5th October, 2017
So this technically happened ....
Raises eyebrow as checks cell phone
Not that long ago. Stupid thing. I'll guess last week sometime, or close to a week ago.
Long story short, my mom dropped a bomb that I can't ignore. She's been advocating for me to get my license, help me get new glasses, and overall be nice because, apparently, her and dad are still going to try to move. They're gonna put the house up on the market [supposedly] by the first of 2018.
They think they hate Oregon?
News flash, ya dumb bitch; me and my husband do too. Don't get me wrong, there are some pros about living here. Great scenery and really fucking good minimum wage. But of all the places I've resided, this is by far one of the locations where I've been the most miserable. Houston and St. Paul - a bit more the latter - are where I have been by far the happiest.
All the same, we're trying to make our stay here work out.
Before we gave our daughter over and officially began to power-of-attorney exchange, I very perfectly remember one specific vow they made with raising our kid. They'd give her consistency that, at the time, we couldn't provide.
Sooo .... how is this moving bullshit gonna help do just that?
It is true that I almost never stayed in one school for more than 2-3 years. But they were at least in the same fucking city. I didn't move across state lines ever. Not before graduating high school, when my dad decided to change his career and where to live. Before then? No. I stayed in Houston, Texas.
And I know my parents didn't like it at some points in time.
Yet despite that, they stayed and raised me and my brother as best as they could. Particularly during the "loss of maternal grandparents plus legal/emotional bullshit from my aunt/mom's sister" life arc.
Now with my daughter being 11 years old and, as my mom has repeatedly said, in a very "independent phase", this is by far the stupidest thing they could even be trying to do. More so given there is no thought about her for their move. It's all about them.
You know what?
I hope the next few years become such a living hell for you that you remember your vow. You know, the one that said power-of-attorney isn't permanent? Just temporary? And that we've finally fulfilled our end of the deal. According to mom, we're not "worthy enough" to have her back despite finally obtaining stable housing. So I pray you have as much trouble raising her as you did me. Because the exact same mistakes are being made, some even worse.
You can't keep her away from technology. Not fucking forever. Yes, it can be dangerous. But so can actual people in real fucking life. Dipshits; you all know this. You've seen perfect examples of what you're afraid of happen to me. Even if mom's forgotten, I highly doubt dad has.
Unfortunately, he's also been severely pussy whipped by her somehow. Fuck if I know when this happened or even how. Much as I love him, I can't stand his wife. It's horrible .. but I sincerely regret convincing them not to divorce. Clearly, they should have. Because he deserves way better. I don't even know what he saw her in; though it's likely the old version. The mom who actually did her role as a parent. Because as she is?
That side of her is long dead, replaced by a cruel, manipulative bitch.
And as long as she's gonna stay that way ....
Well, I guess I gotta cut her out of my life. Again.
There was a time years ago where I refused to talk with her. I don't really wanna resort to that again, but I'm ready to. There's only so much of her verbal, mental, psychological, and emotional abuse I can handle. All the times I ask myself how I'm sane end up with me finding it more and more challenging to come up with answers.
Thus, while I still have the chance and ability, I'm gonna do what's best for me.
Where's this going, you're probably wondering?
Well ... since she only helped me for her own agenda, I'm gonna do everything on my own. Without her aid. Which means I'll be busy. And due to recent letters from the government hinting it's not worth staying on SSI for much longer, this includes looking for a job. I'm making way less, it's not even worth a chuckle. I could be making three or more times than what they're fucking giving me.
I'm done being screwed over by anyone --- well, in the not-so-good way, anyway. And only one person can do that in the best manner, my husband.
So any other methods, nope. I'm putting my goddamn foot boot down on.
As far as writing goes, I still have no idea when that'll happen again. But I do promise to keep in touch. If anyone has Skype and/or Discord, those are by far the easiest ways to get a hold of me at the moment. Those usernames can be found in my request threads.
Until next time,
-Athene
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