Re: Your Future Ex Boyfriend
People who use the term "muse" and take it seriously are fucking stupid. Like when they say "BLAERGH I CAN'T POST BECAUSE MY MUSES JUST AREN'T COOPERATING." Seriously, fucking stop it. I ignore and drop rps with people who are this fucking stupid.
I hate the undeserved sense of self-worth that "advanced literate" rpers have, they suck worse than most anyways. Sorry, I don't want 12 paragraphs about nothing. If you feel the need to fill your posts with fluff and filler so you can reach your minimum of five paragraphs, I want nothing to do with you.
Some people are disappointing me in more than one way. Also, I don't like being harassed, fucking stop it. I love you, but fucking back off.
I love you in a dandy friend way, by the by.
I need new music, I'm bored of what I currently have.
I messed up my sleep schedule big time, but it's worth it.
I'm going to beat Silent Hill 2 eventually.
I need to start drawing again, I feel like I need some kind of creative way to express my gay self. RPing isn't cutting it anymore.
Stop being so damn negative, I never want to share anything I love with you anymore. You act superior and bring it down to the level of garbage under your feet. I don't want you to like all the same things I like just because I like them, but at least stop being a total ass. Some things in life just make me happy, I don't expect everyone to love them but at least respect one of my outlets for stress. You want me to be happy, but yet you smother it every chance you get. I share these things with you because I'm excited about them, so don't be terrible to me because I just happen to love and trust you.
No, that isn't about a lover. No boyfriends for me.
I'm scared more often than not, I'm tired of being scared. At least my headache stopped. My shoulders are always tense though, sometimes I think you love the wrong things more than me. I want to be close to you, but you guilt me for not wanting to do everything you want to do. You interrupt me and belittle my opinion. I love you, so please stop it.
So much has been built up over the past few weeks. I need to start writing in my paper journal again. It's a little more therapeutic since I can scribble my anger down. However, I just want to feel good later on today. I want to be happier than anything. I know I don't have it bad. And the fact that I don't feel good right now means I was having an excellent time before. I have to have times of sadness too. I just sucks. Ah well.
I just got a new friend, so I'm happy about that. <3