- Joined
- May 25, 2011
Talia took several deep breaths as Armond talked to her. His words made sense, but she was still nervous about the whole thing.
"It's... not about the action," she said. "I know the movements and what to do to bring myself to orgasm, but the problem is me. If someone's playing with me, if someone else is touching me, it's out of my hands what happens: my body just reacts. And... and I like it that way. But... but with the exception of Mistress's shop, which was about the toys, not me, I haven't touched myself ever since I was raped. It was always someone else toughing me: Master Mika brought me to orgasm the night I was captured to make a point, Jet did the same thing when we were allowed to bathe together one night and the rest of the time it was Mistress. Ever since I was captured, my sexuality has literally been out of my own hands. I don't know if I'm even capable of getting myself off anymore and... and the pressure of an audience isn't helping much either. And that scares me: what if I'm not able to get myself off? What does that say about what I've become?"
She did her best to lift her head given her bindings.
"I'm not trying to defy you: I'm just scared."
"It's... not about the action," she said. "I know the movements and what to do to bring myself to orgasm, but the problem is me. If someone's playing with me, if someone else is touching me, it's out of my hands what happens: my body just reacts. And... and I like it that way. But... but with the exception of Mistress's shop, which was about the toys, not me, I haven't touched myself ever since I was raped. It was always someone else toughing me: Master Mika brought me to orgasm the night I was captured to make a point, Jet did the same thing when we were allowed to bathe together one night and the rest of the time it was Mistress. Ever since I was captured, my sexuality has literally been out of my own hands. I don't know if I'm even capable of getting myself off anymore and... and the pressure of an audience isn't helping much either. And that scares me: what if I'm not able to get myself off? What does that say about what I've become?"
She did her best to lift her head given her bindings.
"I'm not trying to defy you: I'm just scared."