Harry woke in the morning slowly with a thick head and sticky eyes. His brain was fogged and is it slowly cleared and he became aware of his surroundings he was gripped by a sudden panic. A feeling of terror overwhelmed him. What had he done? He searched his memory, but all he could see was drink and Phoebe. But hadn't Monca been there? No. The wave of grief was like a wave of nausea. Monica was dead. He'd never see his beautiful wife again or share another intimate moment with her. The tears welled and then rolled, silently. He eased himself out of the bed, careful not to wake his daughter.
His daughter? As he stumbled to the bathroom he felt another stab of uncertainty. What had happened? What had he done? But he could not pull an image out of the blackness. He knew there was something wrong, something bad, but he just couldn't make it manifest itself in his head. He quickly stripped and stood under the powerful showerhead, letting the water pummel into his skull and his shoulders, cascading down his thick set body, still well-defined, despite his advancing years. The water started to work it's magic, waking up his head and his skin.
After 5 minutes he felt alive enough to wash and shampoo and start to let the water impact on all sides. It hurt and that was good. He needed something to kick him out of his malaise. He needed to get himself together and make a plan for life after..... Too much, too soon. He wanted a drink, but he knew that wasn't the answer. He wrapped a towel around himself, padded to the kitchen and turned on the coffee pot. He needed a vat of Columbia's best. He needed to get his head in order and he needed to remember what had happened the previous night before Phoebe woke in order to work out how much he needed to apologise.