He let her hit him as she struggled hysterically. He knew he deserved it, and let her do that. But when she broke down in heart rending sobs, he started feeling his own eyes water and immediately wiped it way hoping she didn't notice. He knew he was filth for what he did. He wished he could do something....anything to take away the pain.
"I didn't want to hurt you, I just....", it had to do with the fact that he had not had any relationship since he broke up with his fiance and was pent up with testosterone and anger, which suddenly aunleashed itself in explosive lust as he used her body for her own gratification.........................."nothing could possibly excuse what I did.....................I lost all control and just ......" he didn't know what to say. He feared desperately that he had shattered any faith or trust that she could have in other humans, and could not end this like that. He couldn't do that to her life. He had to somehow, show her that she could be happy with someone, and that not everybody was the asshole that he had just acted like.
He held her tightly, squeezing her and stroking her hair as she whimpered. It appeared at least that the heavy sobs were slowing down to sniffles.
He was dying inside....he wanted to just take this pain out of her, make her feel secure, and loved. She deserved that, instead of what she got from him.
"You deserve the best...........and I betrayed you,...and I hate myself for that fact. I just want somehow to...................I don't know but.........I need to make this better for you. You deserve better"