Thaedael
Star
- Joined
- Nov 4, 2013
- Location
- Montreal, Canada
"Ah-" she said, with a quick response, the fine lips of her mouth drawn into the shape of the sound. "But it is much more simple than that my lady." She took one last sip from the heavy crystal tumbler in her hand, the last of the Amasec doing nothing more than wetting her lips and palette, before placing it once more on the coaster, the crystal sounding with a light ring as she did so. "You see, I have always had a man in mind." With one hand, she pinched at the fabric of her uniform at her thigh, pulling it down towards her knee so that the material straightened out against her form, before allowing herself the luxury of crossing her leg over the knee opposite of it. She spoke with a glow on her face, her eyes much more lively than she had displayed for much of the evening, a rose colored tint appearing on the high set cheeks of her face. It was obvious she knew who she wanted, talking in such a way as two students might when concerning a crush on a boy.
"There is only one man I want. Originally, I had never wanted to have children. Never!" she said, moving both hands as she spoke fingers hanging loosely above her lap, palms towards the ceiling. "We were trained to die, I never had plans to live, let alone love. Now... everything has changed. With it, my views on children, and the man whom I want to father them" The silence hung in the air, only punctuated by the sounds of the clock in the room, and the rain on the windows.
"You see... I originally... I had a good mother, Clara..." It was the first time she had used Clara's name, and she kicked herself internally over doing it, the formality having dropped but for a second. She had lost her train of thought, but recovered, the pause only making the memory of her mother sound all that more dramatic. "I had a good mother. A saint of a mother even. She took care of me in a place where no once could. Where no one should have to raise a child. She taught me to read..." She paused, realizing that this had been the first time she had even thought of her mother in a long time, her face drawn into a thoughtful sadness. How long had it been... since she had thought about her?
"I decided that I never wanted to bring a child into this world. Not under those conditions. Not like that. Then... before I knew it..." She paused again, trying to tell the story in a way that made sense. Her mind reeled at the history that had led up to this point. "I was a kid when I entered the school, and an adult when I came out. My life had passed me by before I had even known it. I was a soldier. I was a veteran. I was a survivor. Now? Now I am free."
She simply smiled, sure that her gibbering story made little sense at all to Clara, her incoherent story saying too many things at once, while saying nothing at all. "Now? I have the chance at a life. A chance to share a drink with a lady as fine as yourself. A chance at love, at children, at owning a house, at eating food. I want it all Clara, I want the world in my hands. What better thing to crave, then all that which we were trained to ignore?" She smiled.
"I want Ilya Garin. I want to teach him how to smile again. I want him to be able to laugh. I want..." she stopped herself, realizing that all she did was talk, dominating the whole conversation up to this point, from when they entered the drawing room. "I want to be wanted, and needed, beyond just my abilities to keep people from dying."
Her enthusiasm had taken a turn into darker territory once more. She straightened out her leg, gaining purchase on the marble floor once more, before rising to her full height again, standing. She was in the mind to dismiss herself from the noble, knowing full well that they did not want to pay heed to things that were not interesting or things that were depressing. She reached down picking up the tumbler, intent on getting one more refill, before the sound of the Seneschal came booming through the room, the windows rattling in their frame. She could hear it coming from what sounded like the western wall. She moved towards where the sound originated from, moving towards a window sill that overlooked the western facade.
It was her eyes. If he was only allowed one image to be burned into his mind as clear as the sun on a blue sky, it would be her eyes. Not the images of death, not the day he lost his arm, not the children that looked in terror upon him. Her eyes. They were as blue as the ocean that surrounded them even as they shared this tender moment. They were as deep as the intelligence and personality behind them. They locked onto his, and were not afraid, staring him right in the face as he had moved to kiss her. She knew, her eyes told him everything there was to know, that she knew he was leaning in for a kiss. She embraced it, her body stiffening as he moved, preparing for the breath he would steal away from her.
Her eyes went wide, despite having accepted the kiss, her head moving slightly back, but he did not allow her to break it, leaning further into the kiss. He could tell that her mind had reeled at the impact of his kiss, a moments hesitation, before she had pressed against him, her mind made up. The way he held her chin, the way he had drawn her in, she compensated, moving in closer, her bust pressing against him, the taut nipples rubbing through silken fabric against him.
A pause, a singular moment, a heart that refused to beat. It was as if his world had stopped, as if his consciousness had reached a moment of singularity, before the sounds of the rain came crashing back into his mind, the sensation of touch rushing to his lips as they touched the cool air. It was Elizabeth that had broken away first, leaving him wanting, leaving him guessing as to whether she approved or not.
She had smiled. Her now bare lips curling into a smile, their natural colors coming through the remnants of her lipstick, a small dab of the artificial color left on his own. She let out a giggle, a cute one that sent the essence of his being free, his heart regaining tempo, the beating redoubling it's efforts in his rib-cage. It was Elizabeth that came back for more, a series of quick pecks, each one bolder than the last, her eyes drawing his own into them. She eyed him expectantly, trying to get a feel for his emotions, his reactions. The corners of his eyes narrowed, his face abeam in a smile despite the repeated gestures.
