Michael doesn’t want to leave Farrah alone. He wants to comfort her, hold her, and tell her it would all be okay. He also wants to kiss her, whisper that he loves her, and to have been her first. He tries to shake away these thoughts, but they prove too prevalent. How could he possibly help her right now if these were the thoughts going through his head? “I’ll… I’ll check on you tomorrow.” That’s all he’s able to bring himself to say before he leaves, unable to bring himself to so much as rest a hand on her back. He curses himself the whole way home. His father may have been the one to take her, but he did nothing to stop it. He was just as much to blame for it. He isn’t even able to sleep that night, tossing and turning in his bed before getting up and throwing his bible across the wall, just wanting something that he could punish for all this.
He goes about his business the next day as well as he can. There are no smiles on his face though, and he doesn’t greet anyone. When he first sees his father, he simply glares at the man before turning and walking away. He didn’t even want to look at the monster. As he walks down the road, Michael finds himself in front of the pleasure house. He hadn’t been paying attention, and isn’t completely sure why he was even there. His mind goes back to Farrah. Could that be it? Would it help him sate these horrid thoughts in his head? He shakes his head and walks away. No, that place would do him no good.
Seeing Farrah going into her house, Michael quickly follows, knocking on the door. It takes him a minute to realize he doesn’t have a reason to be there, and in fact, Farrah may not even want to see him. The door opens before he can leave though. “Um, hello… May I come inside?” He asks, his face feeling hot. “You look very beautiful today.” Michael says once he’s inside, and immediately kicks himself. Just because it was true didn’t mean he should have told her that! “Um, I hid you some books!” He says, desperate for a way to change the subject. He leads her to his old room, showing where he hid them. As she looks through the stack, he watches his half-sister closely. “How are you doing?” He finally asks, hoping the question wouldn’t offend her.
He goes about his business the next day as well as he can. There are no smiles on his face though, and he doesn’t greet anyone. When he first sees his father, he simply glares at the man before turning and walking away. He didn’t even want to look at the monster. As he walks down the road, Michael finds himself in front of the pleasure house. He hadn’t been paying attention, and isn’t completely sure why he was even there. His mind goes back to Farrah. Could that be it? Would it help him sate these horrid thoughts in his head? He shakes his head and walks away. No, that place would do him no good.
Seeing Farrah going into her house, Michael quickly follows, knocking on the door. It takes him a minute to realize he doesn’t have a reason to be there, and in fact, Farrah may not even want to see him. The door opens before he can leave though. “Um, hello… May I come inside?” He asks, his face feeling hot. “You look very beautiful today.” Michael says once he’s inside, and immediately kicks himself. Just because it was true didn’t mean he should have told her that! “Um, I hid you some books!” He says, desperate for a way to change the subject. He leads her to his old room, showing where he hid them. As she looks through the stack, he watches his half-sister closely. “How are you doing?” He finally asks, hoping the question wouldn’t offend her.