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Shimmy Shimmy. (Everyday musings...witty banter always welcome)

I'm sorry to hear about your Grandma, Mail. It's hard to see those close to you in pain, but just knowing you're there for moral support will help ease things a little. I'm sure you'll go on to make your grandparents proud.
 
It is official. I can’t really move my body. I can’t even flex my butt. Every inch of me is so sore, just sitting down is taxing my muscles hurt :[

Me and my friend have made a pledge. Using Jillian Michael’s work out DVD, we’re going to work out everyday except for one day of the week. She wants to get fit again and I want to look nummy for myself and for when I see my boyfriend next summer.

Jillian Michaels is a slave driver. It doesn’t seem like it would be so intense but it is and it hurts so much. I have worked muscles I have never worked before or haven’t worked since I was in color guard in middle school and high school. But it will be worth it. I can see it in my head of how I want to look and I know I can do it.

Just…I hurt :[
 
You can do it, Mali! I know you can. And you will, XD

Just think, you can't be any sorer than you are now, so it only gets better from here!

Need a massage?

 
Malicious Lullaby said:
I am hoping. Each time I stand up, I feel like I am going to fall xP My legs, my thighs especially, feel that much like jelly lol.

So it hurts to sit down, but you can't stand up either!

It may take a day or two to get over it. Go a little easier next time, and give your muscles time to recover so that it doesn't feel like a burden/too painful to continue, and it'll soon become second nature.
 
Yes, exactly xP And if I sit too long, my muscles constrict tighter so it makes it even more painful to stand ><

My friend said it’ll be like this for a few weeks. But I believe it. Especially since we’ll keep on going while we’re both still so sore.
 
I took a day off from my work outs yesterday. I surprised myself by actually getting into it today. I think it helps having my friend asking if I worked out or not. And I know if I lie to her and say I did when I didn’t, I’d end up just hating on myself for lying to her in the first place. I told her I would work out after my guy went to bed, which is 8 my time. Well 8 PM comes and I haven’t worked out yet because I’m such a major procrastinator. After nine, she texts me asking how my work out went and naturally of course, I lie. So what do I do?

I go work out because I know I was going to hate myself in the morning more than I hate myself when I over eat because I lied. But I did it and I feel good. I feel even better that I can do the leg lifts better and the squats and dead lifts. Lunges though…they’re a fickle bitch. But the alternating side lunges, not so much of a fickle bitch. Push ups… I’m such a cow I have to put my knees down just so I don’t feel like several veins are going to burst in my face from holding my body up. I feel like I’m in gym class again. Only…no one is watching me so I can feel less embarrassed in the privacy of my own room.

So now, I didn’t lie. If anything, that lie fueled and pushed me to actually do it especially since I didn’t think I actually would. She says that it will really help and if I stick to it, eat well and stay active for the most part, I will see results. I really hope so. My legs still look chunky but if I can do the leg lifts a lot better than I could when I first started, hopefully it is actually working. Building muscle.

Jillian Michaels says it’s ‘getting leaner and then getting smaller.’ So long as my fat does not turn into permanent muscle, then it’s all good. I do not want to be this size for life! I am gunning for maybe eight sizes smaller. Maybe even just six sizes smaller.

I want to be comfortable naked. Okay, that might be TMI but even when I just look at myself in the mirror and I am all by myself, like about to go into a shower, I see what I look like and I want to go vomit. I want to look like the girls in the Lane Bryant ads. Now those girls are gorgeous. Not the girls on Vogue, Vanity Fair or all the other stupid magazines that showcase fake women. (Yeah believe it or not, zero is not a size.) The lane Bryant models are beautiful. I want to look like them. Smooth, no double anything and they look sexy as hell in lingerie! I want. I will get there.

And five more years from now if I ever go to my high school reunion, I will look fly as fuck with my guy on my arm and be happy as a clam.
Or…five years from now, I will stay at home with my guy, do dirty things and not even realize that there was ever a reunion xD I’m opting for the latter although the fat girl in high school who was bullied, judged and ignored for how she looked really wants to rub it in their faces.

But I know better. >.<

Okay I’m done. I will watch a so far very interesting take on Cinderella called After the Ball.
 