Her hand ran up the line of his stomach, tracing along the edges and scars of his muscles, stopping atop his chest, pulling into her hand the very fabric that clad him. She looked up at him longingly, breathing his name so much as speaking it.
"Ilya..." It was all she could say. It was all she would say. Everything she had felt, she translated into passion, into a singular feeling, transmitted by nothing more than a kiss, a kiss that had stolen his breath away, a kiss from an angel. He closed his eyes, losing himself in the warmth of her kiss, his mind accepting her feelings. It was her hopes, her fears, her aspirations for more, that familiarity of understanding something. It was all they had been, all they had pretended to be. It was Elizabeth. Nothing else mattered. he brought the hand from her chin, tracing up the side to just below her ear, before dragging it gently across her hair, shifting it between the flesh of his real hand. His other hand, less bold, did nothing more than pull her against him fully.
Love. It was that moment alone that he felt love. A romantic love, and not one of kinship. It was the perfect moment.
“Elizabeth! Come inside at once girl!”
Correction. It had been the perfect moment, the sound of the Seneschal alerting everyone in the spire as to their dealings. He pulled away from her kiss, a look of sadness on his face. Reality had stolen this moment from them, reality had came crashing down.
They were no longer man and woman, they were no longer two naked souls. The woman before him, the one that had bared her soul to him, was no more. She was Elizabeth Rayna, Noble, Daughter to the Rayna household, last child left unwed of the Governor's family. The future of the planet. He was no longer the damaged individual that had given much in the name of the Emperor, in the name of this planet. He was Ilya Garin, Hero of the Imperium, Hero of Vorlancia. Furthermore. It was no longer just a kiss, a romantic escape from their realities. It was now everyone's business. What he decided to do now, would have repercussions, every action having a consequence.
Against better judgement, he leaned in once more, not allowing her to hesitate one moment, his lips against hers.
Every action, a consequence. One cannot see every strand of fate, nor where each story is woven into the collective tapestry, or when strands fray away from one another. The decision made, the rest? Mere consequence. From her hand the tumbler slipped, the crystal piece tumbling slowly, rotating along its central axis. Each fine cut of the crystal, rainbow fractals glistening along distinct edges. Everything slowed down, individual rain drops hitting the glass window before her, streaks running down the material. The glass hit the ground, the sound of a soul crushing shattering of dreams, fragments falling into disarray. She wanted to hit the window, to scream against the scene. It did not matter. "I excuse myself" she managed to say, before walking over the crystal tumbler that had fragmented, uncaring that a piece of it had punctured clear through the bridge of her soles, crimson droplets left in her wake as she ducked out the double doors opposite to those they entered.
"There is only one man I want. Originally, I had never wanted to have children. Never!" she said, moving both hands as she spoke fingers hanging loosely above her lap, palms towards the ceiling. "We were trained to die, I never had plans to live, let alone love. Now... everything has changed. With it, my views on children, and the man whom I want to father them" The silence hung in the air, only punctuated by the sounds of the clock in the room, and the rain on the windows.
"You see... I originally... I had a good mother, Clara..." It was the first time she had used Clara's name, and she kicked herself internally over doing it, the formality having dropped but for a second. She had lost her train of thought, but recovered, the pause only making the memory of her mother sound all that more dramatic. "I had a good mother. A saint of a mother even. She took care of me in a place where no once could. Where no one should have to raise a child. She taught me to read..." She paused, realizing that this had been the first time she had even thought of her mother in a long time, her face drawn into a thoughtful sadness. How long had it been... since she had thought about her?
"I decided that I never wanted to bring a child into this world. Not under those conditions. Not like that. Then... before I knew it..." She paused again, trying to tell the story in a way that made sense. Her mind reeled at the history that had led up to this point. "I was a kid when I entered the school, and an adult when I came out. My life had passed me by before I had even known it. I was a soldier. I was a veteran. I was a survivor. Now? Now I am free."
She simply smiled, sure that her gibbering story made little sense at all to Clara, her incoherent story saying too many things at once, while saying nothing at all. "Now? I have the chance at a life. A chance to share a drink with a lady as fine as yourself. A chance at love, at children, at owning a house, at eating food. I want it all Clara, I want the world in my hands. What better thing to crave, then all that which we were trained to ignore?" She smiled.
"I want Ilya Garin. I want to teach him how to smile again. I want him to be able to laugh. I want..." she stopped herself, realizing that all she did was talk, dominating the whole conversation up to this point, from when they entered the drawing room. "I want to be wanted, and needed, beyond just my abilities to keep people from dying."
