He closed his eyes for a few seconds, breathing heavily, before opening them again. His set of vibrant green eyes glared at her. Both his hands went up to her waist. Suddenly, a hand went up to the back of her head. He pulled her head down so their foreheads touched. He closed his eyes, biting his lips, fighting tears.
"I'm so sorry," he whispered, shaking his head. "It just killed me watching you in so much pain because of me. For a moment, I forgot who I was today, and I wanted to see you suffer for something I know wasn't really your fault." The hand on the back of her head began to tighten around her hair. Keith felt it begin to shiver.
"I felt tempted to make you suck my dick," he said, his lips trembling. "Somehow, I felt that'd satisfy some part of me that hated you, but you looked so willing, and vulnerable and--and, sad." He sniffed. "There was so much trust and conviction in your voice, and-and your eyes, they looked so naive, like a deer and..." Tears began to well up in his eyes. "That's when I realized, it's been you this whole time, and I've just promised that I w-wouldn't ever hurt you, and there I was about to." He stroked her hair.
"Sophie," he whispered, feeling a tear burn down his cheek. "Please forgive me for all of the things I've done to you. I've always loved you, and I always will. Everything bad I've ever done to you has been a twisted result of that. You don't have to accept this, because you're only beginning to know me better, and I don't expect you to."
"I'm so sorry," he whispered, shaking his head. "It just killed me watching you in so much pain because of me. For a moment, I forgot who I was today, and I wanted to see you suffer for something I know wasn't really your fault." The hand on the back of her head began to tighten around her hair. Keith felt it begin to shiver.
"I felt tempted to make you suck my dick," he said, his lips trembling. "Somehow, I felt that'd satisfy some part of me that hated you, but you looked so willing, and vulnerable and--and, sad." He sniffed. "There was so much trust and conviction in your voice, and-and your eyes, they looked so naive, like a deer and..." Tears began to well up in his eyes. "That's when I realized, it's been you this whole time, and I've just promised that I w-wouldn't ever hurt you, and there I was about to." He stroked her hair.
"Sophie," he whispered, feeling a tear burn down his cheek. "Please forgive me for all of the things I've done to you. I've always loved you, and I always will. Everything bad I've ever done to you has been a twisted result of that. You don't have to accept this, because you're only beginning to know me better, and I don't expect you to."