Phew, finally caught up on all my role plays. My muse had been on the fritz since last week and the role plays that needs responses were just piling up. It was driving me insane so what do I do to find some muse again and quick? I go find books to read. The ones that I have in my Kindle library weren’t really helping since I have read them all more than once at least. I had gotten the Fifty Shades of Grey movie and it was fun to watch over and over again. Reading the books however…they’re actually painful to read because of how poorly written they are. When I first read them, I didn’t think so. Now, I do after having read so many better books.

Reading always helps my muse. So when not even rereading my favorite series by Tiffany Snow, The Kathleen Turner Series, was helping, I happened to find out that some of the books I was waiting for to come out, finally did. I finished one, which was a novella, about an hour and a half after I bought it. I finished the other one just today and I am dying for the next one to come out already. Tiffany Snow does that. She’s just that fucking amazing.

Now I’m reading the next installment, book five, in The Company of Killers series by J.A. Redmerski. I had done enough reading and finally tackled all of my role plays. Let me just say it feels so good to finally be so caught up. Now the stress is on my partners (-cough- Quix –cough-) and I can sleep better knowing that soon, I will have replies to get my jollies off to ^^

So excited.

Got a brush in with a kind of unsavory character that made me a bit uncomfortable after a couple of days. Let me just say, if a gal says no and a guy keeps pushing, it just comes off as creepy. And for me, it makes me uncomfortable because it brings back not so wonderful memories that I have put behind me. If I say no, no matter how joking I can seem despite my friendly demeanor, then listen. I don’t like to be pushed. Don’t push me. I withdraw and then I walk away and block you out completely so you can never talk to me again, which is my way of saying ‘Leave me the fuck alone.’ It makes me feel better because then I don’t feel angry or scared.

But other than that, I hope everyone in the states enjoys a great 4th and everyone who is not, just barbeque anyways. You know you want to :)
 
I finished the fifth book in the In the Company of Killers series by J.A. Redmerski today. I stayed up until nearly 8 AM reading it. It’s just that good. Every time I read one, it always takes a few chapters to really get into it and then there’s typically one sentence in maybe the fourth or fifth chapter of each book she writes in this series that is always the grabber and that’s what pulls me in. And makes me fully incapable of putting the book down.

I was timing it along with the show I was watching. So I was like, okay I will watch the ‘Lost’ season one finale and then go to bed. Well I did that and I hadn’t yet found a spot in the book that seemed like a good place to start. Then I did and it was nearly eight and I almost wanted to stay awake and be like ‘fuck it, I will just go splat on the grill.’ I slept anyways. Four hours. Maybe three. But anyways, I have a really bad feeling about this book, and how it will end. I feel like I am going to be broken hearted again because I cried my eyes out after reading book three, it was just so heart breaking. If you want to learn how to effectively kill the amazing and comical charm of a beloved character, read the third book of this series. That’s how you do it!

I got lucky, kind of. I am disappointed a bit but I know better than to show that because I didn’t feel like going to my grandparents to cook in the heat on my grill. My grandma decided to commit her and my grandpa—and me by extension—to a family dinner at my aunt’s house tonight. I knew instantly that the barbeque was going to be postponed because it was one meal or the other, not both, especially since I knew if my grandpa ate what I was going to make, he’d be done for the day. So I got lucky but I was still disappointed since I was clearly excited for it. I don’t know, it’s one of those situations where it’s like ‘Oh okay, cool’ but deep down, it’s just annoying that you had these plans, made these plans clear, even went grocery shopping for those plans yesterday, and yet they’re totally discarded >.< If that makes any sense at all.

All I can say is my aunt better have some dessert of some kind at dinner because I have been craving sweet. It sucks. But I did good this week. I ate very little, worked out a lot and kept myself busy and hydrated so I wouldn’t be hungry! That’s gotta count for something right? Meh.

Hope everyone’s 4th is going well. And if you don’t celebrate the 4th, I just hope you’re totally kicking ass on that barbeque and cooking delicious food. I will live vicariously through you all! Did I mention that tonight’s family dinner is all vegetarian? Joy >.<
 
Because my 4th of July barbeque was canceled on Saturday due to a family dinner, I finally got to cook all of the food today.

