Cat
did it hurt? when you fell down the stairs?
- Joined
- Jun 13, 2022
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in the dance of time, a swift decay, a tale of two, now fading away. once bound by laughter, shared and true, now whispers lost in the morning dew. a gentle gust, a leaf takes flight, an echo lingers, lost in the night. paths diverge, a silent parting, in the space between, a solemn hearting. conversations, once a flowing stream, now falter, caught in an elusive dream. laughter's resonance, a distant chime, fading like a vanishing rhyme. unseen grievances, shadows grow, the silent rift begins to show. in the tapestry of what once was, threads unravel, love withdraws. digital ties, a click away, unfollowed, gone, a modern sway. a virtual ghost in the pixelated mist, a presence lost, a connection dismissed. the pain, not just in absence stark, but in the erasure of the shared embark. inside jokes, now silent, still, places lose their magic, a faded thrill. swift as the setting sun's descent, in the present's darkness, a lament. a person, a memory, a silhouette, in the digital void, a lingering regret. yet, amid the echoes of what's undone, cherish the memories, each fleeting one. learn from the dance of love and strife, for change is the heartbeat of this fragile life. |
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a little thank you note for the void. the community has grown to over 10,000 members through consistent effort and care. since day one, i've been involved in ensuring its well-being and guiding its development as the owner. witnessing its growth is truly astounding, and i feel fortunate to play a role in its journey. as we continue on this path, i hope that our community will keep expanding and blossoming. each new member brings fresh perspectives and ideas, enriching our shared space. i'm excited to see what the future holds for us, and i'm committed to fostering an environment where everyone feels valued and supported. yeah, i'm gonna pat myself on the back for this. เดฆเตเดฆเดฟ ( แต แด แต ) |
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i saw this post that said "POV: you realize you've never gotten flowers from a boy because you lack the current feminine beauty". and i smiled at it for the first few seconds because i related to it. i've never gotten flowers, from anyone. maybe my mom when i was in the hospital... before i knew it, i was crying. not unconditionally, but to the point where my eyes were naturally stinging.
i think i'm completely unlovable. i don't mean this in a self-sabotaging way or "boo hoo, woe is me". the way that i was brought up, the trauma, the illness, and everything in between -- i don't think it's possible. it's a sad realization. i'm going to end up like my mom. alone or bound to someone who treats me like shit and uses me every day of my life. i'm too sensitive for this world. i try not to show it but everything hurts eventually. words, people, and places. how am i supposed to live with too much love? i'll grow and age but i don't think my mentality will change unless someone breaks me down. bit by bit. i've never done dating apps. i never will. i refuse to touch anything like that. i partially don't believe in 'naturally finding your soulmate' or whatever people fly by. i'm too strange and unflattering. i've often been told that i look upset, always. i'm not too fond of it. i don't smile often either. i hate my teeth and the way my mouth crinkles. i'm always tight-lipped and 'upset looking'. probably why nobody has ever taken a physical interest in me. besides all that though, it's not about my features. it's about my deeply integrated flaws. maybe i haven't met someone who will completely unbound what i've been through... i'd like to think that someone could love me. just not this lifetime. |
as the days grow shorter and the evenings begin to carry that first hint of chill, i find myself already nostalgic for sundress season. there's something magical about those warm, carefree days when slipping into a sundress feels like the most natural thing in the world. the light, airy fabric fluttering in the breeze, the way the sun kisses bare shoulders, and the freedom that comes with dressing so effortlesslyโall of it combines to make summer feel like a season of endless possibilities.
as the temperature begins to dip, i'll miss the ease and simplicity of throwing on a sundress and stepping out the door, feeling instantly put together. i'll miss the way the fabric flows and the way the dresses capture the spirit of summer. |