung over her shoulder, a bottle of rather cheap wine and, as she didn't reveal until they were all sitting around in their underwear freshly showered and talking before getting dressed for clubbing, a joint which she lit, took a deep drag on and then passed to Chloe.

"I saw that Pixie Dust are playing at around ten so I'd like to get there no later than nine," Aiko informed the other two and glanced at Chloe to see if she had any idea what band she was talking about.

 

[DarkDreamer9110]

Chloe had nodded at Alice's comments about Aiko being okay with whatever Chloe decided to tell her. The freedom to decide how much she disclosed while knowing it wouldn't affect Aiko's view of her was a relief. And when the Asian woman arrived, Chloe had smiled and introduced herself with a simple "Hi, I'm Chloe."

The wine had been somewhat of a surprise, and the joint moreso. Chloe was a bit young to have much, if any, experience drinking alcohol, and too much of a goody two-shoes to have any with marijuana, but she was happy to partake if only for knowing that it might help her being more relaxed and less nervous with the coming evening out.

After nearly coughing up a lung from her first hit of the joint, she frowned at the mention of the band, or what she assumed to be a band. "Never heard of them. I, uh, don't have a lot of experience with music." She said. "But that sounds good. I'm happy to go ahead with whatever y'all decide." She said.

The effects of the drug were quite apparent fairly quickly, Chloe's head filling with a general happiness. "That's some good stuff. I think. I've never done it before."