I am so full, I am bursting at the seams.

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Chicken stuffed mushrooms. I was going to make beef stuffed mushrooms but unfortunately, since it was three days after we got the food, the beef went bad. I had chicken kabobs and I improvised and minced up the chicken and vegetables and that became my stuffing instead. Pretty effing good if I do say so myself. Me and my grandpa loved them!

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Tandoori spiced bbq chicken. I was really nervous adding tandoori spice to the bbq marinade but it was subtle and not too overpowering. So when I ate it, I tasted the bbq flavor but the aftertaste was tandoori. Not too shabby if I do say so myself :D

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Beef kabobs. Store bought. Still nummy!

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Tandoori spiced salmon. This was perhaps the best thing I made because I had never cooked salmon before. I cooked white fish and tilapia before but not salmon so I was really nervous. When me and my brother were younger and we did bbqs in the family, my dad always did the salmon. He did all the cooking. This time, it was all me and that salmon came out...beautifully. Oh my god, it just melted in my mouth and was so soft and so tender and mmfff!

So the moral of this all, the idea to use tandoori spice was the best decision I made for this bbq. Now that's how you do Indian inspired bbq. Not just fucking curry. -insert snort and eyeroll here-
 
Damn, that salmon looks nice, I want some.

And, as much as I love a hot, hot, hot, spicy Vindaloo, I know Indian is more than curry. You even have some mean deserts I never see at restaurants!
 
It was delicious. Oh my god, I almost had a hard time saving some for my grandpa.

I don't even know what vindaloo is...-shrugs-
The ones they typically have at restaurants are Kheer, Rasgulla, or Gulab Jamun. Kheer and Gulab Jamun are more common. Sometimes they won't even have dessert, just fresh fruit, or they might have mango soft serve ice cream. It just depends on where you go. The buffet that we go to out here mixes it up. Sometimes they'll have kheer, sometimes they'll have gulab jamun or they'll have gajar halwa. Just kind of depends. It's very rare to have matai or rasmalai for dessert at any Indian restaurant that I have ever been to, whether it's a buffet or not. Which is just downright unfortunate :[
 
It seems far too early for my brother to be coming back to town. But he is and this time, he’s not staying at some stupid hotel on the Vegas Strip, he’s staying with us, in the apartment.

Apparently, my mom said he’s feeling anxious about staying with us here and not in the lap of luxury in some stupid casino on the strip. When my mom said that, though not in those exact words, I rolled my eyes and said,

“Oh the poor child. How he will ever endure, I have no idea. I mean it’s not like he’s ever lived with us before. I am sure he will be in just hell all over again.”

I don’t my mom liked that very much. Well I think my brother is an asshole for saying ‘I don’t want to stay with you guys when I come to visit you.’

Sorry, but I guess I’m cheap that way. I’d much rather stay with someone than have to worry about a fucking hotel. But you know…whatever.
 
I don’t think I like the family dinners too much. I don’t really like the people there too much except for my grandparents. My parents don’t go. They don’t really like them there too and there was even this big drama about two Thanksgivings ago over going to Panera for Sunday morning breakfast regarding my mom. They all attacked her verbally about it just as we were leaving and I was just like…’Don’t talk to my momma that way. It’s breakfast, get over it.’

It took about a year to get over it and I think around the time my mom was diagnosed with cancer, everything was water under the bridge. Heinous how something like that can bring a family together-ish, eh?

I think the person that irks me the most about my extended family is my grandpa’s sister. She means well, I know but man…and I thought living with my OCD mother can be a nightmare a lot of the times. This woman is just a whole other person who is like 99 % complaints and 1 % charm.

Last Christmas, there was this family dinner and they had delicious prime rib and baked potatoes. Well I prepare my baked potatoes in a certain way. I cut it in half and then slice the potato inside to loosen it up a bit, mash it a bit and then put butter and sour cream and mix it up so it’s not just on the top. As I’m doing that, she asks ‘What are you doing?’ while she can clearly see what I’m doing and I look at her and just give her this look. I wasn’t in the mood. Plus I was starving and was having meat again after many months of not having meat since my mom is a hardcore vegetarian—borderline vegan if she really had her way and didn’t like yogurt so much!

