Whoa.
It's been quite a while since I've been on the site and the changes are vast and interesting.
Well, I guess a life-update is in order since I managed to get back on here.
Hubby and I have been married for just over two years now. That's pretty epic, I would say. October marks us being together for five years already. A lot has happened within the past few years. I know not many will be reading my journal much nowadays, but I guess something to talk about is that we are moving to the West Coast after months and months of going back and forth on the decision. We leave next week! I'm nervous as fuck but ya know, it doesn't seem so bad. Right now, looking at all our shit, it seems like there is just way too much stuff, but I think we'll get it all figured out.
We have two cats now, which is exciting and comedic. Ziggy passed away about three years ago now, I believe, and we just got our new kitty, Sugar, around October. She and Ratchet get along really well now but the first few weeks were a hiss-fest.
I still don't sleep well, which probably wouldn't shock anyone who knows/remembers me. Having excessive break-outs due to stress is a new thing to me and it's just making the anxiety way worse since that's just another thing to worry about on top of the million of other things that I have to think about.
Well, I guess a really new thing would be the fact that once we're settled, I'm gonna try and find a counselor. That shit is gonna be scary as fuuuck. I have so little courage when it comes to advocating for myself, but I'll support my friends all day long. It will be a struggle but hubby is right there with me and I know my friends all support me, too.
Getting back into writing has been a struggle. I get snippets of inspiration that I manage to write down but the rest just slip away. I will make myself sit down and write, I just don't know when. Maybe this trip/moving will allow me some time to just focus on what I really want out of life - my life. I still want to be an author- that hasn't changed- but now I also want to be a science librarian. I would have to go back to school, but I think if I can really focus on it, I can do it once we have a solid plan/are stable enough for me to go back to school. I hope that I can. I'm finding more and more dreams for myself as I grow up, which is funny to think, but I still have "growing up" to do. Maybe I'll never fully "grow up" but I mean, where would the fun be in being a full-blown grown up?
Anyway, I guess that's a life-update for the books! Maybe, I'll be back on here more often since I'll have the free time, but who knows? I'm really just procrastinating looking through our shit that I need to get rid of and this is a nice distraction.
But for now, I'm out.
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