Her enthusiasm had taken a turn into darker territory once more. She straightened out her leg, gaining purchase on the marble floor once more, before rising to her full height again, standing. She was in the mind to dismiss herself from the noble, knowing full well that they did not want to pay heed to things that were not interesting or things that were depressing. She reached down picking up the tumbler, intent on getting one more refill, before the sound of the Seneschal came booming through the room, the windows rattling in their frame. She could hear it coming from what sounded like the western wall. She moved towards where the sound originated from, moving towards a window sill that overlooked the western facade.
It was her eyes. If he was only allowed one image to be burned into his mind as clear as the sun on a blue sky, it would be her eyes. Not the images of death, not the day he lost his arm, not the children that looked in terror upon him. Her eyes. They were as blue as the ocean that surrounded them even as they shared this tender moment. They were as deep as the intelligence and personality behind them. They locked onto his, and were not afraid, staring him right in the face as he had moved to kiss her. She knew, her eyes told him everything there was to know, that she knew he was leaning in for a kiss. She embraced it, her body stiffening as he moved, preparing for the breath he would steal away from her.
Her eyes went wide, despite having accepted the kiss, her head moving slightly back, but he did not allow her to break it, leaning further into the kiss. He could tell that her mind had reeled at the impact of his kiss, a moments hesitation, before she had pressed against him, her mind made up. The way he held her chin, the way he had drawn her in, she compensated, moving in closer, her bust pressing against him, the taut nipples rubbing through silken fabric against him.
A pause, a singular moment, a heart that refused to beat. It was as if his world had stopped, as if his consciousness had reached a moment of singularity, before the sounds of the rain came crashing back into his mind, the sensation of touch rushing to his lips as they touched the cool air. It was Elizabeth that had broken away first, leaving him wanting, leaving him guessing as to whether she approved or not.
She had smiled. Her now bare lips curling into a smile, their natural colors coming through the remnants of her lipstick, a small dab of the artificial color left on his own. She let out a giggle, a cute one that sent the essence of his being free, his heart regaining tempo, the beating redoubling it's efforts in his rib-cage. It was Elizabeth that came back for more, a series of quick pecks, each one bolder than the last, her eyes drawing his own into them. She eyed him expectantly, trying to get a feel for his emotions, his reactions. The corners of his eyes narrowed, his face abeam in a smile despite the repeated gestures.
Her hand ran up the line of his stomach, tracing along the edges and scars of his muscles, stopping atop his chest, pulling into her hand the very fabric that clad him. She looked up at him longingly, breathing his name so much as speaking it.
"Ilya..." It was all she could say. It was all she would say. Everything she had felt, she translated into passion, into a singular feeling, transmitted by nothing more than a kiss, a kiss that had stolen his breath away, a kiss from an angel. He closed his eyes, losing himself in the warmth of her kiss, his mind accepting her feelings. It was her hopes, her fears, her aspirations for more, that familiarity of understanding something. It was all they had been, all they had pretended to be. It was Elizabeth. Nothing else mattered. he brought the hand from her chin, tracing up the side to just below her ear, before dragging it gently across her hair, shifting it between the flesh of his real hand. His other hand, less bold, did nothing more than pull her against him fully.
Love. It was that moment alone that he felt love. A romantic love, and not one of kinship. It was the perfect moment.
“Elizabeth! Come inside at once girl!”
Correction. It had been the perfect moment, the sound of the Seneschal alerting everyone in the spire as to their dealings. He pulled away from her kiss, a look of sadness on his face. Reality had stolen this moment from them, reality had came crashing down.
They were no longer man and woman, they were no longer two naked souls. The woman before him, the one that had bared her soul to him, was no more. She was Elizabeth Rayna, Noble, Daughter to the Rayna household, last child left unwed of the Governor's family. The future of the planet. He was no longer the damaged individual that had given much in the name of the Emperor, in the name of this planet. He was Ilya Garin, Hero of the Imperium, Hero of Vorlancia. Furthermore. It was no longer just a kiss, a romantic escape from their realities. It was now everyone's business. What he decided to do now, would have repercussions, every action having a consequence.
Against better judgement, he leaned in once more, not allowing her to hesitate one moment, his lips against hers.
Every action, a consequence. One cannot see every strand of fate, nor where each story is woven into the collective tapestry, or when strands fray away from one another. The decision made, the rest? Mere consequence. From her hand the tumbler slipped, the crystal piece tumbling slowly, rotating along its central axis. Each fine cut of the crystal, rainbow fractals glistening along distinct edges. Everything slowed down, individual rain drops hitting the glass window before her, streaks running down the material. The glass hit the ground, the sound of a soul crushing shattering of dreams, fragments falling into disarray. She wanted to hit the window, to scream against the scene. It did not matter. "I excuse myself" she managed to say, before walking over the crystal tumbler that had fragmented, uncaring that a piece of it had punctured clear through the bridge of her soles, crimson droplets left in her wake as she ducked out the double doors opposite to those they entered.