So I gave her this look and I was like ‘Preparing my potato.” And it was kind of like word vomit what I said next but I don’t regret it one bit. I just kind of snapped and I think I have just been waiting to snap at these people and I said, “Do you have a problem with that?” She instantly recoiled and even her husband was like “No no, no one has any problem with that. It’s okay.” Like he was trying to placate me. I told my mom about it and she laughed and so did I. It was a truly proud moment. When you’re able to snap at people and they still want you around.

I think going to family dinners once a week is becoming toxic for me. I know, that sounds strange because it’s only once a week and typically it should be awesome with family, whether it’s immediate or extended. Typically, at least. Not so much for me. I’m used to immediate and my mom’s parents. I grew up with them since I was born. Not these people who are next to strangers in my book.

But that’s just me. I do love family and I value family but my extended family seems to really get on my nerves (And this is excluding my mom’s parents because they are more like immediate family as well in my book because they’re always there and they also now live in the same city as we do) more than my immediate family and I spend more time with my immediate family than them. So…merp.

It was one of those days.
On the bright side? I got to sleep and recuperate on that after a two-day hang over and small stomach bug so that was always nice.

Myess :D
 
I think I just wrote the longest post for one of my role plays in a long time. I’ve written long posts like this, hitting the four page mark; that’s what Word says. I know, my partner hasn’t even read it yet but I am so proud of it and the fact I was even saying I didn’t have much of a muse for it earlier today that I wanted to share it here.

Apparently, when I don’t have a muse, I get four pages out. Who would have known? xP

The Manor (with Mr Quixotic.)

It was easy to see that she was affecting him just like he was affecting her. It was easy to hear that in his voice, he was doing all he could to maintain his self control and his dominance over the entire situation. It was easy for her, even in her slowly muddled mind that Hawthorne Tisch, the sexy, enigmatic owner of The Manor was as turned on as she was and he was right in his element of executing his sheer will over her. It was the sexiest scene ever and she couldn’t believe her stars that she was here right now. It was like a dream come true except it wasn’t the most orthodox of dreams. It was what she needed. It was exactly everything she desired to feel more alive. Harper never felt so alive until now, during her entire ‘courtship’ with this unbelievable man. And he was all hers for the night.

Despite her appearance, Harper always had a hard time following instructions. She was a sort of a silent and closet rebel and her parents would happily attest to that with how much trouble she used to cause a child. Somewhere along the way, she turned into a quiet and meek young woman who didn’t say what she really wanted to say. Her actions said otherwise and she often didn’t listen and did as she pleased. This was just another example of that and she was kind of glad for that because it brought out the best in this man and his dominance over her. This is what she had craved; for a man to be so dominant with her that he didn’t hold back and she sincerely—albeit desperately, too—hoped that he wasn’t holding back one bit right this moment.

Her body was already singing with the many spanks to her flesh. Her skin and flesh burned in the most delicious way. The pain was so pleasurable it excited her more and she desired for more, to be spanked more, to be hit more. She didn’t like abuse and so long as he never hit her face, it wouldn’t be abuse in her mind. Especially if she wanted this. The pain translated into pleasure and it was exactly everything she hoped it would be, but so much more at the same time.

His voice was deep, harsh and so sexy, just the authority of it and the fact it was dripping with so much need, just like she was dripping with the need of him between her legs, spurred her on even more. Her eyes closed as shivers ran up her spine, just from the heat of his breath against her ear as he spoke. “Yes.” She breathed. It was almost embarrassing how breathy her words came out but it couldn’t be helped. Her body was slick with a sheen of sweat, as if it was a visual test of endurance for what he was doing to her. She wanted more. She needed more. “Yes, yes, yes, all of that.” She half-moaned, half-breathed and pushed back into him, wanting to rub her aching ass cheeks against his throbbing cock still in the harsh confines of his pants. She could practically feel him already thrusting so deep inside of her wet and tight depths, it was an even bigger tease that he wasn’t doing it already.

