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It all happened to fast. Much too fast. Brown orbs blinked, glazing off into the darkness of the halls, only the flickering lights of torches keeping the shadows at bay. She wanted to move but her body refused to do so. Wanting to break the spell of stillness that was bent over her limbs, she opened her mouth finding no hushed words would escape. The pink of her tongue slide over her trembling bottom lip, a whisper finally pulling through.
"Agatha will be the queen of these lands. It's already been decided from her birth." Her voice was feeble and unsure, the dragon's prophesy still bedeviled her thoughts. Aretha had a cloud of gloom overhead, taunting to be turned into a storm. She wasn’t ready to go back to her room. She indeed wasn't ready to think of the future. No, she was much too antsy to even think of resting like she had originally planned. So instead she paced. Her light footed slippers pulsing against the dull colored floors of the outer room. Every step was a steady heartbeat but grew into a pounding race as she barred herself into thought.
"Why would he even dare say that?"
She veered in her path going to open the door where her mother and father lay behind. But she paused. Could she handle seeing her mother weak and so vulnerable? And what of the man she called father? The one that used to hurl her up in the air and catch her as a child. The one that still seemed so strong and now was a torn pillar fallen from it's place. And as that pillar cracked and tumbled, so would the kingdom. Her hand wavered over the golden encrusted handle, scared to touch it as if it held the plague. A drop of sweat rolled down her neck, the bile of fear stabbing into her emotions.
She opened the door.
Aretha found herself staring at the face of a strange woman who was in a deep slumber, with sunken eyes rimmed with dark circles. There was a awkward moment when she could not speak, and the king still holing Nila's hand did not seem to have heard the the opening and closing of the door. But the king looked up, such sad eyes that looked of a dying man. She bit her lip to stifle a cry of anguish and then recovered herself and forced a smile. "Father, how is mother?" Patis smiled back, a weak smile, but a smile all the same. Gently, he placed his queen's hand on the bed and slowly offered his hand to his daughter. Aretha took it without hesitation and could not help but notice how powerless the king's grip had become, and how cold the feel of his hand.
"My daughter, my dear little girl. How your mother and I must have worried you all so. She shall be fine, or so I am told." Patis gazed at his daughter, his eyes seemed to burn with a dull, feverish light. And both looked down at the fallen woman, who groaned in her sleep. Her flesh had taken on a waxen pallor, lips cracked and raw as she twisted in fever, and her hair - the same hair that Aretha had - that crowning glory of rich, chestnut curls - hung limp and lifeless. Aretha even noted that some strands were becoming gray in her age. "Oh mother, how did I never see this? We took you as all to strong and your endured through the stress. I'm so sorry..."
Patis looked from his wife to his daughter, and spoke. "You bear the resemblance of your mother in so many ways." His eyes clouded over and he pulled the trembling girl into a hug. "I used to hate you before you were born. The queen was always sick and in pain during her pregnancy with you, some even told me she would die. And I hated you for trying to take away my wife's place in the world."
Aretha choked out a sob, her heart hammering against her chest and her vision was blurred in unspilled tears. She tired to pull away but her father kept her there, refusing for her to run away from an unspoken truth. "And then I loved you when you were born. So quiet, so still, so peaceful. You didn't cry just as you decline from tears now. No matter how hard the doctor spanked you, you just stayed quiet. You did open your mouth to scream but no sound came out." She shook her head, not wanting to listen to the king. He wasn't suppose to be like this! He was suppose to be strong!
"Then we found out you were mute. You laughed but didn't laugh. You cried but didn't cry. You screamed but never screamed. We thought you would be left behind all the others, because the kingdom didn't need a mute princess. A princess who couldn't speak. Our counselors told us to get rid of you, give you to a duke and duchess who couldn't have children of their own. But your mother and I were so desperate, to keep you and we searched out a wizard. A man of evil power and cruel reputations. But we didn't care. He gave you your voice but in return we lost something valuable... you lost something valuable. And now that I can't hear your mother speak, I beg of you Aretha don't allow yourself to be silent. You paid too great a price to be so..."
