A shift in power ( Kitten and I)

[iKitten]

When he shook his head in negativity, she nodded as if she knew the answer in the first place. â??Iâ??ll be honest to you, I hadnâ??t either, until I decided to roam the porn sites.â? she moved to grab for something to drink, before dishing things up and seating herself in her usual spot on the left end of the small dining table. Ling had known that Matt went on porno sites to find ideas for their sexual encounters, but she had never gone on it herself. Until recently, as she had wanted to try to spice up their sex life.

â??From what Iâ??ve learned, itsâ?¦ Itâ??s similar to the female taking on the aggression that the male usually takes in their sexual encounters.â? she explained, forking her rice as she stared at him. â??I found itâ?¦ arousing. So I bought a few toys, just to see what it looked like up close. I will admit that I had planned to eventually ask you about it, but I was honest when I said that I hadnâ??t meant for us to go so far so soon.â? as if she was lost, she reached out for his hand, just to feel their skins brush and heat mingle. â??Matt, I love you. If you donâ??t want to experiment, then we wonâ??t. Itâ??s something I find that Iâ??m enjoying, but it wonâ??t be permanent if we donâ??t want it to be, nor will it be all at once.â? Brushing her thumb against his hand, she waited for his response, keeping her expression open to whatever he wanted, and neutral to what she wanted. A relationship only worked if two people were opened with one another, and she was willing to put it all on the table for him to shuffle through.

 

[Zalvek]

Matt was silent as his eyes were focused on the plate. He was focusing on the food because he didn't want to be so direct with Ling, but he was still aware of when she stood up to get a drink and then returned. When she sat back down his eyes shifted up to give her a glance, but then quickly ducked back down towards the rice. When she told him how much this stuff excited her, he couldn't help but let out a sigh. It was a bit heavy and for a few more moments he was silent. It was indeed a lot to take in at once, and by the end of all of it he wasn't sure where to start.

He gave a deep breath before looking up at Ling firmly, despite all of his features still softly quivering with uneasiness. His lips parted, but he was silent for several more moments before he finally spoke up, "Ling I... You know I love you too. There's no denying that. But I just feel like there's not a lot I'm able to do to cope with what's happened. I'm not going to lie, I wasn't really comfortable with... well, anything we did today. I really would have liked it if we could have talked about this first. You know I'm always willing to listen to you, and with something especially like this, I think it would have helped..." For a moment he flinched when her hand gently pressed down on his. However it was involuntary and his hand slowly moved to clasp gently around hers. "If it's something you really do want to try Ling, I'm will to do it; but let's take it a step at a time slowly if we're going to."

 

[iKitten]

She remained quiet the entire time Matt spoke, not because she had to, but because this was important. Ling wasnâ??t exactly the traditional Asian girl, despite her being a first generation in a liberal nation. But she also understood that this wasnâ??t a status thing for her to remain quiet, as it was to listen and accept what her lover was saying. The complete idea of having a femdom relationship, as she had learned, meant that it rode on the same kind of trust that any power-game relationship did. If Matt didnâ??t trust her or wanted to be dominated on some level, then it wouldnâ??t work in her opinion.

After all, there was consent and the opportunity to say â??noâ??. Cohesion through emotions or physical (though unlikely from her) would not be consent in her eyes.

â??Iâ??m sorry we went so fast.â? she offered, gently brushing her thumb over his hand. Their shared point emitted a soft warmth that eased her mood. â??It is something Iâ??d like to try though, and I understand we must go slower. In a sense, the relationship is just switching whoâ??s the aggressor or initiator.â? Pressing the ends of her chopsticks against her lips, she tried to think of the best way to word and explain what she wanted to say. Large, almost innocent eyes gazed back to her boyfriend and she shrugged. â??Itâ??s likeâ?¦ switching our roles and offering the trust for it. My trust is that youâ??ll tell me with what youâ??re uncomfortable with and what pleases you â?? no matter how â??embarrassingâ?? you might think it is.â?

Ling tilted her head at that, silently asking him what his opinion on that was. Would he say yes to trying it? Would he confide in her about what pleases him â?? if something at all did â?? when he was to submit to his girlfriend?