Harper pleaded, begged more than she ever begged for something in her life since she was a child and he didn’t give in. Oh, he had to want to give in so badly. That or he was truly a master at this skill and while he was hard as steel, he knew how to control himself to make her beg until any shred of sanity left her completely. She was so close to that but so very quickly, her drive to beg more dialed down a little bit. All of a sudden, he pulled her off the table, calling her a whore, his whore in fact and the title of it was enough justification for her. She wanted to be his whore, she wanted to be only his whore and she nearly melted in his embrace. His lips were on hers and it was the first kiss they shared and it was more than anything she had ever felt. She never kissed a man and felt like this. She felt it for a time with Steve, until the night of the ball at The Manor when she met Hawthorne and then her entire life changed. She leaned into him and her arms slid around his neck, clutching him to her as she kissed him back with so much passion, so much heat, desire, need, and lust. A soft moan came from her into the kiss as his tongue forcibly pushed into her mouth and she sucked on it with her own. It was a deep entanglement of tongues, a sexy tango of passion and need that made her heart beat faster as well as made her want to pounce on him and simply take what she wanted it.

As quickly as it started though, it was over and she whimpered at the loss of contact, her lips following his to bring him back into another kiss. Instead, he bit down on her lower lip and the very act was so sexy, so primal. A soft groan of appreciation came from her and mesmerized, she nodded her head slowly, her eyes opening to look into his own and more desired pooled between her shaking legs. “Yes.” She breathed, so consumed with the lust that she didn’t even notice him looking behind her. “I’m already going insane Hawthorne, I need you. Right. Now.” She leaned up to kiss him again but he evaded her. She wanted to cry out in frustration but held back and felt him behind her, a soft gasp coming from as his erection pressed between her ass cheeks. She pushed back as well, grinding back into his hips and closing her eyes, her head tilting back into his shoulder and she relished the sensation of it. So close, yet so far.

Teasing her nipples, pleasure shot down between her legs and she moaned softly, pushing back into his hips even more, as if she was really getting down with all the gyrating. If this was the closest to sex he’d give her, she’d take dry humping over nothing. But it wasn’t enough. His taunting words though…that was a whole other story and instead of embarrassing her, she only smiled, even laughed a little bit. “I can’t help it.” She crooned. “It’s your fault. Not mine. I’m the innocent one here. I’m—“ She never finished her statement and neither did she remember it at all. Her body was pushed back artfully into the wall and before she knew it, her entire body was shackled back. Arms above her head and wrists shackled. Legs spread apart wide enough and ankles shackled and she wasn’t going anywhere. She was on full display for this man.

Her nipples were peaked so hard, begging for his lips, his mouth, his teeth. Her body had a slight shine to it from the sweat that covered it and under the light, she didn’t look so pale. She looked like she had a lot of color to her skin, but that might be mostly from how flushed she was right now from everything he did to her. Her ass, which was pressed to the X on the wall was covered in bright red streaks from the whip and also had some hand prints still on her flesh. It was very red, very plump, very…spankable and it was still stinging so deliciously. She was shaved and completely bare, especially between her legs which was the center and core of her heat and arousal; it glistened slightly from the light. Her body was soft, her stomach was flat and there were faint traces of stretch marks that gave way to the fact she wasn’t perfect, she had never been perfect.

Could she beg? She already did and it wasn’t enough. Instead of answering him, she chose the defiant route and kept her mouth shut, staring him down with an audacity and tenacity that was so very unlike her. It was so exciting to be restrained up like this, her body on full display to him and at his mercy, however he liked. She wouldn’t be able to try and stop him and he could learn exactly what made her tick even more and how far she could go, how much she was willing to endure. That was even more exciting. The question was: would she even want him to stop, no matter what?

Something in her brought her attention back to reality and the question of begging when he mentioned Steve Kirk, her boyfriend. They hadn’t broken up and were technically very much together, albeit taking things at a much slower pace—mostly so she could enjoy her time with Hawthorne guilt free without the worry of deeper attachment and commitment with a man who was too safe for her. “You know the answer to that Mr. Tisch.” Her lips twisted into a grin and it felt like her inner ‘Izabel’ was officially unleashed. She felt like herself, Harper Collins, but this was the more depraved, deprived and cock-hungry slut version of herself. She didn’t feel as shy. She felt like being a smart-mouthed bitch who would evoke everything necessary from him to make him as ruthless as she craved. And that’s exactly what she was doing.