The king lowered himself slowly into a chair, next to the bed and Aretha sunk to the floor. Her brown eyes gazed up at the ceiling, now that she had slide down onto the floor. Why did she suddenly crave death? Why couldn't he tell her what she lost so long ago? "Why?", she spoke, the cold tears in her eyes refusing to fall. "Because you're not allowed to have it back. I was the problem and my sin was held against you." Patis looked away, shame befalling his tottering expression. Aretha wanted to dash from the room, to remove herself far away from the creature who sat infront of her and who wore the king's crown.
Patis gazed down into the young woman's eyes with a look of inexpressible tenderness, a fatherly compassion that Aretha had never seen before suddenly flowered. She was strangely moved and forgot for a moment the horror of the king's ramblings. "Surely, my lord is mistaken. You have not wronged me and I will prove so in time." She gathered herself and stood up, determined not to be pitied. "I am a princess of this land, not a mistaken sacrifice of love." She drew in a deep, weary breath and spoke softly and distinctly. "I will be my people's voice if ever their cries are unheard."
She walked to where her father sat, and kissed him on his head doing the same to her mother. "I will make sure your children get you prepared for bed, father." The king chuckled, and patted his daughter's head. "That's my brave girl." Aretha bid her goodbyes and left. By the time she was checking on her siblings and the jobs they had to complete, nightfall had already lowered it's somber face upon the castle. From a window, overhead, a raven surveyed a silent landscape as its black wings feathered the crisp, thin air. The bird's rasping call was the only sound to be heard for miles, breaking the frozen solitude in irregular staccato. All around, the land readied itself to sleep in the cool depths of night. Every bear, every fox, hare, and squirrel was warm in it's rustic nest. Cattle and horses stood contented in their stalls, heads drooping in slumber or quietly munching on what was left of the hay from the previous day.
Aretha stopped by the window, searching the city below. Her eyes lifted to glanced towards the country ahead, and the thin streams of smoke drifted from peasant huts into the windless sky from chimneys, sent aloft from fire that began to rise. Yet, she found no pleasure in the simplistic view. Still haunted by the tales she was told of her birth and misfortune. She blew a breath, and walked down the dimly lite hallways.
"Agatha will be the queen of these lands. It's already been decided from her birth." Her voice was feeble and unsure, the dragon's prophesy still bedeviled her thoughts. Aretha had a cloud of gloom overhead, taunting to be turned into a storm. She wasn’t ready to go back to her room. She indeed wasn't ready to think of the future. No, she was much too antsy to even think of resting like she had originally planned. So instead she paced. Her light footed slippers pulsing against the dull colored floors of the outer room. Every step was a steady heartbeat but grew into a pounding race as she barred herself into thought.
"Why would he even dare say that?"
She veered in her path going to open the door where her mother and father lay behind. But she paused. Could she handle seeing her mother weak and so vulnerable? And what of the man she called father? The one that used to hurl her up in the air and catch her as a child. The one that still seemed so strong and now was a torn pillar fallen from it's place. And as that pillar cracked and tumbled, so would the kingdom. Her hand wavered over the golden encrusted handle, scared to touch it as if it held the plague. A drop of sweat rolled down her neck, the bile of fear stabbing into her emotions.
She opened the door.
Aretha found herself staring at the face of a strange woman who was in a deep slumber, with sunken eyes rimmed with dark circles. There was a awkward moment when she could not speak, and the king still holing Nila's hand did not seem to have heard the the opening and closing of the door. But the king looked up, such sad eyes that looked of a dying man. She bit her lip to stifle a cry of anguish and then recovered herself and forced a smile. "Father, how is mother?" Patis smiled back, a weak smile, but a smile all the same. Gently, he placed his queen's hand on the bed and slowly offered his hand to his daughter. Aretha took it without hesitation and could not help but notice how powerless the king's grip had become, and how cold the feel of his hand.