Before she could open her mouth to say anything else though, his fingers shoved deep inside of her and her head tilted back. It was the closest sense of satisfaction she got all night because he was finally close to giving her exactly what she wanted. She moaned deeply and her hips pushed up into his fingers as if she was so close to fucking herself on them herself. His lips claimed hers and she moaned again into his mouth, almost kissing him hungrily but even in her muddled state, she was able to see the gentleness of such a gesture, while his fingers inside of her said anything but gentle. All too quickly she was left with this empty void where his fingers were but was rewarded with such a delicious spank, it made her pussy throb. She got wetter from it alone and was left a panting and writhing mess. What would he do next?

Again, she wouldn’t answer, settling for the defiant little bitch she was acting like. So only when he began to spank her pussy with a flogger, was that defiant attitude leaving her and she once more became the depraved and deprived whore with a looser tongue. She moaned loudly and very quickly, her loud and deep guttural moans turned into screams of pleasure. Her body shook in the X-frame, the cuffs rattled each time he hit her and her pussy throbbed and hummed with the rising pleasure of her impending orgasm. “Please!” She screamed. “Hawthorne, please!” She didn’t want him to stop. She wanted him to fuck her. She needed him right now.

“I need you…” she breathed, her eyes closed, tears actually leaking out of the corners of her closed lids. She wasn’t crying because it hurt. She was crying because it felt so good, the pleasure was so intense that she hadn’t even realized she lost herself in a frenzied orgasm that rocked through her entire being, most intense at her very heated core that just exploded like a dam flooding everywhere. She even gushed a little bit, a small bit of a squirt of her own nectar and her body thrashed a bit against the X.

Only when it stopped and only when he would stop flogging her, her body relaxed back into the wall, into the restraints and she shook, hard. Harper breathed heavily and her head lolled on her shoulder. “Fuck me, Mr. Tisch.” She rasped breathlessly. “Fuck me like the dirty little whore I am.” Her body seemed to calm down but she still breathed fast. This was unlike anything she ever could have expected or foreseen.

Opening her eyes, Harper looked up at him and she lifted her chin, as hard of a struggle it was because that orgasm practically drained her. But there was a little hope when she smiled that smile of hers; the one that said she was still there, she was still coherent and that meant…”Drive me insane. If I am still coherent, if I can still speak properly…you’re not doing it right.”

Once more, Harper Collins challenged the ruthless owner. One challenge after the other and she’d always rise to meet each of them.


Word Count: 2,135.
 
Remind me not to believe you the next time you say 'I don't have much of a muse'. Either that, or to be frightened about how awesome your response will be, when you do have one!

A post to be proud of, for sure, and although your partner can't promise the same excellence, and a four-page reply, he'll do his best, xD

You deserve a reward, and in line with our conversation yesterday:

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LOL, I didn’t know! I really didn’t. It was still early enough and ours was the only role play I hadn’t responded to yet and I was like ‘okay I gotta bang this out.’ and well…I didn’t know! xD Don’t be scared.

Thank you love. Pfft, you’re already brilliant, whether you were to do three pages, two or one or even a simply paragraph <3 That’s how brilliant you are!

It’s so pretty! So colorful! Who is the lady on the five dollar?
 
Malicious Lullaby said:
LOL, I didn’t know! I really didn’t. It was still early enough and ours was the only role play I hadn’t responded to yet and I was like ‘okay I gotta bang this out.’ and well…I didn’t know! xD Don’t be scared.

Thank you love. Pfft, you’re already brilliant, whether you were to do three pages, two or one or even a simply paragraph <3 That’s how brilliant you are!

It’s so pretty! So colorful! Who is the lady on the five dollar?

You know I'd never be scared of you! I love that, when you start and it just flows, though it doesn't happen too often for me. However, when it does, it's a great feeling.

Thank you, Mali; then one paragraph it will be, xD

It makes it easy to tell each denomination apart. That's Queen Elizabeth 2; a little younger than she is now!
 
I know. It’d be impossible for you to be scared of me. Unless I decided to post within the hour of your post xP
I don’t know, it happened recently when you posted right I posted for you xP

Okay just as long as you know that what you give me, you get in return xP

The color makes it easy to tell each denomination apart? That makes sense. Blue means twenties. Easy as one, two, three xP
I thought so! She has that very distinct face.
 
One of those other great posts that I’m proud of, more for the depth of detail and painting a picture with words alone. I think I found the perfect person to do this role play with.

In the Hands of a Killer (with Victorian_Virtue)

Her eyes closed again and this time they stayed closed. She didn’t drift, Sofia was perfectly capable of hearing him and everything he said. The words impacted her and behind her closed lids, in the darkness, a single light shone through and she saw herself walking closer and closer to it until she was right before it. Just a light bulb, shining so brightly. All of a sudden, it morphed into a single ball of fire that just hovered there in the darkness. It was just her and the ball of fire and she stared at it, a sort of smile on her face and she reached her hand out to touch it. It didn’t burn her. It seemed to comfort her, the single bit of warmth and it began to cuddle to her like a little baby animal.

All of a sudden, it grew and it became this dangerous, venomous predator of a fire that wrapped around her. She screamed and she started screaming in all actual reality but her eyes didn’t open. Her body shook and then just like that, she stopped screaming but her body kept shaking, making the chair rattle a little bit.

She was taken back a house that burning. The house she couldn’t get into, the house that felt like no matter how hard she tried, she couldn’t get to it, she couldn’t stop it. In the distance, she heard screams of agony and suddenly, she was transported inside. It looked like her room, a young kid’s room, possibly a young teenager’s room, once upon a time but it was consumed with flames.

Next thing she knew she was yanked outside and watched from afar with a blanket wrapped around her. Gray smudges colored her face and she had an oxygen mask on her face but all she heard was the chatter around her.

“Two bodies found inside. Male body is burnt to a crisp, so is the female body. Identification among the ruins named that as Mr. and Mrs. Keith Cassidy.”
“That’s the Cassidy girl there?”
“Yeah. She survived. Neighbor’s house was also on fire. Mr. and Mrs. Allende were burnt to a crisp as well. They have a daughter.”
“Where is she?”
“Don’t know.”

She pulled the mask off of her face and she saw her intense icy hazel eyes in the crowd. “She did it! She killed them!” The words were out of her mouth before she could even really process them and before she could get away, police officers rushed to her in the crowd and pulled her away.

“Izabelle Allende.”
“How could you?!” She screamed at the girl in the back of the ambulance truck. “How could you?! I did it for you Sofia! I did it so we could be together! So we could run away!”

Sofia turned away and she wiped her tearful eyes and sniffled.
“You’ll regret it! I promise you, one day I will come back! I will kill you!”

The scene shifted but she could still hear the echo of Izabelle’s voice. “I’ll kill you! I’ll kill you!” She was in her apartment, asleep when a sudden heat crashed through the place and smoke filled the air. It filled her lungs so potently and she was coughing, dragging her weakened body out of bed and hurrying for the window. She climbed out of it and quickly climbed down the fire escape and once she hit the ground, something crashed into her and she fell to the ground, her head hitting horribly against the black pavement.

Turning onto her back, Sofia looked up and saw a woman; dark raven hair that was like sinful silk to touch and piercing icy hazel eyes that could freeze a person’s soul the way one look from Medusa turned a person to stone.
“You’ll live for now.” She hissed, lightly nipping her ear. “Burning in a fire is too easy for you, just like it was so easy for our parents.” Her breath was hot against her ear as she brought her lips over her jaw, up her cheek and toward her lips. “One day, I’ll take you to meet
him and you will wish that I let you burn and suffocate.”

“Izabel…”
“Mm…Sofia I always did love it when you said my name. Just you wait my love. I will be back for you. And you will wish you were never born.”