"My daughter, my dear little girl. How your mother and I must have worried you all so. She shall be fine, or so I am told." Patis gazed at his daughter, his eyes seemed to burn with a dull, feverish light. And both looked down at the fallen woman, who groaned in her sleep. Her flesh had taken on a waxen pallor, lips cracked and raw as she twisted in fever, and her hair - the same hair that Aretha had - that crowning glory of rich, chestnut curls - hung limp and lifeless. Aretha even noted that some strands were becoming gray in her age. "Oh mother, how did I never see this? We took you as all to strong and your endured through the stress. I'm so sorry..."
Patis looked from his wife to his daughter, and spoke. "You bear the resemblance of your mother in so many ways." His eyes clouded over and he pulled the trembling girl into a hug. "I used to hate you before you were born. The queen was always sick and in pain during her pregnancy with you, some even told me she would die. And I hated you for trying to take away my wife's place in the world."
Aretha choked out a sob, her heart hammering against her chest and her vision was blurred in unspilled tears. She tired to pull away but her father kept her there, refusing for her to run away from an unspoken truth. "And then I loved you when you were born. So quiet, so still, so peaceful. You didn't cry just as you decline from tears now. No matter how hard the doctor spanked you, you just stayed quiet. You did open your mouth to scream but no sound came out." She shook her head, not wanting to listen to the king. He wasn't suppose to be like this! He was suppose to be strong!
"Then we found out you were mute. You laughed but didn't laugh. You cried but didn't cry. You screamed but never screamed. We thought you would be left behind all the others, because the kingdom didn't need a mute princess. A princess who couldn't speak. Our counselors told us to get rid of you, give you to a duke and duchess who couldn't have children of their own. But your mother and I were so desperate, to keep you and we searched out a wizard. A man of evil power and cruel reputations. But we didn't care. He gave you your voice but in return we lost something valuable... you lost something valuable. And now that I can't hear your mother speak, I beg of you Aretha don't allow yourself to be silent. You paid too great a price to be so..."
The king lowered himself slowly into a chair, next to the bed and Aretha sunk to the floor. Her brown eyes gazed up at the ceiling, now that she had slide down onto the floor. Why did she suddenly crave death? Why couldn't he tell her what she lost so long ago? "Why?", she spoke, the cold tears in her eyes refusing to fall. "Because you're not allowed to have it back. I was the problem and my sin was held against you." Patis looked away, shame befalling his tottering expression. Aretha wanted to dash from the room, to remove herself far away from the creature who sat infront of her and who wore the king's crown.
Patis gazed down into the young woman's eyes with a look of inexpressible tenderness, a fatherly compassion that Aretha had never seen before suddenly flowered. She was strangely moved and forgot for a moment the horror of the king's ramblings. "Surely, my lord is mistaken. You have not wronged me and I will prove so in time." She gathered herself and stood up, determined not to be pitied. "I am a princess of this land, not a mistaken sacrifice of love." She drew in a deep, weary breath and spoke softly and distinctly. "I will be my people's voice if ever their cries are unheard."
She walked to where her father sat, and kissed him on his head doing the same to her mother. "I will make sure your children get you prepared for bed, father." The king chuckled, and patted his daughter's head. "That's my brave girl." Aretha bid her goodbyes and left. By the time she was checking on her siblings and the jobs they had to complete, nightfall had already lowered it's somber face upon the castle. From a window, overhead, a raven surveyed a silent landscape as its black wings feathered the crisp, thin air. The bird's rasping call was the only sound to be heard for miles, breaking the frozen solitude in irregular staccato. All around, the land readied itself to sleep in the cool depths of night. Every bear, every fox, hare, and squirrel was warm in it's rustic nest. Cattle and horses stood contented in their stalls, heads drooping in slumber or quietly munching on what was left of the hay from the previous day.
Aretha stopped by the window, searching the city below. Her eyes lifted to glanced towards the country ahead, and the thin streams of smoke drifted from peasant huts into the windless sky from chimneys, sent aloft from fire that began to rise. Yet, she found no pleasure in the simplistic view. Still haunted by the tales she was told of her birth and misfortune. She blew a breath, and walked down the dimly lite hallways.