Once again, she was back in that darkness and with that dangerous ball of fire that turned predatory. Sofia stepped back and it moved toward her. She turned and began to run and the ball of fire which turned into a predatory animal began to run after her. She saw another light, not orange but a while light. She tried to run faster but the faster she ran, the more the fire caught up to her. Just as she was so close to the white light that had a hand offered to her, the fire pounced and landed on top of her and consumed her.

The pain, the heat, the intensity of it all and she screamed as the fire consumed her into dark and lonely depths of abyss.


Her eyes shot open and she screamed, a wail of agony and tears poured freely out of the corners of her eyes. She thrashed in her chair, trying to get away. “Please! Please! Just get it off of me! Get it off me!” She was lost in the memory but she didn’t remember actual vivid details. She remembered the fire and the intense fear it brought her. Of all that she remembered, she remembered one thing; she was so afraid of fire, deathly afraid of fire.

“I’m on fire. And she just let me go. I’m on fire and she just let me go!” She screamed. Sweat licked her body and she broke out into a sudden bout of shivers. Breathing hard, Sofia managed to calm down and just withdrew into herself. Tears still streamed silently down her face and she sniffled. “I remember fire.” Her voice was so shaky, as if she just remembered the most traumatizing thing in her unknown past. “But each time there was fire, I was never in it. Each time there was fire, I was looking out at it but not in it.” She whispered softly, sniffling hard.

“Darkness envelopes me. Always surrounds me. Like a blanket, I can’t breathe.” Her pulse pounded painfully in her head and a grimace crossed her face. She swallowed hard and breathed deeply through her nose. “Dark, raven hair like sinful silk to touch and piercing icy hazel eyes that can freeze a person’s soul, it’s like looking into the eyes of Medusa.”


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Malicious Lullaby said:
I know. It’d be impossible for you to be scared of me. Unless I decided to post within the hour of your post xP
I don’t know, it happened recently when you posted right I posted for you xP

Okay just as long as you know that what you give me, you get in return xP

The color makes it easy to tell each denomination apart? That makes sense. Blue means twenties. Easy as one, two, three xP
I thought so! She has that very distinct face.

You wouldn't dare do that to me; again! It did, your post inspired me!

Hmmm, does that go for everything? xD

Um, the twenty, or 'lobster' as we call it, is orange! It does make it easier, and we don't tip, so have no need for $1 bills either.
She does, very English and Aristocratic.

I love your other sample as well; you know I adore the personality and emotion you bring to your characters and posts.
 
Oh goodness, don’t post again so quickly! >.<

I had to reread what I wrote in order to understand this. And possibly, it might xP

Oh right. Sorry. I meant the tens! No but you do have one dollar and two dollar coins. That’s enough xP I should really read up on the history of Australia? Is there some kind of British influence?

Thank you ^^ You’re so sweet love <3 I really liked that post. I think I’m on a roll hehe.
 
Malicious Lullaby said:
Oh goodness, don’t post again so quickly! >.<

I had to reread what I wrote in order to understand this. And possibly, it might xP

Oh right. Sorry. I meant the tens! No but you do have one dollar and two dollar coins. That’s enough xP I should really read up on the history of Australia? Is there some kind of British influence?

Thank you ^^ You’re so sweet love <3 I really liked that post. I think I’m on a roll hehe.

Damnit, and I had one written fifty-one minutes after reading yours. However, me being a nice guy and all, and not wanted to stress you, has decided to leave it a few days before hitting the 'post' button, xD

I can talk in riddles sometimes; it always make sense to me, but often not so much to others.

We're all of convict stock, Mali. Australia started out as British Penal Colony. A bloody long way to transport someone for stealing a loaf of bread.

Anytime, and imagine what you could do if you actually had the muse! xP
 
Oh really? Well come on now post man! Don’t you want to try and best the Malicious Mali??? xP

I can’t ever talk in riddles. I can attempt it for maybe role plays posts like the one I just did but otherwise, no not really…I can’t even rhyme!

Oh…I had no idea. So if they didn’t want to lop their heads off but send them far far away, they sent them to Australia? So your dad and mom come from a lineage of ‘criminals?’ That is so cool!!

Probably terrify my partners and make everyone ostracize me because I write a fucking novel xP
 
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